I’m trying to get healthier, working on a treadmill. Going to get more charge of my body. So I decided to buy a treadmill. This expensive tool give me the opportunity to exercise when it’s raining or cold outside.
Lately I’ve been struggling to keep working in place. Earlier I thought it was because I don’t have enough vacation, but I discovered that I was wrong to think that way. I discovered that after 5 days full vacation. Road trip actually where I visit 3 cities and 11 attractions, costing more than $700. Way to go to burn money.
In the last few months, I have been developing a great interest in Psychoanalysis. Particularly Freud and Lacan. The latter was because I watched many of Zizek videos on YouTube.
Today I watched a rich person, who had been recognized as Internet Guru on YouTube. He mentioned his philosophy of Life, how to handle the business as daily basis. It’s amazing to watch the way behind the mask, what was revealing beneath is not very dark place. It’s amazing to understand how people really work this way.
I remember an episode of One Punch Man, where Genos the Saitama’s disciple would like to know the secret of how Saitama got so strong. So it went on like this, Saitama said that he only got strong because of training routine that he had: 100 push ups, 100 sit ups, 100 squats, and 10 kilometres running.
I always love how Taylor Swift creates her songs and I enjoyed very much her appearance on her video. You can watch her performance in Wildest Dream in the video below:
Taylor Swift has become my favorite singers over the past year. This is because her song lyrics reflect very much on my life. I particularly like “Shake It Off” song, which basically tells us that we cannot make everyone happy, just be happy yourself and forget everybody else as haters will be always there to hate. Haters are going to hate as Taylor said.
Sometimes, the best advice are kinda creepy and scary if you think deeply of it. There is some advice that if you are feeling miserable, look into others and find what troubles them and what suffering they are experiencing. I think this is kinda immoral. Just imagine, that you are now have most thing that disabled people don’t have, and be grateful for what you have just because you can see that other people are more miserable than we are. The advice often said, “Look down and you will be grateful”
I remembered a story between Beowulf vs Dragon. It’s a old poem which describes how Beowulf, the hero, killed monsters and ultimately kill a dragon.
By learning about Beowulf story, I realize that Heroism , which describes as a person who brave and have characteristics to take risks even on his life, is nothing more than a personal journey. Not altruism.
For the last couple of days, I have felt some anxiety. There are a lot of new things going on in my life. But I think the most responsible for this matter is the way I now look things. I am not looking at the mirrors, but rather go out and search all possible alternatives.
I become realistic, somewhat nihilist and absurdist…I can’t decide which one I’m in. Religion also takes part in this, as nowadays it is heavily influenced by capitalism. I felt that it’s not just a way of life, but also a way to get richer and stronger in life. The main function is not just to be able to communicate with God and with human through society, but also act as a means to get materialistic things. This is sad how religion evolves to fit to human needs.
I’ve spent some quite bucks for new site and several hosting, it might also contribute to my anxiety because I’ve never spent so much money on hosting and domains before. I can’t imagine next year when the billing invoices comes.
According to RescueTime, an app that tracks my daily activities on computers. I’ve spent the most time looking at Facebook. I know, it’s nothing but I like hanging out with my friends. At least on internet I can look at how my friends success, how they react to my status, or how I can learn from other things that can contribute to my success. Well, most of the time it just contains garbage. Mark, why did you create such evil things to make our lives miserable just to look at others success and not your own?
Second most distracting things is in Business category. So that’s relieving. I just thought I didn’t get enough time for doing anything else besides marketing and facebook. I think I just have to cut time for facebook for a little while. Gradually before I close up my account. I said that last year, and it’s still there lol.
Third most distracting activities are uncategories. Just browsing bunch of youtube channels and blogs to see what’s going on to the digital world.
It is said that the first medicine to anxiety is to admit that you have an anxiety. So there you go. I hope I get well soon.