Go Away Winter

After a few days of pleasant weather, it’s back to snowing again. It’s so freaking cold. We went out to get milk late this afternoon and it was hailing. We should have just stayed home, but we left anyway. Bad idea, it started getting icy just a few minutes later, and Pittsburgh is a city of hills. After we got the milk we couldn’t stop to eat, and we took the street car downtown, then caught the bus back, instead of walking. By that time it was snowing so hard it was practically blizzard conditions. We got back a few hours after leaving, and then the snow decided to calm down. I am so pissed off. I was hoping to get to South Hills Village tomorrow to get my headphones and Visa gift card, but that’s most likely not happening now, and if this weather doesn’t cut it out soon I don’t know when that’ll happen. It’s been at least a month since my headphones broke and this is driving me crazy. The old ones my mom found stopped working a few days after she gave them to me.

On Friday I went out with mommy dearest to the library to help her get her taxes done, then she took me to see the new CVS, and then to Eat n Park with an old gift card Cynthia gave me. She’s such a freaking liar. She says she’s hardly been drinking or smoking anymore, and that at most her an Walt share a pack a day. Yet when I called her later that day she was drunk. Like she is most times I call. A couple weeks ago she said he is an ex-Marine. And she’s said in the past that Walt couldn’t get on welfare because he isn’t disabled, which was a lie itself, you don’t have to be disabled to get on welfare. I found out that not only is he on welfare, but he also gets food stamps. Basically everything she says is a lie. And anything you say to her goes in one ear and out the other, she doesn’t listen to a word you say. If I say something to her most often she starts talking about something else, and doesn’t even look at me or acknowledge that I spoke.* But anyway, later that night I got an email saying the IRS had rejected her tax return because of some error with her pin number. She said she’d call them again on Monday, but I don’t know if they’re working today. It doesn’t matter anyway, because Cynthia’s phone isn’t working for some reason so she can’t contact me. She could have used the IRS online system, but she refused to go to the library again, instead having me do it on my computer, with her on the phone talking to me. When I’m at the computer trying to do things for her it always ends with her yelling at me because she doesn’t understand something. That’s not my problem, all I can do is read to her what it says. I wasn’t going to go through that again. So I didn’t bother telling her she could do it online.

On the night of Valentines day, and the early morning on the 15th my heart decided to go one strike. It was protesting long working hours and little pay. First my arms were aching, the kind of ache like if you exercise too much. When I get that it’s awful, it starts in the inside of my arm and goes down into my hands and fingers, and up to my shoulders and into my back. I try to stay as still as possible when it happens, because even the slightest movement can cause excruciating pain. It wasn’t so bad when I first when to sleep, but when I woke up an hour later it was horrible, the worst it’s ever been. And, I had started getting chest pains too. I also get them sometimes (not indigestion), but this continued to get worse and wouldn’t go away. I got so bad I had to go ask Cynthia for aspirin. I can’t swallow pills so I crushed it, and Cynthia gave me some arthritis cream for my arms, and put me downstairs on the couch. My heart was appeased by the sacrifice of aspirin, and went back to work. I slept off an on until dawn when I went back upstairs, and my arms were feeling a little better. Later that day my legs decided they wanted to cause trouble too, but it wasn’t as bad as my arms had been.

Edit: Cynthia does this too, except instead of just ignoring you she’ll talk over you if she disagrees with something she said. Just start yelling to drown out what you say, like a little kid putting their hands of their ears and going “nah nah nah I can’t hear you.” Most often it happens with me drying my hands. She’s always yelling at me to dry my hands. I can have a napkin in my hands drying them, and she’ll still be yelling at me to dry my hands. So, I think she must have the intelligence of a monkey or a baby. Both think if they don’t see something, it’s not happening, or it’s not there. A couple days ago she walked into the room while I was drying my hands, and she said “oh, you’re drying your hands for once!” I told her I always dry my hands, every single time, but she started yelling over me that I need to start drying them so they don’t crack, and to use lotion as well. Today it’s because the telephone started working again today, and whoever she talked to said it was because of her computer (translation: “we don’t know what the problem is, so we’ll blame it on something most people have.”) She says I had my computer hooked up to the phone line or that was I recharging something (WTF, she knows nothing about computers, recharging what?) She wouldn’t listen to me that my computer not only doesn’t connect to a phone line, it can’t. And why would I? What would the purpose be. But when I said that the computer physically cannot be hooked up to a phone line she just started yelling over me, like she always does, not to use the computer during the day. The laptop wasn’t even on or plugged in when the phone stopped working, and hadn’t been for hours, and I’ve been using it here since June without any problems with the phone, but she can’t explain to me why the laptop would make the phone stop working, just that she knows it does because that’s what someone decided to tell her, and because computers are scary newfangled technology, and she loves to talk about things she knows absolutely nothing about.

Edit2: Ha, I’ve been vindicated, next door’s phone wasn’t working either. Now Cynthia’s complaining that it smells, because my mom made me Tuna Helper, which Cynthia apparently thinks is “disgusting.” She says she hates noodles, but likes pasta. She won’t accept that they’re the same thing. She also hates Cinnamon Toast Crunch, and thinks it’s disgusting too. So anything she doesn’t like to eat is disgusting. My mom says she’s just disagreeable, which is true.

Today’s the Day

Today’s the day. The Super Bowl. The Super Bowl that my team is playing in. I’ve been planning on watching it, I always watch the Super Bowl, and it’s a requirement when the Steelers are playing, but I might not be able to. There’s two TVs here, a newer, digital one upstairs, and an old one downstairs that’s hooked up to a digital converter box. The government, in their infinite wisdom, made everyone switch to digital. It does not work. Those digital converter boxes are shit. The picture quality is still bad, and some stations don’t come in at all. Cynthia says her religious programs don’t come in on the TV downstairs so she’s going to watch them upstairs, sticking me with the crappy TV. And the problem is (other than watching the Super Bowl on an old TV that’s no bigger than 20 inches) I don’t know if Fox does either. This shit should be live streaming online. Edit: I was right! Fox is one of the messed up channels, it doesn’t have any sound! I am so pissed off!

I spoke to my mother the other day. She’s been having my rent the mini series Shogun for her from Netflix, and she wanted to know if a DVD had come. She told me great aunt Nita sent belated Christmas cards with $50 for each of us, and once again she took my money, and that she’ll “pay me back” but is only getting a $500 tax return back, and she needs that from rent. She said she’s also getting some from the state so she’ll give me my $50 from that. She started to say she thinks she owes me $20 more, and I had to correct her, $40. She now owes me $90. She took Nita’s Easter money, Nita’s birthday money, and now Nita’s Christmas money. $20, $20, $50. And she better stop BSing around, I need that money. My anti-virus expires in a couple months, and I cannot he without anti-virus protection.

I finished the first season of Skins on Netflix, and am almost done with the second. I don’t know if I’ll continue after that, since the original cast isn’t in it. I still like Jal and Chris, Cassie has fallen on my like list, still hate Michelle, like Tony a lot more now, don’t like Anwar anymore, he’s been replaced by Maxxie. I had started to like Sid a little bit more, but he starts acting like an ass again and by the end of the episode “Effy” I hated him again. Michelle is still a selfish, bitchy slut. After Tony’s comeupance/redemption episode last season he’s been a lot more likable. I hated Anwar in the first season because of the way he treated Maxxie, and don’t like him now because he’s such a weak whore. What he did was just wrong. As for Sketch, I have a complicated relationship with her. She’s such a complete psycho, which is both good and bad. Her episode was so scary and disturbing.

I still don’t have new headphones. I asked my mom if she had seen any of my old ones, and she found some and checked if they worked. She said they did, but when I got them up here and tried them they had the same problem they all do, only working in one ear. They’ve gotten even worse since then, and now stop working in both ears. Hopefully I’ll get new ones on Friday. I need anime, I need music, and I want to watch more Netflix instant. Roseanne and The Cosby Show are on there now. They need to add The Nanny next, I love that show.

Since I’ve been headphoneless off and on, I’ve been reading a lot of manga. I got caught up with the Pandora Hearts manga a couple weeks ago, since I really liked the anime, and now I’m very impatiently waiting for the next chapter. Such a good series. I loved the Yamato Nadeshiko Shichi Henge anime, but the manga is really dragging. It seems like nothing ever changes. I’ve also started the Shiki manga, am going to start Monochrome Factor, Mitsudomoe, and some others.

That is All

That was brutal. I wasn’t even playing and my body is aching, and my head has been pounding since the first quarter. Every time I’d accepted that we were going to lose they’d get a touch down and give me hope again. Even at the end we were so freaking close. Steelers are known for their amazing, last minute wins. And they let us down. It’s going to be a while before I forgive them for this. Until next Super Bowl.