Edit 7/16/11: I’ve removed most of what I typed last night, leaving only my nonsensical, boredom induced ramblings. I didn’t hear anything last night, it was generally quiet. What I had written was about the night before that. When I did hear a lot as did my aunt. But I can’t be sure it was him. Part of me thinks I have more than enough “evidence” and the other part finds different explanations for what happened. And really, I would rather be wrong. I want to be wrong. No one tried to break in that night. I was expecting either that or nothing at all. I wasn’t expecting to be toyed with.

Since I am going to continue adding all this to one single post I am going to leave the rest here.

7/15/11

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Tiger is supposed to be acting as my alarm. Whenever someone comes to the door he runs away, but he’s decided to sleep on Cynthia’s bed instead. I am trying to tempt him with food, but it’s not working. The other cats aren’t making this any easier because they won’t stop making noise.

Well, my patrol has started now. For the next 5 hours I will be down here watching and listening for any sign of trouble. But as I said, I am more prepared this time, for play at least. Unless it actually sounds like someone is trying to break in I’m not going to the window. It was my constant looking out yesterday that started this probably. I was letting myself get pulled around by him.

Maybe I’ll just ramble now since there isn’t anything else I can do.

Obviously I have the comp on now (I mentioned in the removed part that I had wanted to read manga the night before, but didn’t because the computer screen was too bright) because even at almost 21 sitting doing nothing but listening to the night and house sounds for 7 hours is a bit much. I had wanted to read manga but I just realized all I have is BL… and I’m not in a BL kinda mood right now, and it’s too much of a distraction. Internet would be real nice right now. I don’t know if I mentioned this last time this happened, but I’ve been thinking again about asking Cynthia if I could have internet here if she didn’t have to pay for it, and I’ve been thinking of asking Cyndy to pay for it. I can pay for a few months of it, how long depending on the installation fee, and the price of it. The prices listed online say about $20/mo for both Comcast and Verizon, how much it would really cost I don’t know. I’d prefer Comcast, but only if they’d put the box in my room. They’ve always insisted in putting in in the living room, and not only has all this given me a strong hatred for wireless internet, I also can’t afford a wireless router. Verizon comes with wireless. That’s if both of them would even agree to it. As I’ve said before I’m a coward so I’ve put off asking for months, and now this has happened again…

It’s not Friday anymore, but this is all as Rebecca Black says fun, fun, fun.

I’m still sane and will probably remain that way. My mother has dealt with dv before, with at least one other person. When I was a little kid and we were living here with Cynthia some guy pushed my mom out of a car. I don’t think the car was moving, or at least wasn’t going fast. My stupid mom didn’t want to press charges, because she didn’t want to hurt him. At least we never felt threatened by him. This time she’s subjecting us to a strangers instabilities as well. We’re one drunks bad decision away from becoming a statistic. We don’t know how violent he really is, beyond threats, but I’ve written on here before about how obsessive and jealous he is. And he doesn’t seem close to his family. We know he has at least two children, my mom says they’re spoiled and never call unless they want something. Uh huh. I don’t know what they could ask for, he doesn’t have anything. When he moved in with my he only had a few things, and didn’t even (supposedly) have regular shoes, only sandals. Uh huh.

If I do go insane I’d like to be the Joker, TDK version. He is so much fun in that movie. And it’s much better than just rolling around on the floor in a straitjacket.

I want internet. I want to post this before I take up a third page in Open Office. I want to waste time on Subeta and KofK. And Twitter! @Bluestarintears Could you apparate here with one of your swords? I’m sure I’ve been kicked out of my dynasty on Yarold’s for not clicking. And I need to move some fanlistings before the domain they’re on expires and I get troubled.

4 more hours. 1 hour of battery remaining.

mooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo

Internet why have you forsaken me?

Third page now.

@Bluestarintears Have you splinched yourself somewhere?

Anime characters who should be here right now… I love Schneizel but he probably wouldn’t be any help, at least Lelouch has Geass. Jeremiah woud be good, in his R2 cyborg form. Solomon Goldsmith and/or Nathan… Luck Gandor, he’s immortal too. Kadota would be okay, Shizuo would be awesome, as long as Wdisney attacks first or makes him angry, Izaya… it depends. Asami… yes Asami! He could defend us, though I don’t see why he would. If I was Aki though it would be all over for Wdisney! I wouldn’t want to be a guy though, or Aki. The only good thing about him is Asami.

3 ½ more hours. I might have to turn the light on so I can read.

Do do do do do do do do do do do do do do do do

Got the Baccano OP stuck in my head. Just finished that series. Needs moar Luck. Like rara needs moar Kadota. But Durarara needs moar Kadota than Baccano needs moar Luck.

Durarara’s best cover songs:

1. Kadota – OMG324?#$%#$%#$ I so want to know what he’s saying in his special voice
2. Celty – don’t know how she’s singing though. I keep imagining Celty with everyone and the head back at Izaya’s place singing. Izaya: oO
3. Kida – LINDA LINDA LINDA LINDA LINDA
4. Mikado – I hate him, and he’s not that great a singer but I like it for the lol quality
5. Izaya – A little too long. Kadota’s is only a little over 2 minutes long!
6. Shizuchan – I prefer him singing the Kuroshitsuji songs.

Some haven’t been included. I love FukuJun and it’s fun to hear him sing, but once per song is enough.

Now I’ve got Linda Linda stuck in my head. Now instead of “Do do do do do do do do do do do do do do do do” it’s “Linda linda linda linda linda linda linda linda linda linda”

3 hours left.

End of page 3, and end of battery. Time to get off now.

7/16/11

By the end of the night I had Over My Head (Cable Car) stuck instead. I don’t know how I’m going to last another night. It’s awful just sitting in the dark for 5-7 hours listening and waiting and waiting and waiting not knowing what’s going to happen. I end up checking the phone all the time shocked that only 10 minutes have past when it feels like 30. Of course I don’t want anything to happen, but I don’t know if it will or not so I’m on edge the entire time. At least I’m getting a lot of praying in. I have a feeling tonight is going to be even rougher because I’m so exhausted. I was dead tired the morning and fell asleep fairly quickly, but I didn’t stay asleep. And when I woke up I couldn’t go back to sleep, thanks to all the anxiety. My anxiety levels are at max, though not right now thankfully. I do need some downtime so my heart doesn’t pop out of my chest.

7/16/11 10:31pm Don’t know when I’ll get past Comcast’s blockade again. Time to start the patrol again.

Almost 7/17

A couple minutes after I posted all that Comcast took over again. I have heard something already tonight, but as I said before I could have misheard or it could have been the neighbor. I thought I heard someone outside saying my aunts name.

It’s so hot in here, worse than the other nights. It’s okay outside, but it’s like an oven in here. Even the walls are hot.

My alarm went upstairs again. I don’t know why, it’s probably hotter up there than it is down here even if there are more windows open up there. Only one is open down here, in the most hard to reach place. Cynthia just came down for some water and just showed some emotion about this. She’s angry with my mom because she’s not really saying anything about the incident or keeping us updated. She says that my mom starts this and we’re the ones who have to deal with it. Her mood changes. Sometimes she mocks me for keeping watch, saying he can’t get in because all the windows are locked (she’s quite naïve at times). And other times she takes this seriously. Cynthia told the neighbors to keep a look out for Wdisney. They hunt and have lots of guns.

Tiger came down, briefly looked at me calling him, then went to eat and straight down the cellar.

Someone just let off fireworks three times. It’s July 17 and after midnight.

It scared Tiger up from the basement, and now he’s sitting in front of the door. Yay, my kitty alarm is here!

3 more hours left. I don’t think I’m going to be able to get back online with this internet again. Before it used to take me to an activation page saying to enter your account number. The last one said both account and phone number. Now it takes me to a generic sign in page saying to enter your user id and password. I’m going to have to ask Cynthia about getting internet, this just isn’t going to work anymore.

Quiet night so far. Running out of battery for the second time. Just finished watching the Kadota episode of Durarara. Wish I could continue, it put me in a really good mood. Kadota <3 Aw, man the next one is Shizuo! Not only is it fun, there’s young!Kadota without a hat on! But there’s no point in charging the battery again now, only about 2 hours left.

7/18

I just noticed, you briefly see Kadota before then, right before Shizuo sees Izaya for the first time. How did I miss it?!

I completely forgot November 11 for anime characters that should be here!

Yesterday I said that even the walls are hot. Make that doorknobs too. The fridge was making some very angry noises earlier. Poor big fluffy Tiger has just been laying around. And if Allie sheds any more she’s not going to have any fur left! My poor baby. And there’s supposed to be a heat wave coming… Quiet night so far again. 1 ½ hours left.

7/18 Late Afternoon/Early Evening

I guess I’m not going to be catching any more Wish Jirachi or Wish Wynaut. Thanks internet, you screwed up the last VDex event too.

Crap I just remember Egg Cave! My time with Tim expired for most of them a few days ago. They’re all going to die again! Most are safe for now.

I haven’t been feeling well all day. A combination of heat and stress I think. I want to feel better by tomorrow because Cyndy called and said we’d go see the new Harry Potter movie. Though that means less sleep for me when I’m already running on empty. I didn’t get much today thanks to the heat, stress, and upset stomach. Cynthia is doing her best to contribute to it. If she’s calling you and you don’t immediate appear before her knowing exactly what she wants she gets angry. Needless to say I haven’t asked the cantankerous old lady about internet yet. Cynthia talked to Cyndy about my mom and she also told Cyndy she’s going to Texas.

Storm is coming. Uh, I mean here… Yes, weather, we’re all pretty angry. No need to make such a fuss.

I like …. ~ too.

7/19

It seems the only ones loving this weather are the bugs. I’ve got bug bites all over me.

I went to see Harry Potter this afternoon. $7 each was the matinee price. It was pretty crowded, and with a lot of teenage boys. I was thinking “shouldn’t you be at Transformers?” They yapped and made noises the whole movie. Cell phones went off a couple times. The movie itself was okay, better than the first part at least with a lot of good special effects. I expected more from the aging effects at the end though, they weren’t as special as they were supposed to be in my op. The music was pretty good. Are there no haircuts in HP’s the world of the dead? Lily’s hair is styled nicely, but James has the same haircut he had in the 70’s. I like the previews, but the commercials before the movie have gotten even longer. I was surprised to see a Dark Knight Rises teaser before the movie considering it isn’t even done filming yet, and isn’t coming out until 2012! Most of the footage was from the previous movies. I was more shocked to see it say that it’s the last movie! Catwoman is the final villain?! And after The Joker… it seems very anti-climatic.

My mom hasn’t called me in a few days, but she has been talking to Cyndy. She called her while we were in the theatre (it wasn’t hers that went off, but she did keep checking it). Wdisney may have hit my mom as well because Cyndy said “I don’t think men who hit women fight would fight a man”, which I think is vastly oversimplifying things. Violent people will be violent regardless of whether the person they are being violent towards is male or female. What little I heard of their conversation doesn’t really interest me so I won’t talk about it here.

Yes, Norton, I know my definitions are out of date, there’s nothing I can do about it. Windows Update you STFU too.

Cynthia was in a good mood when I got back, or at least not a bad mood so I took the chance to ask her if she didn’t have to pay for it if she’d let me get internet. She seemed receptive to the idea. I thought she would resist it more because she wouldn’t want some strange guy in her basement drilling holes in her house. But there’s still Cyndy to ask (and since I’m never around her I can’t gauge her moods) and the whole thing is pretty complicated.

First it all depends on how much the internet would cost, and it’s between Comcast and Verizon of course. I have the money to pay it now, for how long depends on how much it is and how much the installation fee is. Last time I looked Verizon was advertising $20/mo for new customers with a contract. Comcast was $20/mo for the first few months. When my mom got cable she put it in my name, so I’d be a returning customer with Comcast, so there wouldn’t be any discounts and might cost more, since I’d be transferring the services the installation fee would probably be less. There’s also where it would be installed. Comcast has always insisted on putting the box in the living room no matter where I wanted it. I need the internet upstairs in my room. I can’t afford a wireless router. Verizon comes with wireless, but after all this I do not want to use wireless internet if at all possible. I’d prefer Comcast to Verizon because I’m used to it, and I consider Verizon to be the greater evil right now, and what with their buddy buddy relationship with Google now they’re a big threat. What if Google turns over my search history to them? I don’t know if there’s something to plug your computer into like Comcast. Then there’s the matter of how to pay for it. As I said I have the money for now, but I don’t have a bank account so I’d have to give the money to Cynthia. Then when I run out I’d have to tell Cyndy and she’d send $__ every month which would be given to Cynthia who’d write Comcast a check? Would they even take the check in Cynthia’s name instead of mine? I don’t think Cynthia would want it in her name. There’s no point in trying to explain all this to Cynthia. If I do get my own internet again I doubt it’ll happen before the great Pottermore rush. I wanted to try to be one of the first people to get in. I hope to get it before Netflix changes their plans… they said September 1st right? Not August 1st… right? Right?! I want to get some watching in before I had to downgrade. Now mostly I just hope that I’m able to get on to downgrade! I don’t want to make Cynthia angry now.

Inglorious Basterds came today, but I can’t watch it now because my patrol will be starting in 1-2 hours. I want to get it sent back as soon as possible though. I was really pissed off at Netflix splitting their services. I couldn’t watch any streaming leeching off the wireless, but I always thought of if – hopefully when I get my own internet (SOON!)… But I thought of a way around it, something I used to do when I wanted two disks at a time, just switch between them right before they charge for the next month. Then I’d spent some time with my streaming list, and some time with my DVD list. Both are huge, probably about 200 titles each, but some are shared between them because they insist on adding things in my DVD queue to my instant queue as well when both are available. My lists are cluttered enough without their help.

7/20

Starting watching some of the J and K dramas I have on here. But the stupid site I got them from mixed up some of the versions.

It’s supposed to feel up to 110 degrees here tomorrow. Am I still in Pittsburgh?

7/21

Finished Durarara again… probably will watch CG even though that won’t put me in a good mood.

Ugh. Cynthia got a small air conditioner for the kitchen. Whatever she paid for it is too much. I don’t know if our idiot family installed it wrong or it’s just crappy, but right now it’s just acting as a fan, a really bad fan, and blowing a lot of hot air in. I’m sick of weathermen saying “it’s hot so stay inside!” Not everyone has air conditioning you overpaid TV psychics. It’s probably cooler outside than it is in.

Finally I managed to get past Comcast’s blockade again, haven’t since the 18th. BUT NOT LONG ENOUGH TO POST THIS.

Have to give the computer a break now, it’s way to hot for it. I’ll have to finish charging it later.

I figured out why the air conditioner feels like a fan. It’s because those idiots set it on fan instead of cool!