Psycho Patrol Part 2

(8/25 edit Because I’m having trouble editing Psycho Patrol I’ve split it into two posts, here’s the second)

Got on long enough to check my email and found out Egg Cave has released a couple new eggs to celebrate their birthday. Why is every site I’m on having events right now?

When I was going to add this I saw this I saw a post of mine titled “Go Away Winter”… COME BACK WINTER!

7/22

Now some dark brown liquid has come out from under the fridge, and it’s definitely from under not in. Do your best not to break fridge.

Finally getting to update this

I just found that Subeta OF COURSE having an event right now.

Today wasn’t supposed to be as bad as yesterday, according to the stupid weatherman. You would have the same amount of luck trying to predict the weather with a magic 8 ball. It was worse than yesterday. I only got a few hours sleep today, and not quality sleep. I hovered somewhere in between being asleep and being awake, where nothing makes sense and everything is so confusing. It’s been raining so it’s actually nice out right now when there’s a breeze, but none of that is coming inside.

I think the liquid from the fridge came from the tray that’s supposed to keep the ice that melts. It’s been so hot that the tray overfilled. There was a lot of it, and much of it is still under and behind the fridge. I told Cynthia before she went out today with her niece Naomi, and when she came back she told me she bought a fridge. Sears resells fridges and other appliances that are sent back because of scratches and dents, so she managed to get a fairly new fridge for only $300. This fridge only has the last the weekend. I’m looking forward to saying good riddance to this fridge, and it’s horrible exposed coils.

I’ve been without internet for 10 days so far (this time).

Internet… work on July 31 so I can try to be one of the first to get into Pottermore!

7/23

Already I can feel tonight is cooler than the previous two nights, thank God.

Cynthia said yesterday she might get me a cake from Kribel’s. Even if she doesn’t, it’s really the thought that counts for me. I was happy that she even thought of doing it.

7/24

I have more to say about what happened yesterday, but I can’t type it right now. I just want to say I got see the A:LOK (I will NOT call it TLA:LOK) trailer and other Korra related stuff from SDCC and… Mako is a hottie! Cute, brooding, older, AND fire bender? Rawr. He better have a good voice actor too.

Well I can write what I wanted to now. I hadn’t planned on it because I wanted to continue watching Code Geass. For once I want my alarm to go downstairs and check for me, because if he goes down there I’ll know all is well. No matter what it bothers me that she did this. She is so naïve and acts like this is a fortress! So it’s up to me at all times, not just in instances like this, to make sure everything is locked up and is secure as it can be. There’s more but I can’t say them on here, even if the post is private. Yes! Tiger did go down though not to the area of the cellar I wanted him to, but it’s good enough.

I haven’t really slept the past couple days. One day it was unbearably hot, and yesterday my mom called for me to come down there. She had finally gone over there to start getting her stuff together. She has to be out in two weeks. She says she’s going to sell most of it because she can’t afford to pay movers or put it in storage. My stuff is all on the chopping block as well, and I can’t bring much more here or Cynthia will flip. She’s been storing stuff for my mom since I was a little kid and wants it out of her basement.

Yesterday I only took a few things with me because I couldn’t carry anymore and it’s so freaking hot. That hill is horrible enough normally, going up that hill when I already feel like my lungs are being crushed? I mostly took Nanny’s things that we raided from her house a few years ago, and some of my most important stuffed animals. My poor stuffed animals that because of my moms negligence have bald spots due to moths eating them! They were in what used to be my moms room then I took it over when she wasn’t there much, and when I left she started dumping everything she couldn’t find room for elsewhere. And then the moths took over.

I am not going down there today, not happening. I want to sleep, I so desperately want to sleep. But I found out a lot while I was down there. First and foremost that SHE IS TALKING TO Wdisney AGAIN! She is talking to him so much that when Randy bought her 200 minutes for her phone she ran out because Wdisney kept calling her! And she answered! And she told him who she was with! WTF is wrong with her?! Of course Wdisney doesn’t want her staying at Randy’s, her told her to ask her friend Tina if she could stay there. Tina… who’s a cop… I understand why he doesn’t want her at Randy’s but what’s his reasoning in sending her to a cop house? Well, either my mom didn’t ask or Tina didn’t want her. And on the subject of cops, Walt told her the cops treated him worse than everyone else and he couldn’t understand why. They even let him out at 2:30 in the morning downtown when he had no money to call anyone and nowhere to go. I won’t say here her theory as to why. Today when she asked if he wanted to come over, and mentioned she had beer, he said he didn’t want it because “Lurch”, his nickname for Randy, brought it. My mom has decided against Texas, and is now talking about going to Maryland if she can find anyone to put her up for a while, and of course Walt is against that was well. “You’re not going to Maryland without me!” he said. She’s pissing me off so much. She started talking to him again, actually SAW him (at he cried on her shoulder), and got money off him for 200 more minutes. And she has no problems with pissing him off, when if he went after anyone he would come here because he doesn’t know where Randy lives, and probably couldn’t get there if he did. But he knows where we live.

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Since she needed to buy more minutes for her phone we walked to Brookline. It’s a pretty short walk, but the majority of it is up a very steep hill. And me + hill + HEAT do not mix. But the return trip was much easier.

My mom even offered to get me a cake from Kribels! I told her to ask Cynthia, who told her she was going to order the cake herself. My mom still said she’d pay for it and pick it up because she has a lot of food stamps left. I still didn’t know who was going to order it, but when I got back Cynthia said she had already done it. I tried to call my mom and tell her not to order it herself, but she had turned her phone off so she wouldn’t get any calls from Wdisney (just not answer?)

Randy offered to take me to Red Lobster on my birthday. I’d asked my mom about it last year and she said she’d think about it, then called back immediately crying and saying she couldn’t go out with another man. My mother has agreed to go this time, but we’ll see if she follows through. So on Monday she’s supposed to go apply for welfare first, then pick up my cake, and then go out to Red Lobster. And for some reason she also told Walt what she was doing! So then he complained about her going to Red Lobster with Randy.

If it does happen hopefully my crab linguini alfredo will be there. I wrote about it last birthday, the disappointment of losing one of my favorite dishes. But Cynthia always asked me if they’d brought it back, and a few months ago I checked and it was on their menu online again. We’ll see if it’s still there. At least Chocolate Wave cake is there. Assuming they haven’t got rid of that as well. I’d say “that has to be a favorite, they wouldn’t get rid of that”, but crab linguini alfredo was supposed to be a “traditional favorite” and they got rid of that so… Also, I hope Red Lobster isn’t a singing restaurant. Or that at least my mom won’t say anything! A while ago, when we were still in Arizona she told the waitress/waiter at Claim Jumpers that it was my birthday (it wasn’t) and they sang to me. The only reason she survived that was because there were witnesses. My mom still cackles about it to this day.

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Every day the weathermen say that the next day is going to be cooler, that the temperatures are going down. They’ve done this for at least the past 4. And the temperature has been the same every single freaking day. This is why I call them overpaid psychics. They have never any clue what they’re talking about. I’ve never sweated so much before. It’s like I’m being rained on, and I’m always soaked. And thanks to this cat fur, dirt, and everything else that touches is sticking to me! It’s impossible to get clean! Anyone who ever complains about the cold again deserves… I won’t say since I don’t want to be smited… uh, Open Office says that isn’t a word… and it doesn’t give anything but smite and smites. Too bad, it’s smited now.

7/26

I’m officially old now. 21. It actually wasn’t that bad of a birthday, not as bad as last year, and not as bad as I was expecting. I got three cards from Cynthia, Cyndy, and my other great aunt, Nita. My grandfather has either forgotten my birthday or the card is late. I don’t expect money from him like the others, but considering he sends cards to Naomi and Kay (my cousins probably?) it’s kind of insulting, and this wouldn’t be the first year he’s forgotten since he started sending birthday cards to all these other people. Bonnie doesn’t send cards anymore, I think she’s still angry with me over my losing my temper with her when she was staying with us after the house burned down. I got $150, plus three scratch cards that I haven’t checked yet. $100 of it has to go on a Visa gift card, and the $50 is going to my internet fund.

My mother didn’t change her mind about Red Lobster, so at 2 PM Randy picked us up and we went over his place, because he always stops at home after work to take a shower. I love Randy’s townhouse, and the air conditioning~ it was lovely. Then my mom wanted me to make flyers for her sale this saturday. Randy got a new computer, which my mom said he spent a lot of money on. I think it was a waste. It has a pretty good monitor, but not only is it a Gateway, it only has a 500 GB hard drive and the other specs were low too. 500 GB is what laptops come with now, so I think it’s a waste. Also, he uses internet explorer (with lots of toolbars), instead of a more secure browser like firefox or chrome with adblock, so it’s probably going to be riddled with viruses and errors soon. But his internet, so freaking fast! I had to download Open Office to make the flyers, since he didn’t have Microsoft Office. It was a fairly large file and it downloaded at 1.5MB! He has Verizon, but he also had something hooked up to it, which was about the size of a flash drive, possibly another wireless router? Verizon comes with wireless, but I don’t know if they give you one of those things. I saw Verizon’s router in the garage with its box.

It took a while because we were having trouble with the printer, but we finally got to Red Lobster. Since I had access to the internet I checked the menu on their website beforehand and was happy to see they still listed crab linguini alfredo, but I didn’t know if they really had it. They did! No flounder of betrayal this year! I thought I was never going to eat it again! I was good and only ate one cheddar bay biscuit so I could eat it and my chocolate wave cake. I teased my mom because I twirl paste perfectly while she has to use a spoon and still messes it up. It’s a completely worthless talent but I enjoy it. My mom had crab and struggled with it. She threatened to, but she didn’t tell them it was my birthday. I still had to hear the staff singing though. It was the birthday of one of the people behind us, and someone further down the restaurant. My mom did slip up and mention my birthday once, but the waitress didn’t hear her.

When we got back to Randy’s I called Cyndy and asked her about getting internet. She agreed to it, but I don’t know if she’ll remember it. Hopefully she will so I don’t have to go through that again. Then my mom made me talk to Laura. Many people joked about me drinking that day, and Laura was no different.

My mom isn’t going to be living in Maryland, since she couldn’t find anyone to take her in. Laura wouldn’t, her parents have Whitney, Laura’s daughter, Whitney’s two kids, and one of Whitney’s friends living with them, and my godfather has his niece with him. But we may still get to Maryland. Cyndy can’t go because she’s going to California in September to see my uncle. But Randy’s got a vacation coming up in late August so maybe then. And that’s a big maybe. Despite having nowhere to go she still doesn’t want to stay with Randy. She’s an idiot. He has a nice place, good cable, internet, AIR CONDITIONING, it’s a nice area. She should be glad someone wants to take care of her.

7/28

I don’t know when I’ll be able to get it online, but I finally made a layout for my Subeta profile. It features Schneizel of course, since my username is Schneizel on there.

I’m trying to do as much of the Subeta plot as I can, but it’s difficult because I can only access the internet for a few minutes at a time, then

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7/30

I talked to Cyndy today. She was offering to take me out somewhere today or next Saturday. I told her I didn’t feel right asking her to take me out when I’ve asked her to pay for my internet. She said it doesn’t matter, that taking me out is something she wants to do, that she already said she’d pay for internet, and that I deserve it. It’s a nice sentiment but she doesn’t know how much it’ll cost.

When Randy took us to Red Lobster for my birthday we drove by a Verizon store. On the side of their building was a sign that said “rule the air”. At least they’re honest about their intentions.

I think I’ve forgotten how to sleep.

8/10

I haven’t written anything in a little over a week. It might seem longer than that here, since I chose not to post some of it. I actually had the chance to get internet installed tomorrow. Cynthia said yes, Cyndy agreed to pay for it and Comcast. They were supposed to install it tomorrow, but I had to tell her to hold off for now because I’m working on something else. The “something else” that I mentioned on Twitter as well, is one of the things I decided not to post here. As soon as my mother and Wdisney ran into trouble and she got the eviction notice she’s been staying with Randy who wants her to live with him. My mother talked to me about it the first time I went down there but I didn’t take her seriously and didn’t even think about it because I know she doesn’t want to. [removed] I started seriously thinking about it the end of last month, it’s something I’ve decided to push for, and have been praying quite fervently about (something else I left out, this all has made me if nothing else a God fearing Christian).

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But I’m still waiting for my stupid mom to make up her mind. It could really go either way. She’s still talking to Wdisney, he even stayed over the weekend there and when I talked to her on Monday she said she had bruises on her from arguing with him despite thinking that “he wouldn’t do anything since he’d go to jail again.” Idiot. He’s saving up money right now for them to get an apartment together. [removed] SHE BETTER NOT GET US INVOLVED IN HER TROUBLES. She needs to think more about how the consequences of her actions affect other people. I feel like I’ve said that before. Since I’ve been thinking about this for over a week now my opinion on it has been getting stronger and stronger that now if my mother decides not to live with Randy I will be furious. To the point where I may never talk to her again. Everyone is telling her this is the best option. To do the smart thing. Even one of her friends said to follow her head and not her heart (because she’s just luuubbs the psycho Wdisney). When I talked to her on Monday she was still thinking about it, today when I called her she didn’t mention it at all because [removed] He was supposed to bring boxes after work and he hadn’t shown up yet. [removed] She’s supposed to be out of there tomorrow, but she said she’s not leaving until the weekend. I expect (doesn’t mean I’ll get it) an answer within the next week and I want it to be in the positive. It better freaking be in the positive. I tried not to get my hopes up, but when I see a chance to get something I want I take it. [removed]

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Pittsburgh is being called Batburgh now, since The Dark Knight Rises is filming here. Very exciting. I had wanted to be on of the extras at Heinz Field but I’m glad I didn’t try since they were filming a winter scene and everyone had to wear coats. It had to have been awful, I wouldn’t have survived. Though some extras (I don’t think those ones) got Gotham Rogue t-shirts… so lucky. Cyndy took me out on Saturday and while driving through South Side I saw one of the shirts displayed in a businesses window. And our wonderful Steelers got to play the Gotham Rogue’s themselves! Their team colors? Our team colors! And while they couldn’t use Terrible Towels since they have the Steelers logo on it, apparently they gave them gold handkerchiefs to wave around. Eeeeeeeehehehe. Movies have filmed here before, but nothing like this, we’re Gotham freaking City and the Steelers are Gotham’s football team. Even if this ends up being the last movie like Nolan says, what a way to go, with our Pittsburgh pride on display! Fuck the Patriots! The redneck Cowboys! Did YOU get to be in Batman? NO? Your fans didn’t get to be in Batman? NO? Of course not! Who would want to see you in a movie. I’m not even going to bother question marking that.

I just looked and I haven’t updated this since the 24th, wow.

Oh, yes, the patrol has ended now. He’s not living near here and they’re still talking so it’s doubtful he’ll show up. Unfortunately my nerves have been destroyed by this and I feel sick all the time so I’m still not sleeping. My mother complained today about how sick she feels from anxiety. I told her the same thing on Monday, and now all of a sudden she’s sick too. Hmm. It wouldn’t be the first time she’s appropriated a health problem of mine.

And edited version of this post will be made public when I have internet access again.

I did end up getting my Schneizel profile layout online. I like the way it turned out, though I’m not sure about the link color, it might be too bright for the background. I named all the headers after Code Geass things like Avalon, Pendragon, In Vogue, and the pets section is called Kanon ^^ I even managed to nicely fit three columns in.

I managed to participate well enough in the plot. I do need to train my battling pet more though. Etedot is only at level 63 with other stats at 150-60, not in the thousands she needs to be to fight against big baddies like the Temple Guardian.

I watched Linda Linda Linda the other day, it has been on my Netflix list for years, but I bumped it up because I knew it had the song Linda Linda in it. I was expecting that one, but I was surprised to hear Izaya’s cover song too. And it is the word rat in Linda Linda, I wasn’t sure if I was hearing it right. Strange song but so much fun. Movie was boring though, I rather watch K-ON.

8/18

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I’m going to have a lot to apologize for tonight when I pray. (That was about my above rant, which has been removed)

My site was down yesterday for about 24 hours and I’ve lost some ad spots because of it, and I can’t place new ones because the stupid ad site has messed with their coding and adding links doesn’t work now.

At least I’m getting on enough to participate in two more events sites I’m on are having. I also joined World of Umbria which has some nice adoptables.

My year anniversary at VDex Project on July 29th. VDex is one of the sites that’s having an event right now (another event, and two more in the coming weeks). And my 1 year Subeta anniversary is on September 11. ily Subeta. While thinking about my wonderful new Schneizel profile layout there I realize… I spent all my good layout making luck on my Subeta profile, when my Schneizel fanlisting still needs a good layout. Schneizel has been very difficult in layout making, so I can’t see myself making another good Schneizel layout, so I may just use the same one at the Schneizel fl. Oh hey I got a trophy from the plot… a Bronze Steele Plot Trophy probably the lowest one you can get… but still a trophy! I just found out on Subeta that their rival stupid Neopets had a plot. Krawk Island maybe? I just plan on logging in there enough to keep my accounts I am done with Neopets. I have Subeta now, it’s much more fun and easier. I can’t wait to get internet back so I can do my quests again. I made it up to 30 million sP before weakness took over and I spent it all. Now I need more sP to spend!

8/19

I called my mom today. I tried to set myself up to be disappointed, and I was, but not in the way I expected to be. After getting up the courage to ask her if she’d made up her mind she said “Oh, that. Yes, but there’s a problem.” Randy (from now on referred to as Brigham Young) has been talking to some woman (forever after this referred to as [removed]) he met on a cruise, and she has decided to move here to live with him. So for now my mother is staying there, and [removed] will be as well. Because she waited around too long I’ve lost my chance. She could make him change his mind about it if she was so inclined, but of course she doesn’t care about this like I do. It was devastating and something I was completely unprepared for. I’ll call Cyndy about the internet tomorrow. I don’t want to talk anymore about it.

8/20

My [removed] mother called at 6:21 and when I got to the phone she said she’d call back in 10 minutes. It’s 7:19 now. Why did she even bother to call? She was drunk too.

8/22

My mom called today and said she and Randy hooked up (her words, not mine) and that he’s supposed to call that lady (I’ll be nice for now) and tell her not to come, but he doesn’t want to (so I’ll still be calling him Brigham Young under the circumstances) so she still may end up coming. So I’m not going to get my hopes up again. Still, I’m one step closer.

Today is Pap Pap’s birthday, my grandfather is 90 now. My mom said it is also Nita’s birthday, Pap Pap’s sister in law. If I’d known I would have sent her a card, she’s been very good to me sending money for the holidays.

8/23

My poor baby! She got the handle of a cloth bag (filled with heavy things) stuck around her abdomen. I was so scared that I would hurt her or that I wouldn’t be able to get it off and she would die. I thought of cutting it but it was too digging into her too much. I did end up getting the bag off her, but I yelled at her a lot. [removed]

I only just realized I could have taken everything out of the bag. I’m not good in a crisis. Allie seems to be better. While she still isn’t talking as much as she usually does she meowed when I got up, and meowed a couple times when I came up here after eating. She’s laying on my foot right now.

There was an earthquake, but I was asleep so I missed it. I called my mom to ask if she’d felt it, but she didn’t answer at Randy’s or on her cell phone.

8/25

Allie’s definitely got her meow back. Cynthia went out with Karen today, and brought KFC home. When I went down to eat Allie was mrowing her head off. MROW MROW MROW

I can stop calling Randy Brigham Young now, post is coming.

Google why? Gmail messed up the formatting on my email signature, so I had to edit it again for both my email accounts, and Google cleared my Google+ about page and I had to do it again. Adding all those links twice was not fun Google.

Psycho Patrol

Edit 7/16/11: I’ve removed most of what I typed last night, leaving only my nonsensical, boredom induced ramblings. I didn’t hear anything last night, it was generally quiet. What I had written was about the night before that. When I did hear a lot as did my aunt. But I can’t be sure it was him. Part of me thinks I have more than enough “evidence” and the other part finds different explanations for what happened. And really, I would rather be wrong. I want to be wrong. No one tried to break in that night. I was expecting either that or nothing at all. I wasn’t expecting to be toyed with.

Since I am going to continue adding all this to one single post I am going to leave the rest here.

7/15/11

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Tiger is supposed to be acting as my alarm. Whenever someone comes to the door he runs away, but he’s decided to sleep on Cynthia’s bed instead. I am trying to tempt him with food, but it’s not working. The other cats aren’t making this any easier because they won’t stop making noise.

Well, my patrol has started now. For the next 5 hours I will be down here watching and listening for any sign of trouble. But as I said, I am more prepared this time, for play at least. Unless it actually sounds like someone is trying to break in I’m not going to the window. It was my constant looking out yesterday that started this probably. I was letting myself get pulled around by him.

Maybe I’ll just ramble now since there isn’t anything else I can do.

Obviously I have the comp on now (I mentioned in the removed part that I had wanted to read manga the night before, but didn’t because the computer screen was too bright) because even at almost 21 sitting doing nothing but listening to the night and house sounds for 7 hours is a bit much. I had wanted to read manga but I just realized all I have is BL… and I’m not in a BL kinda mood right now, and it’s too much of a distraction. Internet would be real nice right now. I don’t know if I mentioned this last time this happened, but I’ve been thinking again about asking Cynthia if I could have internet here if she didn’t have to pay for it, and I’ve been thinking of asking Cyndy to pay for it. I can pay for a few months of it, how long depending on the installation fee, and the price of it. The prices listed online say about $20/mo for both Comcast and Verizon, how much it would really cost I don’t know. I’d prefer Comcast, but only if they’d put the box in my room. They’ve always insisted in putting in in the living room, and not only has all this given me a strong hatred for wireless internet, I also can’t afford a wireless router. Verizon comes with wireless. That’s if both of them would even agree to it. As I’ve said before I’m a coward so I’ve put off asking for months, and now this has happened again…

It’s not Friday anymore, but this is all as Rebecca Black says fun, fun, fun.

I’m still sane and will probably remain that way. My mother has dealt with dv before, with at least one other person. When I was a little kid and we were living here with Cynthia some guy pushed my mom out of a car. I don’t think the car was moving, or at least wasn’t going fast. My stupid mom didn’t want to press charges, because she didn’t want to hurt him. At least we never felt threatened by him. This time she’s subjecting us to a strangers instabilities as well. We’re one drunks bad decision away from becoming a statistic. We don’t know how violent he really is, beyond threats, but I’ve written on here before about how obsessive and jealous he is. And he doesn’t seem close to his family. We know he has at least two children, my mom says they’re spoiled and never call unless they want something. Uh huh. I don’t know what they could ask for, he doesn’t have anything. When he moved in with my he only had a few things, and didn’t even (supposedly) have regular shoes, only sandals. Uh huh.

If I do go insane I’d like to be the Joker, TDK version. He is so much fun in that movie. And it’s much better than just rolling around on the floor in a straitjacket.

I want internet. I want to post this before I take up a third page in Open Office. I want to waste time on Subeta and KofK. And Twitter! @Bluestarintears Could you apparate here with one of your swords? I’m sure I’ve been kicked out of my dynasty on Yarold’s for not clicking. And I need to move some fanlistings before the domain they’re on expires and I get troubled.

4 more hours. 1 hour of battery remaining.

mooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo

Internet why have you forsaken me?

Third page now.

@Bluestarintears Have you splinched yourself somewhere?

Anime characters who should be here right now… I love Schneizel but he probably wouldn’t be any help, at least Lelouch has Geass. Jeremiah woud be good, in his R2 cyborg form. Solomon Goldsmith and/or Nathan… Luck Gandor, he’s immortal too. Kadota would be okay, Shizuo would be awesome, as long as Wdisney attacks first or makes him angry, Izaya… it depends. Asami… yes Asami! He could defend us, though I don’t see why he would. If I was Aki though it would be all over for Wdisney! I wouldn’t want to be a guy though, or Aki. The only good thing about him is Asami.

3 ½ more hours. I might have to turn the light on so I can read.

Do do do do do do do do do do do do do do do do

Got the Baccano OP stuck in my head. Just finished that series. Needs moar Luck. Like rara needs moar Kadota. But Durarara needs moar Kadota than Baccano needs moar Luck.

Durarara’s best cover songs:

1. Kadota – OMG324?#$%#$%#$ I so want to know what he’s saying in his special voice
2. Celty – don’t know how she’s singing though. I keep imagining Celty with everyone and the head back at Izaya’s place singing. Izaya: oO
3. Kida – LINDA LINDA LINDA LINDA LINDA
4. Mikado – I hate him, and he’s not that great a singer but I like it for the lol quality
5. Izaya – A little too long. Kadota’s is only a little over 2 minutes long!
6. Shizuchan – I prefer him singing the Kuroshitsuji songs.

Some haven’t been included. I love FukuJun and it’s fun to hear him sing, but once per song is enough.

Now I’ve got Linda Linda stuck in my head. Now instead of “Do do do do do do do do do do do do do do do do” it’s “Linda linda linda linda linda linda linda linda linda linda”

3 hours left.

End of page 3, and end of battery. Time to get off now.

7/16/11

By the end of the night I had Over My Head (Cable Car) stuck instead. I don’t know how I’m going to last another night. It’s awful just sitting in the dark for 5-7 hours listening and waiting and waiting and waiting not knowing what’s going to happen. I end up checking the phone all the time shocked that only 10 minutes have past when it feels like 30. Of course I don’t want anything to happen, but I don’t know if it will or not so I’m on edge the entire time. At least I’m getting a lot of praying in. I have a feeling tonight is going to be even rougher because I’m so exhausted. I was dead tired the morning and fell asleep fairly quickly, but I didn’t stay asleep. And when I woke up I couldn’t go back to sleep, thanks to all the anxiety. My anxiety levels are at max, though not right now thankfully. I do need some downtime so my heart doesn’t pop out of my chest.

7/16/11 10:31pm Don’t know when I’ll get past Comcast’s blockade again. Time to start the patrol again.

Almost 7/17

A couple minutes after I posted all that Comcast took over again. I have heard something already tonight, but as I said before I could have misheard or it could have been the neighbor. I thought I heard someone outside saying my aunts name.

It’s so hot in here, worse than the other nights. It’s okay outside, but it’s like an oven in here. Even the walls are hot.

My alarm went upstairs again. I don’t know why, it’s probably hotter up there than it is down here even if there are more windows open up there. Only one is open down here, in the most hard to reach place. Cynthia just came down for some water and just showed some emotion about this. She’s angry with my mom because she’s not really saying anything about the incident or keeping us updated. She says that my mom starts this and we’re the ones who have to deal with it. Her mood changes. Sometimes she mocks me for keeping watch, saying he can’t get in because all the windows are locked (she’s quite naïve at times). And other times she takes this seriously. Cynthia told the neighbors to keep a look out for Wdisney. They hunt and have lots of guns.

Tiger came down, briefly looked at me calling him, then went to eat and straight down the cellar.

Someone just let off fireworks three times. It’s July 17 and after midnight.

It scared Tiger up from the basement, and now he’s sitting in front of the door. Yay, my kitty alarm is here!

3 more hours left. I don’t think I’m going to be able to get back online with this internet again. Before it used to take me to an activation page saying to enter your account number. The last one said both account and phone number. Now it takes me to a generic sign in page saying to enter your user id and password. I’m going to have to ask Cynthia about getting internet, this just isn’t going to work anymore.

Quiet night so far. Running out of battery for the second time. Just finished watching the Kadota episode of Durarara. Wish I could continue, it put me in a really good mood. Kadota <3 Aw, man the next one is Shizuo! Not only is it fun, there’s young!Kadota without a hat on! But there’s no point in charging the battery again now, only about 2 hours left.

7/18

I just noticed, you briefly see Kadota before then, right before Shizuo sees Izaya for the first time. How did I miss it?!

I completely forgot November 11 for anime characters that should be here!

Yesterday I said that even the walls are hot. Make that doorknobs too. The fridge was making some very angry noises earlier. Poor big fluffy Tiger has just been laying around. And if Allie sheds any more she’s not going to have any fur left! My poor baby. And there’s supposed to be a heat wave coming… Quiet night so far again. 1 ½ hours left.

7/18 Late Afternoon/Early Evening

I guess I’m not going to be catching any more Wish Jirachi or Wish Wynaut. Thanks internet, you screwed up the last VDex event too.

Crap I just remember Egg Cave! My time with Tim expired for most of them a few days ago. They’re all going to die again! Most are safe for now.

I haven’t been feeling well all day. A combination of heat and stress I think. I want to feel better by tomorrow because Cyndy called and said we’d go see the new Harry Potter movie. Though that means less sleep for me when I’m already running on empty. I didn’t get much today thanks to the heat, stress, and upset stomach. Cynthia is doing her best to contribute to it. If she’s calling you and you don’t immediate appear before her knowing exactly what she wants she gets angry. Needless to say I haven’t asked the cantankerous old lady about internet yet. Cynthia talked to Cyndy about my mom and she also told Cyndy she’s going to Texas.

Storm is coming. Uh, I mean here… Yes, weather, we’re all pretty angry. No need to make such a fuss.

I like …. ~ too.

7/19

It seems the only ones loving this weather are the bugs. I’ve got bug bites all over me.

I went to see Harry Potter this afternoon. $7 each was the matinee price. It was pretty crowded, and with a lot of teenage boys. I was thinking “shouldn’t you be at Transformers?” They yapped and made noises the whole movie. Cell phones went off a couple times. The movie itself was okay, better than the first part at least with a lot of good special effects. I expected more from the aging effects at the end though, they weren’t as special as they were supposed to be in my op. The music was pretty good. Are there no haircuts in HP’s the world of the dead? Lily’s hair is styled nicely, but James has the same haircut he had in the 70’s. I like the previews, but the commercials before the movie have gotten even longer. I was surprised to see a Dark Knight Rises teaser before the movie considering it isn’t even done filming yet, and isn’t coming out until 2012! Most of the footage was from the previous movies. I was more shocked to see it say that it’s the last movie! Catwoman is the final villain?! And after The Joker… it seems very anti-climatic.

My mom hasn’t called me in a few days, but she has been talking to Cyndy. She called her while we were in the theatre (it wasn’t hers that went off, but she did keep checking it). Wdisney may have hit my mom as well because Cyndy said “I don’t think men who hit women fight would fight a man”, which I think is vastly oversimplifying things. Violent people will be violent regardless of whether the person they are being violent towards is male or female. What little I heard of their conversation doesn’t really interest me so I won’t talk about it here.

Yes, Norton, I know my definitions are out of date, there’s nothing I can do about it. Windows Update you STFU too.

Cynthia was in a good mood when I got back, or at least not a bad mood so I took the chance to ask her if she didn’t have to pay for it if she’d let me get internet. She seemed receptive to the idea. I thought she would resist it more because she wouldn’t want some strange guy in her basement drilling holes in her house. But there’s still Cyndy to ask (and since I’m never around her I can’t gauge her moods) and the whole thing is pretty complicated.

First it all depends on how much the internet would cost, and it’s between Comcast and Verizon of course. I have the money to pay it now, for how long depends on how much it is and how much the installation fee is. Last time I looked Verizon was advertising $20/mo for new customers with a contract. Comcast was $20/mo for the first few months. When my mom got cable she put it in my name, so I’d be a returning customer with Comcast, so there wouldn’t be any discounts and might cost more, since I’d be transferring the services the installation fee would probably be less. There’s also where it would be installed. Comcast has always insisted on putting the box in the living room no matter where I wanted it. I need the internet upstairs in my room. I can’t afford a wireless router. Verizon comes with wireless, but after all this I do not want to use wireless internet if at all possible. I’d prefer Comcast to Verizon because I’m used to it, and I consider Verizon to be the greater evil right now, and what with their buddy buddy relationship with Google now they’re a big threat. What if Google turns over my search history to them? I don’t know if there’s something to plug your computer into like Comcast. Then there’s the matter of how to pay for it. As I said I have the money for now, but I don’t have a bank account so I’d have to give the money to Cynthia. Then when I run out I’d have to tell Cyndy and she’d send $__ every month which would be given to Cynthia who’d write Comcast a check? Would they even take the check in Cynthia’s name instead of mine? I don’t think Cynthia would want it in her name. There’s no point in trying to explain all this to Cynthia. If I do get my own internet again I doubt it’ll happen before the great Pottermore rush. I wanted to try to be one of the first people to get in. I hope to get it before Netflix changes their plans… they said September 1st right? Not August 1st… right? Right?! I want to get some watching in before I had to downgrade. Now mostly I just hope that I’m able to get on to downgrade! I don’t want to make Cynthia angry now.

Inglorious Basterds came today, but I can’t watch it now because my patrol will be starting in 1-2 hours. I want to get it sent back as soon as possible though. I was really pissed off at Netflix splitting their services. I couldn’t watch any streaming leeching off the wireless, but I always thought of if – hopefully when I get my own internet (SOON!)… But I thought of a way around it, something I used to do when I wanted two disks at a time, just switch between them right before they charge for the next month. Then I’d spent some time with my streaming list, and some time with my DVD list. Both are huge, probably about 200 titles each, but some are shared between them because they insist on adding things in my DVD queue to my instant queue as well when both are available. My lists are cluttered enough without their help.

7/20

Starting watching some of the J and K dramas I have on here. But the stupid site I got them from mixed up some of the versions.

It’s supposed to feel up to 110 degrees here tomorrow. Am I still in Pittsburgh?

7/21

Finished Durarara again… probably will watch CG even though that won’t put me in a good mood.

Ugh. Cynthia got a small air conditioner for the kitchen. Whatever she paid for it is too much. I don’t know if our idiot family installed it wrong or it’s just crappy, but right now it’s just acting as a fan, a really bad fan, and blowing a lot of hot air in. I’m sick of weathermen saying “it’s hot so stay inside!” Not everyone has air conditioning you overpaid TV psychics. It’s probably cooler outside than it is in.

Finally I managed to get past Comcast’s blockade again, haven’t since the 18th. BUT NOT LONG ENOUGH TO POST THIS.

Have to give the computer a break now, it’s way to hot for it. I’ll have to finish charging it later.

I figured out why the air conditioner feels like a fan. It’s because those idiots set it on fan instead of cool!

God Help Me

I’m typing this up offline as there is only a small window of opportunity to use the internet, before Comcast knows I’m online and starts forwarding to their activation page. I was already in a horrible mood. When I lost the internet again yesterday I had a mini-breakdown as things began to pile up on me. Today it was a like bomb. I don’t know what’s going to happen to me. As soon as Cynthia woke me up today and told me there was a message on the machine that she thought was from my mom, but it wasn’t from our phone numbers, I knew it was bad. To spare anyone who reads this I’ll put the facts in convenient bullet point form…

  • My mom’s psycho bf “WDisney” was sent to jail for threatening to kill my mom
  • He’s getting out soon
  • My mom is staying at a friends house
  • My mom is being evicted
  • She’s talking about moving to Texas

    Cynthia doesn’t seem to care about all this, she just says she knew it was going to happen. I thought it might happen too, but I had hoped it would end before it would go that far. I’m thinking about bringing the bowling pin (yes I have a bowling pin) up from the basement. It’s a good thing I’m staying up at night right now, because I’m going to have to be on the lookout for him. Unfortunately, he knows who my aunt is and where she lives. We hadn’t wanted him to, but thanks to my “you can trust WDisney” mom, she let him know. My mom said I could go get anything I wanted from the apartment in case he trashed it, but not only do we not know when he’s getting out, I don’t have a key anymore. She took mine and gave it to him. There’s a chance I might lose all my stuff, and my grandmother’s things, the only things I have left of her besides one picture, since her house burned down a few years after she died. And while I didn’t like it, and haven’t lived there in a while, I’m losing my home too. I’m never going to live there again. I may never see my mom again either, because there is no way I’m moving to Texas. Assuming he doesn’t trash anything, I’ll have to move a few of my most important things up here, and the rest will go wherever my mom goes. I’m also going to have to get my birth certificate and other stuff off her, since she’ll no longer be in charge of that. I have been staying here with my great aunt, but I don’t know how much longer that can last, and I have no where else to go. Obviously, this has shaken my already fragile state. Sometimes I curse my sanity, it would be easier to just break and go completely insane. I’m having so much taken away from me again, there’s a threat to both my things and my family, and I can’t even get on the internet to vent and waste time. I guess I’ll be reading the manga, since I won’t be able to listen to music or watch anime (which I’m running out of). And the same the next night and the next night. For who knows how long. I should stop here or I’ll ramble endlessly. I have to go get some more cleenex and something to chew on, I really need to stop biting the inside of my mouth.

    Edit: And if you didn’t see my Twitter in the sidebar, I do not have internet now. Hopefully it’ll come back in a couple weeks.