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Welcome to Lisabee.org the personal site of Megan. I am a major otaku, so if you don't like anime you can just leave now. In addition to my highly entertaining and informative blog I have included many pages for you in the visitors and tutorials section. ;) Here you can benefit from my great wit and knowledge, not to mention my generosity. *end sarcasm* This site displays best in FF and a resolution of 1024x768. <3 Megan
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Well, I did end up having to help her after she woke up and started screaming again. This time it was about her back and knee. Well after falling down and then laying on the floor between the coffee table and couch, of course it would be hurting. So I had to get her shoes and socks off and try to help her up, but she didn’t want to help herself. She just kept yelling about it hurting (stupid shit like “owie,” “my backy,” and “meowie”) and that she could do it. If she had put as much effort into getting up as she did complaining about it she would have gotten up a lot sooner. It took forever to get her up, then she hobbled to the bathroom which took forever, then took forever getting undressed, then finally went back to the couch and started crying. So I had to put up with that crap, and finally with her slobbering all over me. I hate drunk people! And I hate it when they cling to me and pet me, and then cry on me. Bleh. I can’t stand to be touched but I had to put up with her crushing me for a while (my ribs hurt and I had trouble breathing because of it, then when I finally got away there were indents from my pajamas all over my arms and sides) before I eventually got her to go to sleep. I think that was around 5 AM, and then I got to go to bed again after 6:30. Now her knees are bruised and swollen because of that, and she’s talking about calling off tomorrow. This morning I heard my cat getting into stuff and when I finally got up to see what the idiot was doing I found her digging under some stuff. It crossed my mind that it could be a mouse, but I thought it was probably a centipede so I dragged her away and started lifting some of it up to see what was underneath. That’s when a little grey mouse went zooming out from under it and around the corner towards the stove. Yes I screamed, several times too. I like mice, mice are cute, but only when they’re in cages, not when they’re running around your home. After I got it together I had to go after that cat who was in pursuit of her new toy. I didn’t know mice could climb, but he scaled the blanket hanging over the door in the kitchen, then dropped back down and finally went back behind the stove again. It looked like he had something either in his mouth or stuck to him. Allie’s been hunting that mouse for almost two years, and this is the first time I’ve seen him come out. He had gone all over the place in here too. I hope he stays behind the stove now. I’m sick of Valentines day. Egg Cave is has a Valentine egg, which took me 20 (then 100 more when I had to restart Firefox) tries to find, but there’s a 10 egg viewing limit so I have to wait until tomorrow and hopefully it’ll still be there. Then Dragon Cave has two Valentines eggs, which are impossible to get. Half the time the site doesn’t even load, then by the time it does all the eggs are gone. I’ve never been able to get any egg when they were released so I don’t think I’ll be able to get either of these. There should be a one egg limit for both instead of two, so the greedy people can’t stock up on them while the rest of us don’t get anything. I don’t see why some many idiots on that site think this is fun. How is it fun to sit at a computer for hours at a time, all day long trying to get a couple virtual eggs? It’s not fun, it’s frustrating and painful, and very bad for you. Fighting over 1000 people for 3 eggs? What BS. Edit: After almost 400 eggs, I just found out I got two of this years Val eggs when I checked my scroll. Still no ’09s. It’s going to be so noisy here soon. Like it’s not enough already. But they’re tearing down the McDonalds and Jiffy Lube in the back and building a bigger McD. The McDonalds execs are idiots. The McDonalds there gets busy, but there’s no way we need a new or bigger one. Not only are we losing our McDonalds for 6+ months, we get to listen to construction starting at the end of this month. It is literally right behind us. Then the street the runs along side us, the one McDonalds is on, it’s going to be getting teared up. I don’t know what’s with all the stupid fucks making these decisions, but they’re going to be doing work on it for miles back. So we also get to hear that, and my mom will be having trouble getting to work since it’s a bus line. It’s a very busy street, I don’t know what people are going to do. It’s the main road to downtown. I hope McD doesn’t close down for a few weeks more. They’ve got Penguins of Madagascar toys. I love that show so I’m going to try to get my mom to get herself a Happy Meal so I can get some. Posted by Megan on February 14th, 2010 1 Comments
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Feb 13: My mom called yesterday after work and said she missed two buses trying to get a Subway sandwich so she was in a bad mood. She said she was going to the bar before coming home and would be home with dinner in about an hour. Fast forward to past 2 in the morning and I’m trying to sleep when I hear someone screaming. Naturally I think it is the ignorant neighbors upstairs who never stop yelling/stomping around and being the noisy people they are. But no, I realize it’s not when one thing yelled is “Megan”. OMG that damn bitch has done it again. I remember last year she came home so drunk she couldn’t get her key in the door and I had to get up again to let her in, and pick up everything she had dumped outside. This time I found her outside on the floor of the porch herself. All she was doing was yelling and saying the same thing over again “I can’t get up.” Now I thought it could be something serious, like she slipped and fell. But no, it’s only that she couldn’t feel her feet (according to her). Oh gee, I wonder what that could be like, not being able to feel parts of your body… Mom, do you know why you can’t feel your feet? IT’S COLD OUT! Just get inside, problem solved. It’s probably well below 30 out, and she just walked up from the bar, and is drunk no less, that’s why she can’t feel her fucking feet! So I get to go outside in my pajamas and struggle with helping a drunk stand up (not an easy task) and eventually get her in the door. All the bitch keeps saying is “I can’t feel my feet” and yelling. Drunks usually come with a few pre-programmed phrases, they’re like those dolls you pull the string and they repeat the same thing over and over again. Then she tripped over her (mostly) alchie bottles on the way to the couch and and was last seen laying there propped up against the couch still saying she couldn’t feel her feet. It would help if she’d taking her effing shoes off and get her feet out of the damp socks. It would certainly help more than just sitting their and whining about it. But no. And I’m certainly not going to make the attempt. Let this be a lesson to her about the evils of drinking (though if she hasn’t learned it by now she never well). I wont be held responsible either if her toes fall off. And if she ever does this again I’m leaving her outside. But for today I get to deal with this, at… 3 in the morning now. And I’ve had to lock that cat in the room with me so drunky Godzilla doesn’t crush her. | Finally a New Post |
With anime I’ve mainly been sticking to a few specific ones, but that changed with the new season of anime. Those are Bleach, Prince of Tennis, Wallflower (aka Perfect Girl Evolution, aka Yamato Nadeshiko Shichi Henge), Ouran, Nodame Cantabile, and Itazura na Kiss. Awesome, awesome, awesome, good, okay, …okay. I finally got caught up with Bleach probably about a month ago, and now I just love love love it. I really want to give it an 8 just for how likable and how much fun it is. But everytime I get the urge I have to remind myself of all the times it made me want bash my head against the wall. It’s a 7 anime. Prince of Tennis is still really good, but I’ve been on a break from it because they’re at a tournament and Ryoma’s up and it’s making me nervous. I loved Perfect Girl Evolution (which is known by three names, my preference being The Wallflower because it’s short and easy to remember), and it went on to become my fastest anime, I finished at three days. I was surprised at how quickly I connected with it, and how quickly it went. Ouran was good, and it’s in second place at 7 days, although I technically saw the first episode (several times) almost a year ago. I don’t think I’ll ever be able to do that again, I just can’t watch that many episodes at once, especially of the same anime (except near the end for Bleach, I was at about 20 a day). Nodame is okay, and it doesn’t grate on me as much as Itazura does. I was hoping to get caught up on all the Nodame Cantabile series before the last one came out, but that was an unrealistic dream. For the winter season I added Durarara!!, Ookamikakushi, and Dance in the Vampire Bund. I may start watching Hanamaru Youchien, but I’m not sure yet. I was so disappointed Kuroshitsuji 2 wasn’t going to start airing this month like some idiot on MAL said it would, but hopefully it’ll start in the spring. I like Durarara, enough for me to give it an 8 on the second ep, which is something I never do. I liked it so much it gave me a renewed interest in Baccano, which I am also finding myself liking. Ookamikakushi… well, it’s my own fault because I could tell what it was going to be like, so now I’m just hoping it’ll get better. The characters are so friggin annoying. Vampire Bund had one of the most original first eps I’ve ever seen, but the second wasn’t as good. I also knew what I was getting myself into there, but I’m weak and stupid. I’ve been downloading a ton of anime, so I’m going to be taking a break from the internet for a few days again so I watch it. After several months I finally got out again, and to The Cheesecake Factory no less. Unfortunately it was Martin Luther King Jr Day, which is an official holiday here, so a ton of people and brats had off. We got there less than a half an hour after they opened and it was already packed. We were seated next to these “rich” women and one of them had thrown her big coat over the divider between the booths, so it was practically in my seat. I wanted to throw mine over so it would hit them on the head. People are so rude and obnoxious, they really have no concern for others. It wasn’t that great there either, and I was the one paying for it, so that’s minus $40. We should have gone to Red Lobster. After we went to the Jo Beth bookstore. Even though I hate them, I hadn’t read anything in a while except The Lovely Bones (which is an awful book, don’t believe the hype). They didn’t have The Shining or any interesting bios, so I got Ender’s Game, which I’ve been meaning to read for a while. I’ve got two new fl layouts up now, my Maria Sharapova, and Amber’s K-ON one. I love the coding on the second one, it looks really good further down on the page. A preview of what will be the layout of my new anime fl collective domain Zangetsuki.org is here. I prefer my current layout, but I decided to move that one to Among the Stars since its layout only looks good in 1024×764. That’s if I don’t try to fix it with div id’s, but it’s so much hassle since I’m not used to that yet. I’ve been downloading a ton of textures for layouts and icons, so expect to see more, esp of the icons, I still have a lot to upload, and a lot more I want to make. I’ve already made over 100 Schneizel and Clovis bases, and I want to make more for other fandoms. Since he hasn’t been here in a while, and he’s really missed sharing his hotness in my posts, Schneizel once again gets to be my icon. Posted by Megan on January 25th, 2010 2 Comments
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I haven’t updated this with a real blog entry in a while. Just haven’t felt like it. Mostly I’ve been watching anime and online at either | Coo Coo for Cocoa Puffs |
Some of the things he said was that she was broken from the beginning and that he thought he could fix her. Yeah, because she was the one who had just come off from a divorce where her partner had fled across the country with her two kids on a greyhound bus to get away from her (then followed said partner here), and then was living in her sisters basement… oh, wait, that was him. Being around her is like being poisoned, not enough to kill you but you lose a little more of yourself every day, and that spending even more than a weekend with her is like slowly dying, etc, and that he didn’t love her anymore and hated her. Yet my mother says that on Monday he was all over her, so obviously his hatred for her doesn’t stop him from trying to be a dirty whore. He also said that he was changing all the locks and the alarm system, and told his neighbors to call the police if the alarm goes off, and not to call him because he would consider it harassment (I don’t think the law would). Another WTF from the both of us. He actually thinks that she is going to break into his house/stalk him/kill him? Another thing he said was something like despite all that most of the family has been decent to him. I’m guessing Cyndy and I are not included in that, since he knows we both despise him. And yet he claims not to know why this family hates him. Then when he was over Cynthia’s he was offering her chili he made! Cynthia said she didn’t like chili, and he said “you’d like mine, mine is good.” And I’m like don’t take any food from him. And if he says “hey, you want some candy” don’t get in the car, just say you’re not supposed to talk to strangers. She said that today when he was dropping more stuff off again that he was calling her Aunt Cynthia, chatting with her neighbors, and saying hi to everyone he saw like he knows them. He is seriously disturbed. Cynthia said he had some nerve to go around like that, but it’s not nerve because he’s a coward. For the past 14 years he’s broken up with her in letters and has acted like she’s the crazy one when he does. My mom said the letter was full of typos too. That’s all I know about the letter Cynthia said he was a psychopath, but like I told my mom, he’s not, he’s a sociopath. Sociopaths don’t have it as together as psychopaths do, I psychopath would never act like this, a sociopath would. He is always like this. Like when he was staying with us after following my mom across the country from Arizona to Pittsburgh after they had broken up (again) he was rearranging furniture, doing what he wanted with the internet, etc. Then when I heard him talking about my mom behind her back (and saying things like in the letter, that she wasn’t well and stuff) and told her, right after when passing through my room (the bathroom was connected to my room) he stepped on a little cardboard box of trinkets that I had made (and had painted to look like real wood, it was gorgeous) and then kicked it. I could tell it was no accident. You don’t stomp on something, then kick it across the room on accident, and he did that while I was there. Then he told my mom that I had put his toothbrush in the toilet. He is delusional and extremely paranoid. There is seriously something wrong with him. It runs in his family too. When I was little my mom had to call the police because after another time when they had broken up, his trailer trash sister left a message on our answering machine saying he was going to beat her up/kill her, and had come looking for us, but we weren’t home at the time. He could be a danger to himself, but who cares about that, he more has a high potential to be a danger to others. He would never do anything outright, because he’s a coward, but with the way he’s acting now and has acted in the past it’s clear he’s unstable and could do something bad. My mom said she ripped up the letter, but I think she should have kept it just in case (and to remind her of what a crazy person he is) for legal reasons. There is the question of whether he will move back to Arizona or not. I wish he would. He’s probably going to get fired from his job soon anyway, since he’s been constantly calling off. And he’s this close to having a heart attack, because not only is he old, he has gotten even fatter since I last saw him. He was disgustingly obese then in 2006, with his stomach protruding grotesquely a couple feet out in front of him. I don’t even want to think about how sickening he looks now. Good riddance to him. If it was up to me I would do my best to get a restraining order against him, and get him that psychiatric evaluation, because he clearly needs it. Posted by Megan on December 5th, 2009 0 Comments
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Or just coo coo (or would it be koo koo?). Like I said before my mom and Matt-freak broke up again. The same thing happens that always happens. So I’m going to write this and that’s the last I want to hear/think about it because I have enough stress without people acting like children. So I found out yesterday when my aunt called that the idiot left a bunch of her stuff up in boxes at her place, and that he said he was bringing more tomorrow (now today). The first thing I thought was “That %$^&#$% bastard! How are we supposed to get all that down here?!” But because he’s such a gd bastard he doesn’t care. When my mom got home I didn’t want to be the one to tell her so I was going to try to get her to call Cynthia. Didn’t need to. Turns out he left a letter in the mailbox saying what he was going to do, as well as a lot of other stuff. My mom’s reaction was the same as mine, getting all that down here is just no possible. But like I said there was a lot of other stuff in the letter as well, and I only know a little bit of it. I do know his complete insanity comes out in it, and I am not exagerating. This guy seriously needs a psychiatric evaluation. It might seem ridiculous coming from me, but I only have depression, no matter how severe it is, and some OCD, I am not delusional or paranoid. Matt is delusional, paranoid, and a coward. This isn’t coming from my bias against him, but from what I know and have seen it’s obvious. My mother said the letter was extremely hateful, and had awful, awful things in it.| Back Online |
Anyway I got ready and then after I was done (an hour later, it takes so much effort now) she said she didn’t know if she wanted to go all the way out to Best Buy after all, and maybe we could go to a restaurant in Dormont instead? I said that I didn’t go through all the trouble of getting ready just to go up the street. So she managed to drag herself out and we took the street car to South Hills Village. Even though they’re overpriced, Best Buy is basically the only tech place we can get to around here, besides the Mac store in the mall near there, but that’s way out of our price range. We can only stare longingly through the windows until the sales people chase us away. It’s good we went out then because at that time she had caught me in one of my mellow moods where I can go either way, and getting out and going to the store put me into a good mood, so I was very receptive and willing to look around. I guess it was a good time, because I haven’t been in an okay mood in a while. The first one we saw was not going to happen, a 160 GB hard drive. I would only accept that if I couldn’t get anything else. She showed me a computer she had seen online, an Asus with a 320 hard drive, 4 GB memory, 64 bit, 16″ widescreen, with a webcam and facial recognition, for $480. I’d never heard of Asus, and preferred a well-known, big name computer like HP or Dell. It was also pretty ugly, so we continued to look around. Then I saw a Toshiba for $430. It had a less features, and was a little smaller, but it was much cuter and cheaper since I also needed to get anti-virus and was hoping to get a wireless router. We couldn’t afford the anti-virus that day (right now I’m using a trial of Norton, I’ll be getting Kaspersky) and decided to hold off on the router and get them at the same time. So here is the laptop I got: Toshiba – Satellite Laptop with AMD Athlon™ II Dual-Core Processor – Graphite Gray I’m so shallow. The pictures on the site do not do it justice. If I had a digital camera (like this crappy but cutie that caught my eye) I would post pictures of it. I also saw these three amazing wireless mouses 1 2 3, that are so expensive but absolutely gorgeous. I love them all, especially #s 2 and 3, but I think the third one would go best with my laptop. After choosing the laptop we had a slight ordeal trying to purchase it. The guy who was checking us out (and who had been giving us advice) was kind of a jerk, and then he couldn’t accept cash and had to send us to someone else. It was then while waiting we decided to hold off on the router. While there we also looked at the cameras, netbooks since my mom wants one, and the computer games since I haven’t had any in years. I think I own two: Sim City 3000 and the first Harry Potter game. I don’t know if any new ones I’d like to buy would play on this laptop, I don’t know what the compatability is for them. So far all the previous software I had Filezilla, VLC, KMP, even Paint Shop Pro installed and appear to work without a problem. When we were leaving I told my mom I would have to think up a new name for the computer. I had previously decided on Poj, standing for piece of junk, but since I got a “nice” one I couldn’t name it that. Since it’s a Japanese computer I thought it should have a Japanese name, but then there’s the problem of whether a computer is a boy or a girl. I started thinking through names beforehand, mostly from different anime. Haruhiko was one of them, and keeping with the H’s I really love the name Haruka. All of my computers have been boys (except maybe one) and felt that this one was too, so Haruka wasn’t an option. So I changed the ka to ko since it sounds like it could go either way. My new laptops name is Haruko. I don’t know if I’ll be able to name my network, I know on some you can, and I’d like an anime name for that as well. After sifting through some Code Geass ones, I thought it should be tech related, and what anime is more computer and internet related than Serial Experiments Lain? So if I can it’ll probably be Cyberia, the name of the club there, unless I find a different one from it. The only issues I have with the laptop so far is stupid Windows 7, which may be better than Vista, but not XP, the touchpad/mouse, the internet cord not staying in, and that I’m forced to use a screen resolution of 1366 x 768 instead of my preferred 1024×768. Everything looks so much better in 1024×768. When we got home we stopped at McDonalds and I got an Angus Third Pounder since I haven’t had one in a while because of my throat, and was bad and had 1 1/2 pops to get the burger and fries down, since its so hard to eat with water. I’d want to try their hot chocolate too, even though I’ve never liked hot chocolate when I’ve had it. Too watery. Hopefully theirs would be different. Posted by Megan on December 2nd, 2009 4 Comments
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Well I’m back, and much sooner than expected. I was without a computer for about 6 days, counting the half of Thanksgiving and the half of Tuesday. I got my new computer yesterday. We were supposed to go on Monday when my mom had off, but she called late in the afternoon to say she wasn’t feeling well. Then I got a surprise call early Tuesday afternoon with her telling me to get ready to go out to Best Buy since she had called off. Her and Matt had a fight and she didn’t get a lot of sleep, had been crying, etc, so she called off. She says they’ve broken up, then says she hasn’t decided yet, but they’ve been breaking up since I was 5. At the most if they break up it’ll be a couple years, at the least a few months.| Last Post |
So this is supposed to be my last day online. Really this time. My mom finally got the flash drives on Thursday and got them to me on Friday. 50 some dollars for two 8 GB at Best Buy. They’re half that online. So since I had got everything I needed backed up down from 25 to 20 to 19 and then only had 16 GB I had to get zipping and uploading again. So some of my stuff might not be there when I get a computer because it didn’t zip right, or didn’t upload right, or MU decided to delete it. I knew they wouldn’t actually fit 8 GB each, but I still thought it would be enough after I got them both under 8 GB. Nope. The first one fit 7.80 GB and the second on 7.30. So I had to delete some of my precious Code Geass episodes, and over 630 MB of music. While trying to upload everything I kept getting “undefined” and “The file you are trying to access is temporarily unavailable” errors. This is driving me crazy. You can’t upload the same file twice, and it knows even if you rename it because it’s still the same size, so I can’t even upload them again. So I had to keep changing the files so they would have different sizes when I needed to reupload them, but I don’t know what I’m going to do about my music, since they still keep saying “The file you are trying to access is temporarily unavailable,” some on and off, and some have been like that since I uploaded them. Right now two of my Code Geass soundtracks are saying it, and God knows how many other files are saying it as well, since there are so many I can’t check them all, it would take too long to upload them all again, and they’ve probably already been deleted from the computer anyway. I still have to delete my music and a couple various files, uninstall my last programs (BitTorrent, Filezilla, VLC Media Player, KMPlayer, Firefox). I’m waiting a little while longer to do that since then I won’t be able to listen to music or watch anything for a while. Right now I’m downloading the latest Kobato. episode so I’ll get to watch that before everything has to go. I’d like to get in some Kuroshitsuji chapters too. I was happy to find out that the second anime is actually supposed to start in January, and not spring like I had originally thought, so not much longer to wait. Since I now love adoptables sites I joined Squiby (Valenth too when I get back), originally because I’m getting sick of all the sucky art changes at the Pokemon adoptable site Virtuadopts. That artist and the sites admin both are idiots, and I hate them. But I ended up getting tons of other things too. A few Bleach, a Naruto one, a Lelouch, two Alucards, two L’s, Ayanami, Kero-chan, Sadako from Ringu (who’s already peeking out of her well), other Pokemon, Yu-Gi-Oh, and Grell from Kuroshitsuji. I wish someone would make a Sebastian one too, and lot’s of other anime and manga ones. My mom was once again supposed to call the doctor yesterday but didn’t. I finally broke down and told her to get chocolate since it’s been 3 weeks since I had any (and two weeks since my old blood test results were supposed to get there) and I’m still way over the daily sugar limit. But since it’s cold I’ve been wearing socks most of the time and haven’t seen my feet, and when I’ve had them off I’ve mostly just glanced at them because I don’t want to know. But I did see them yesterday after I talked to my mom and then I regretted telling her to get chocolate since they don’t look good. The red and purple is getting darker and spreading, and the spot on one toe that was really itchy (my toes/feet are always itchy) looked horrible. I almost called my mom back it looked so bad. It has various shades of dark purple spots mixed in dark purple coloring. If she comes today like she’s supposed to I’m going to make her take a look at them since she’s never seen it. Posted by Megan on November 24th, 2009 0 Comments
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No icon this time. I don’t feel like looking one up. My mom is taking her good old time. First she was supposed to get the flash drives Sunday and bring them day of. Then she said on Sunday that she was going to get them and would call after she did and bring them on Monday. She didn’t call again and didn’t call on Monday either. She finally called after 6 on Tuesday and said her work only had 2 GB and 4 GB flash drives, no 8, so she couldn’t get them. She said she was going to the store in a little bit to get the turkey she saved up points for (yeah, thanks for reminding me about stupid Thanksgiving) and would see if they had them there. Because everybody knows supermarkets have the United State’s leading entertainment and technology sections. Once again she said she’d call after, and never did. I’m down three more pounds and 17 more to go. I barely eat anything since it’s so difficult and now I’m watching out for sugar. Yesterday I choked on my Cheerios and a dinner roll got stuck in my throat, so I didn’t eat anymore after that. My toes looked really bad yesterday, the worst they’ve looked so far, my knees aren’t improving, and my hands have started tingling again. My mom was supposed to call the doctor on Monday since it’s been over two weeks and they haven’t called here. I’ve barely been sleeping. With my health, life situations, and now all this my stress has gone through the roof, I really cannot handle any more. I found out that the DVD player doesn’t work at all without the remote. It does go to the menu, but you can’t play if from there because you can’t select play. I then thought to hook up my portable DVD player to the TV, and even though it doesn’t play subtitles I thought it might through the TV. The first DVD I tried worked so I went and reordered my Netflix list again to put up all the anime I’d been watching. I was happy that at least I could continue to watch anime, and on the TV instead of the much smaller computer screen. When I went and tried to watch a different DVD it wouldn’t work, it kept playing the dub. So I had to go remove almost 30 volumes of anime from my list, and one of the DVDs has to be sent back without me even watching it. That really hurt. Edit: And the stress keeps piling on, thanks to my mom. She called at around 5 today to say she was going to Best Buy and then to Shop n’ Save (which she was supposed to do yesterday). She didn’t get here until 7:10, and then said she was going to Best Buy tomorrow. So she must have taken her good old time getting to the store because by then all the good food was gone and all that was left was their crappy fried chicken. I guess it’s good that by that time I was sobbing so much I could barely taste it. She left a message with the school today saying that we got the shipping labels and was trying to get flash drives, and that’s why it was taking so long. All I could say was “Please tell me you didn’t actually say that.” She said yes, because she had to have an excuse. WTF. You aren’t supposed to use the computer for personal reasons, they don’t care if you have to get flash drives for stuff you’re not supposed to have on there in the first place. But she couldn’t get it through her thick skull that that was not an excuse, just a reason to piss them off even more. I don’t know why people don’t get it. My aunt says “well it’s not like vulgar things on there” (uh, define vulgar…) and my mom says “well it’s not like you were planning a bank heist on there” and they just don’t get that it doesn’t matter. You are not supposed to have anything on there. Then she said “What are they going to do, arrest me.” ???!!! Yes, remember that “we’ll put a warrant out for your arrest.” Ohhh, but flash drives are an excuse. So many people lack common sense. Then when I went into the kitchen to get my disgusting food I found someone (don’t know if it was her or the freak) threw food from the freezer into the garbage, and I got to put the garbage food back into the freezer. You can’t put things that rot into the garbage when there’s fruit flies. That just creates more breeding grounds for them, and since I’m the one that’s always here I’m the one that has to deal with it. The reason things got moved from the freezer was to put the turkey she got in there, which did nothing to improve my mood. She’s not going to make a turkey here, she’s not even going to be here. I’m going to be all alone for the holidays like always, so why do I have to see the freaking turkey! Keep it over there where it belongs. So that’s why by then I was crying again. Posted by Megan on November 18th, 2009 0 Comments
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I am finally going to the doctor next Monday, sometime in the morning. So I’m going to have to write down everything that’s been happening to me, and what I want to say in the order I want to say it since I have trouble talking. After that I’ll have to get blood work done, and if he listens to me, an MRI. I hope I don’t have to get a spinal tap too, MRI is bad enough. An MRI is where you get in one of those big tube things, and a spinal tap is where they stick a needle in your spine to get fluid out. If I get an MRI I think I’ll have to be sedated because I’ll freak, checking for MS can take a long time (2 hours), and they better not try a spinal tap unless they want to end up with the needle in their eye. I have enough problems without someone sticking a needle in my spine. As if the possibility of having Multiple sclerosis wasn’t bad enough, they have to come up with torturous tests for it, and a lot of them, since there isn’t any one thing that shows you have it. I finally cleared out my manga list and moved a ton of stuff to on hold, so now there’s only 15 on reading for now. I’m going to start Kobato., Kuroshitsuji, Darker Than Black Shikkoku no Hana, Monster, Honey and Clover, Kimi ni Todoke, NANA, Nyan Koi, Prince of Tennis, and some others. I have started Cardcaptor Sakura, Fullmetal Alchemist, and Hellsing, am continuing with Skip Beat!, Bleach, Minami-ke. I wish I could continue with Junjou and Gunslinger but still no new scanlated chapters for them. I just couldn’t hold off any longer, it had been months since I read any manga. But I still have to be very careful. I’d love to be able to download from stoptazmo.com since they have practically every manga ever made, but for some reason their files don’t scan right in Kaspersky. It just shows manganame.zip:Zone.Identifier and then says scanned 2 files no threats detected. I know there aren’t only two files in the zip, and I don’t know what Zone.Identifier means, so I won’t open them, can’t risk it. Which sucks because I lose a great resource since every file from Stop Tazmo says that. Sites I’m addicted to (besides my dailies): FAIL Blog, I Can Has Cheezburger, Fail Dogs slash I Has a Hotdog, Dreaming of Kittens, My First Fail, This is Photobomb, and Pundit Kitchen. Basically every site listed on FAIL Blog. I can’t help it, they’re so funny. Engrish has its moments too. Here are some of my faves. Posted by Megan on October 26th, 2009 3 Comments
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He’s taking a break. I’m sure he’ll be back for my next post to share is hotness with the world again. My mom and I were supposed to go out again this Monday to Red Lobster and it didn’t happen. She called me at 9:30 to say she called UPMC and switched my PCP to a new doctor not too far from here (on my health care I can only go to a certain doctor unless they refer me to someone else), but his office wasn’t open yet so she had to wait to make the appointment. So she said she’d call back later. I went back to sleep and she called again after 2. But she said she wasn’t feeling well so we couldn’t go out today. She once again said we’d go to Red Lobster next Monday, but since she’s been saying that for 3 years now I won’t hold my breath. | Because Schneizel is Hot |
I missed last weeks Melrose Place, Modern Family, Cougar Town, the past two Mythbusters, and the last Destination Truth. I’m probably dropping Modern Family since I do not think it is as good as everyone says. But I still like Melrose and Cougar Town, and Destination Truth has been really good recently. In anime I’ve made it more than halfway through Cardcaptor Sakura, and am up to 70 on Bleach. A few more episodes and it’ll be my longest series. The current is Monster at 74 episodes, and then Blood+ at 50. I finished my beloved Toradora early this month, and that God awful Romeo x Juliet (Tybalt, Francisco, and Curio <3 though). The new anime season started around that time so I’ve got even more on my plate now. Some I’m really wishing I hadn’t started like Book of Bantorra, Tegami Bachi (sorry Fukuyama Jun!), and Seitokai no Ichizon. Also regretting Miracle Train a little bit, but I knew what I was getting myself into there so it’s my own damn fault. I’m liking Kobato. and Nyan Koi, Kimi ni Todoke is okay, but Darker than BLACK 2 is really going down in points since they’re killing off all the original characters. It’s just Hei (looking really ugly) and a little bit of Kirihara until they kill her off, then we’ll be left with Hei x stupid Russian Mary Sue loli, and all the new people. The other anime that I’m liking… well Bleach and Cardcaptor. I’ve really grown attached to them, it surprised me how much I started liking Bleach. It really is just a likable anime with lots of likable characters. Rented Memories of Nobody through Netflix, it was fun. I like Honey and Clover, but not as much right now as I did when I first started it (same with Kyouran Kazoku Nikki, though that’s “don’t like very much at all right now), and Prince of Tennis, Trigun. Fate/stay Night is okay, it’s the next most liked. Shangri-la is eh, but I can’t move forward in it because I’m having trouble finding the episodes. The only thing I like about Beck right now is the opening theme. Saki… omg, I’m pretty sure I said this before about this anime, but Mahjong is so boring! And since I’m not yuri inclined or a guy, no amount of big breasted, short skirted lolis can make it interesting for me. Maybe if it was a Mahjong death match then it’d be interesting (or some hot open shirted guys with some bishies thrown in for good measure, either way). The first Gundam and Evangelion… so not a mecha fan. 07-Ghost can be okay sometimes. At least Ayanami is hot, and sort of looks like Schneizel, so that distracts me enough to forget the show isn’t that great, and keeps me coming back. Unfortunately that was the same problem I had with Romeo x Juliet. Damn you hot anime guys! I really, really want to continue with my manga. No new scanlations of Gunslinger Girl or Junjou Romantica have come out yet (I hate you scanlators) but there’s lot’s of others I want to get on with, and some I want to start. I might just give up trying to wait for a different computer and start again anyway. Hmm, health wise there haven’t been any major developments except my toes have started aching most of the time, and I’ve had trouble walking after getting out of bed. It’s not like it’s numb really, but like it has no strength in it at all. And lastly, aren’t my dragons cute? The last two might be dead soon since they’re not growing up fast enough. It’s going to take my other eggs a while to hatch, and my Pokemon egg who knows how long to hatch, since they have to be feed/clicked/page viewed/walked and it takes a lot of it. I don’t know what the Pokemon will be, but I know what the other eggs will be here, here, here, and here. Aren’t they cute? The first one sort of looks like a panda. I’d also like a Mo, Posted by Megan on October 19th, 2009 5 Comments
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He gets to be my icon this time. Haven’t posted anything in almost a month. Just haven’t felt like it, and I don’t try to force myself like I used to. I went out a couple times with my mom to The Cheesecake Factory, and stopped at Joseph Beth Booksellers one of the times, looking for a Stephen King story. I’m so over that place now. They’re overpriced and their staff is so rude and pretentious. You work at a Joseph Beth bookstore, okay, not the Louvre! We were supposed to go to Red Lobster the Monday before last since I haven’t been there in several years, but my mom decided to go out to dinner with my visiting uncle instead. The dinner ended up sucking btw. Then we were supposed to go up to Eat n’ Park today after she got off work today, since it was an early day, but I knew she had changed her mind yesterday when she didn’t mention it. Whenever she says we’ll go out on one of her early days I know it’s not going to happen because she never follows through with it then. | Blank |
Maybe I’ll write about why I was arguing with my aunt in the first place tomorrow. I also have to write about the G-20 which is going to be starting here soon. It’s causing a ton of trouble. But that’s all I feel like talking about right now. I can’t sit anymore, I have to get moving. There isn’t much exercise I can do because everything is so tough on my body, but I have to do what I can. Posted by Megan on September 20th, 2009 3 Comments
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I don’t feel well right now, physically or mentally. Because I’ve been so depressed (more than “usual” depression) I’ve made myself not feel well from eating too much chocolate (I thought the icon was appropriate), since that makes me feel better emotionally for a little bit. There hasn’t been much chocolate in the house for a while, but I remember we had some semi-sweet chocolate chips that my mom got to make chocolate chip pancakes but never did. Except in pancakes I don’t like semi-sweet chips, but I was desperate and ate some a couple days ago. I discovered they’re much better when melted a little bit in the microwave, and I’ve gone through 1 1/2 bags of them so far. I haven’t had any more bad pains, numbness, or anything else out of the ordinary since the last time I posted but still… All this grates on my nerves. I’m naturally an emotion person, but this really gets to me. When it’s bad like this I burst in to tears or flip out over anything, and this isn’t even the worst I’ve been. Then little things upset and worry me more. Like seeing the veins in my thighs, legs, and lower back. They look awful and stand out so much. Or all the random bruises all over my body. And something I discovered a few minutes ago. I have dried blood on my lower back, a little above where the legs starts. I tried rubbing it with a wet napkin but it wouldn’t come off. I haven’t noticed anything near there, and I don’t know of anything that could cause it. It doesn’t look like a bug bite, it’s too big, and the only things that touch my back is the chair I sit in at the computer, the couch, and the bed when I lay down. Even bumping into walls couldn’t cause it because I haven’t hit anything sharp on that side. Yesterday I talked to my mom, who said she’d finally take me to the doctor in a week or two. That’s because I’d just gotten off the phone with Cynthia after breaking down when arguing with her because I was having trouble talking again. My mom said she didn’t know what that could be, and I said I had an idea. She asked what it was but I broke down again and refused to say because she’d just ridicule me and call me a hypochondriac. She said she’d never do that, but she’s done it before, ever since all this started. She said that was just because I keep saying different things. I’m so sorry my symptoms are so sporadic. My mom also said that she’s sick. I hope it isn’t swine flu, someone her age recently died from that. My mom heard the woman probably had something wrong with her immune system, and she wondered if she herself did, since she has trouble with bug bites. I didn’t think about it until later because my mind is so slow, but MS is a type of immune deficiency. If I have MS, and if my mom had swine flu and gave it to me, she’d have a better chance of surviving than I would. It would be better that way anyway. I’ve been suicidal for years, but more so now. Sometimes I think it would be better to die than to suffer like this, or die slowly. At least if I got that flu I would die naturally. Then it would be “an act of God.” I thought of it a couple months ago, but if some people take medication to die (which actually doesn’t work very well, I’ve thought a lot about this) I have a whole bottle of prozac. I don’t know if that would kill me though. I heard that helium is a popular method of suicide at the moment, I found out about that on ANN. Apparently if you get it straight from the container it’s a gentle death because you just go to sleep. I don’t think I ever be able to get my hands on one of those unfortunately, but that would be a nice way to die. It’s a step up for the cleaning liquids method (you mix certain cleaning products together and they create a very powerful noxious gas) because that one kills you and everyone else around too. I don’t want to hurt my cat, or random people (though mostly my cat). | That’s Entertainment |
I’m watching so much anime now, more than ever. 23 on my watching list, and 43 on hold. Thank God for MAL or I’d never be able to keep track of what I’m watching and reading. I couple weeks ago I got through about 50 episodes of Bleach to make it to episode 63, and finish the first arc. I really started to enjoy it, but I’m taking a break for now since it looks like it went back to filler. I still love Honey and Clover, Toradora has gotten really good, and I’m even liking Cardcaptor now, which I thought was boring at first. I also started 07-Ghost, Baccano, Beck, Fate/stay Night, Gankutsuou, Kyouran Kazoku Nikki, Neon Genesis Evangelion, Prince of Tennis, Romeo x Juliet, Saki, Shangri-la, Shingetsutan Tsukihime, Tokyo Magnitude, Trigun, and Tytania. I moved Tsukihime and Tytania to my hold list. Tsukihime’s first episode both bored and annoyed the crap out of me, and Tytania is freaking hilarious (I don’t think it’s supposed to be), but pretty bad. 07-Ghost is… okay. I think that cute bad guy looks like Schneizel a little bit. I wish Mikage would throw himself off a cliff and take Teito with him because they both get on my nerves. Baccano I’ve only seen the first episode of, but if Emperor Wakamoto says CARORU one more time… As for Beck, I really wish they’d just stick to Japanese and not try to speak English, and Ryusuke is just so unemotional. The characters are really hard to connect to. Fate/stay night got better after the first ep, and Saber is really pretty. I like her hair. Gankutsuou is an adaptation of The Count of Monte Cristo, if the count was like a space vampire/demon. Dude is twisted. That’s another one where I can’t really like any of the characters, even though I do feel sorry for the kid, he’s annoying, and I hate the Count even if he makes me laugh. Kyouran Kazoku Nikki is hilarious but I haven’t liked the past couple episodes as much, and I don’t think Chika should have been added to the family. I’m not a big mecha fan so I don’t know how much I’ll get into Evangelion, but I’ve only seen the first episode, and you can’t judge a series on that. But still, the only monster that should be attacking Tokyo is G o j i r a. Prince of Tennis is surprisingly fun and interesting considering it’s about tennis. But if they ever make one about golf, I don’t care if it’s anime or not I’m not watching. Romeo x Juliet is nothing like the actual story. I hear anyway, not a Romeo and Juliet fan. I think they’re two stupid little kids who were infatuated with each other, not in love, and died over it. Stupid brats. I also think they’re putting in names from other Shakespeare stories but I haven’t read a lot of his plays so I can’t be sure. Romeo x Juliet is a little interesting, though it has its moments of annoyance because a lot of the characters are naive or just plain stupid, and they’re constantly doing stupid things. I didn’t like episode 11 too, in fact I hated it. I was just them wandering around being all lovey dovey. It was sickening, and boring. RxJ have already killed off one character I liked, and more might die or be dead already. Don’t leave me alone with those brats! Mahjong is so boring! Even if Fukuyama Jun is in Saki I don’t know if I can keep watching it. Shangri-la has its moments. It’s definitely got more interesting since the first couple episodes. Right now I think they really know how to work their audience. Bore the crap out of them, but intrigue them just enough that they stick around for more. Tokyo Magnitude 8.0 is pretty good, but I’m careful to balance it out with a lighter anime like Cardcaptor Sakura. This first episode of Trigun was funny, but it’s so distracting watching anime from before around 2000, since the animation before that was so low quality. I’m staying away from manga as much as I can right now (which sucks because it’s so fast to read) since I don’t want to download much on this computer since it has to go back to my school. I don’t want to have it get a virus. But two series I have to stick with are Gunslinger Girl and Junjou Romantica. It’s always been hard to get scanlations for then, even though JJR is so popular. The scanlators for GG are still behind with 64/66 but by the time they get the next chapter out there’ll be more. JJR is even worse. It goes for months at a time without scanlations. Some people on the LJ community for it started translating some chapters, but since there are several different stories with different pairings in each they only do the ones they like, and the chapters are categorized by act not what chapter number it is. So I have no idea where I am in any of them. I think the last one for my favorite, Romantica, was Act 17, but I can’t be sure. Someone put a translation out for 22 and I read part of it before I realized I was nowhere near that one yet, which was why I had no idea what was going on. I don’t know if I’m going to watch Gossip Girl tonight. I missed the last few episodes of the previous season so I don’t know if there’s any point. Then there’s 90210 and Melrose Place on Tuesday. 90210 started out completely crappy, the writing, the acting, the music, the constant breaks away where there was just music and shots of LA or people dancing, and that lame ass opening theme. If it doesn’t pick up soon I’ll drop it. I liked the first episode of Melrose Place though. I’m with the others who think Riley is a bitch. I knew I didn’t like her the first scene she was in, since she said hated Quentin Tarantino. Then she went on later complaining how her BF played with legos and watched Saturday morning cartoons. Legos and Spongebob rock bitch! I gave Vampire Diaries a try on Thursday. OMG. I hate you Twilight for bringing this on us! And I just hate you. Vampire Diaries was okay but I didn’t find most of the actors or the two vamps particularly good looking, yet all the characters think so. I think they drink too much so they’ve got beer goggles on. The good vampire looks like he went to Angel’s School of Vampire Acting. Unfortunately he’s not Angel, so he should unfurrow that brow and start showing some expression. The bad vampire is even uglier than he is, but a better actor. I’ll give it a few more episodes for I decide whether or not to keep it. Here is my TV list. Those italicized the others are shows I’m coming from previous season, and all the others are new ones I’m checking out. This list feels so empty without Reaper. My poor Reaper! September 8 September 10 September 14 September 16 September 17 September 23 September 24 September 30 November 3 Filed under: General Tags: 90210, anime, gossip girl, life, manga, melrose place, television, vampire diaries — Posted by Megan on September 14th, 2009 6 Comments
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Eh, I hate titles. Something weird happened today. My mom called in the afternoon to say that she’d see me tomorrow after work. She has off today but said she needed a day away from people and maybe we’d go out on Thursday. That’s not the weird part. She then asked me to check the mail to see if there’s anything in there from school about graduating. So after I got off the phone I thought that I had better check then since I didn’t hear anyone upstairs or outside. I try to avoid people as best as possible since I hate upstairs and I have too much trouble thinking and talking. I looked out and didn’t see anyone or any cars, but as soon as I opened the door someone came around the corner from the driveway. It was a short, dumpy woman with a lot of black, curly hair. Or at least I think it was, since I don’t remember things well. As soon as I saw her she said “Joann.” I thought that meant she was Joann so I just said “Oh… okay.” Then she said “Kayla.” Now I’m going WTF. “Are you Kayla?” she finally asked. That woman really needs to learn how to ask questions right. “No, I’m Megan.” Yes, I gave my name, I can’t help it, that’s why I don’t talk to people. I don’t see the harm in it anyway. “Are you Joann?” No, I’m freaking Megan! Didn’t I just say that? “No, my name is Megan.” “Well, the landlord told me to come to this door and give this (she had some sort of paper in her hand) to them, and that Joann and Kayla live here.” So I just told her, “He must have meant that door then.” There are two doors here, the ground floor one, and the one that goes upstairs. It’s possible, some people are too stupid to figure out that the first floor is the one on the bottom with the windows nearest to the ground. Yes, people are that stupid. “Well, okay then.” She looked and sounded like she didn’t believe me, which pissed me off. I was thinking Don’t take the tone with me you stupid little troll doll. But I just closed the door on her. Then I heard her knocking on the door for upstairs and ringing their doorbell, but there was no one home (which is why it was so blissfully quiet). I don’t know where she went after that. I immediately called my mom and told her what happened. After, when I had time to process things I started thinking. Why would the landlord send someone else, or send anyone at all instead of putting it in the mailbox. Was it like an eviction notice or something? Why would he not know our names, especially since this is the second time we’ve rented from him, and it’s not like he owns a whole complex. If she wasn’t from the landlord what was the point at all? I don’t see what she could gain from it. I don’t answer the door, ever, so if she comes back too bad for her.|
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