A Little Late Summer Cleaning

Because spring cleaning never happened. While searching my site for malware the other day, I also did a little maintenance removing all the old and unneeded files from my site. I thought I should do so for my others sites and my computer as well, as it’s long overdue. I ran WP-Optimize on my WordPress and it got the file down to 2 MB, when it had been over 15 MB. That made it much easier it download. I finally updated my WordPress because I haven’t in a very long time (and I don’t like the new look WP, or the font post text box). Next I cleaned up my desktop which was completely covered in files, and changed the wallpaper. It actually wasn’t the one in the sidebar at the bottom of the page, I’ve had several different wallpapers since then.


Then I cleared out a folder on my computer, but that’s all I’m going to take that slowly, because just that one was annoying enough. This is why my computer and domains get so cluttered, but I hate tedious things! After that I ran CCleaner, now I’m running Windows Defender, then after that Malwarebytes scan, and Norton scan. This is going to take forever. But you can never be too careful. I’m also have a lot to do with my browsers too. I finally closed all my Firefox windows (I had about 25 open) and I’ve cut down on my Chrome windows (only 19 open right now!) as well. I’ve also exported my bookmarks to both Delicious and Google, and I’m clear out the ones actually on the computer. I have over 1000, many of them Pinterest pages (I don’t know why I didn’t just re-pin the images I liked, instead of bookmarking hundreds of pages, but I did).

My technology aren’t the only ones getting work done today, my poor Allie cat had to have some maintenance of her own. Her brush just isn’t good enough for her, it’s more suited to short haired cats and can’t get the undercoat, and my senile old lady isn’t cleaning herself as thoroughly as she used to. That means she’s getting lumps. So I gave up on her brush, and tried the fine toothed end of a comb I never used. OMG I didn’t know she had that much fur on her! I don’t know how she has any left after all the brushing I did. Clump after clump of all fur came off her. I’m still not done, and I haven’t gotten any of the matted fur off her yet, because she’s a cat and very disagreeable. She somewhat put up with it for a while because she likes getting brushed, but she didn’t like the comb getting caught on her. And she also doesn’t like to stay in one place while getting brushed, and constantly moves around, making it very difficult. I’ve got many a scratch on me now from trying to make her sit still.

Mommy dearest didn’t call this weekend despite her saying “I can’t go that long without talking to you!!!eleventy” :side: (I just realized I don’t have a sufficient eye roll smiley…) She’s gone weeks without talking to me before, I know she can last a weekend. Maybe she’ll call today. I need to know whether she’s really going through with this or not, because there are things I’d have to do before moving, like having my last baby tooth pulled. :hick:

Worthless People are Worthless

My mom did call yesterday but she didn’t go to the store. She said Friday or Saturday. She definitely didn’t go today so we’ll see if she does tomorrow. My first birthday card came, from Pap Pap. Last year he didn’t send me one, and my mom said he might have remember this year since he had just been visiting Aunt Nita in Louisiana. My mom also said she’s going to apply to be a security guard at the nursing home near here. I said I thought you needed experience for something like that, and she said she’s going to ask her old boss to lie for her.

She managed to upset me even more yesterday. She mentioned the cake again, and I told her Cynthia said she doesn’t have any cake pans. She said maybe she could find someone else to borrow from. Then I said there was something else she could do for me instead, if she wanted to. The only reason I brought it up, or even thought of it, was because she suggested it a couple weeks ago. So I asked if she would ask Randy to take us to Red Lobster for my birthday. I knew she wouldn’t be happy about it, even though she’s the one that mentioned it first. She probably doesn’t even remember it because she says a lot of shit she never intends to follow through with. She said she’d think about it, and I was sure the answer would be no. Not more than an hour later she called back she said there was no way. I just said fine, and that seemed to piss her off for some reason. She said “you don’t understand, he only wants one thing, and I can’t do it” and that we’d go to Eat n Park for breakfast or lunch for my birthday (even if she does intend to follow through, there’s no way I’m going). She’s such a fucking moron. I expected her to say no, I expected it because she’s selfish. But that’s not why she said no, she said no because that white trash bastard told her to. She’s so worthless. I hate weak people in general, but I really hate weak women. There is no excuse for being a weak woman. And yes, I do know it was because of him. I could tell by the sound of her voice. I could also tell by the fact she called back so quickly. I didn’t expect to hear from her again until the next day or the day after. But she felt the need to call right back. That’s because she mentioned it to him (the psycho bastards name is Walt) and he told her no. I immediately knew it was his doing. After all the shit he’s pulled, and the way he called her all the freaking time. Like the last time we were out with Randy (at Red Lobster in fact) she was texting the entire time. She just kept getting text and after text. The same thing every other time. A call at 12:10 in the morning. Then again at 12:25, then another at 1:40. Or a text. The few times she was home her phone was binging with texts all night long. She’s such a fucking idiot for putting up with this. Not just putting up with it, for allowing it. He even got angry when she kept going to the bar where she met him, like she wasn’t allowed to be there anymore now that she was “taken”.

When I told Cynthia she thought the same thing I did, I didn’t even have to say it. The white trash bastard has been asking to meet her too. WTF. She has nothing to do with him. Like when my mom started practically living with him after knowing him for about a month, he kept asking her when he was going to meet me. Cynthia has already said she doesn’t want him in the house, and she’s angry my mom let him know where she lives because she doesn’t trust him because he’s so obsessive. Cynthia also said we could go to Red Lobster with Karen (probably a cousin, this is a big family, lot of cousins). I told her she didn’t have to. Going to Eat n Park with Cynthia is one thing, but Red Lobster is more expensive. But today she said Karen would take us next week. At least Cynthia is nice to me. I doubt if Pap Pap gave me money, and even if he did my mom possibly took it, despite when she first said the card came she kept repeating that she didn’t open it (meaning she did?). But I’ll try to take some money with me, because I definitely want their Chocolate Wave cake. The best chocolate cake I’ve ever had. It’s warm, gooey, and very, very, chocolatey. But after the entree I’d feel even worse asking her to buy me desert too.

Luckily my cat is doing better because I don’t want to send her back down there. She didn’t go to the bathroom or drink any water for over 30 hours. Then finally she did use the litter box, and drank a little bit of water. She’s gone to the bathroom twice since then, but I still haven’t seen her drink any more water. I’m just going to have to keep pointing it out to her. She’s under the bed right now. It’s so freaking hot today. 91 with 59% humidity, and 75 dew point. I feel like I’m in a rain forest.

Oh, and I saw a planet early this morning, around 1-2 AM. I tried to find out what it was, but there are 4 visible ones right now, and there’s no way for me to tell which is which. It was the only thing I saw in the sky, and it was very bright.

Maybe it Was McGonagall

Mmm, food. I’m still only eating once a day. I said I would and I am, even though I’m half forcing myself to do it. After I went to Cynthia’s my mood stabilized for a little bit. The last blog, Epic Troll, shows that best. Then my mom called again (she was going to the store) and just hearing from her sent me spiraling again. She called again yesterday, Cynthia said because she wanted to know how I was since I hadn’t called her. So I asked why she didn’t call, and she said it was because I didn’t call her. Then she had the audacity to call me stubborn. When someone runs you our of their home, it kind of makes it seem like you don’t want to talk to them. If she wondered how I was (which I doubt she did) her phone works. We didn’t talk much, but she wondered if Kribel’s (a bakery) took food stamps. At first I didn’t know why she was talking about getting a cake, it took me a little while to realize my birthday is now three days away. She offered to try to bake a cake, but she doesn’t have any cake pans or a spatula so I don’t know if she will. She also still does not have a job. She says no one will hire her because she’s too old, but she’s not even 50 yet. I don’t think she’s really trying. Also, our disability hasn’t gone through, so she hasn’t paid the rest of the rent. She says she’s going to drop the internet for now, and later on we’ll switch to Verizon, which I think is stupid, stupid, stupid. I don’t like Comcast, but I’m used to it and know what to expect. I have On Demand, I have the channels I want, and the caller ID comes up on the TV screen. I also saw their packages, and until Comcast Current TV, Sundance, IFC, and other channels aren’t included. I saw my mom briefly yesterday when I took Cynthia’s money down to her so she could stop at McD instead of us going. It was so hot, and when I said Cynthia and I were planning on going down later, she offered to do something nice and go get it herself. When I went down I also took the opportunity to get my cat. My mom said Allie had been very depressed and kept looking for me, and I’d been wanting to get her anyway so I did. I don’t know if I’ll be able to keep her up here though. The heat isn’t bad right now, but she hasn’t drunk any water or used the litter box since she got here, and Allie is a big water drinker. She gave the water one tentative lick, and stepped into the litter for the first time an hour ago, but she immediately got out. If she doesn’t get used to it soon I’ll have to take her back.

Yesterday my mom said she was going to try to get to the store today. She never went to the store this much when it was just me down there. If she goes today it’ll be the third time this month, and she’s gotten me a total of 3 TV dinners. One the first time, and two the second. Half of those food stamps are technically mine, and I’ll I’ve gotten are three TV dinners when I know they’re eating down there. After the second time she called Cynthia asking if she had a funnel because she was making ice tea, and later called again asking if she had a cheese grater and some pepper! She’s turned into Martha Stewart down there. I don’t remember the last time I ate a real dinner at “home”. I miss crock pot chicken and beef, shake n bake chicken (can you tell I love chicken), mashed potatoes (I love mashed potatoes!), garlic bread, and biscuits! Cynthia’s oven doesn’t work, and she doesn’t have a crock pot, so I can’t have anything like that here. The other day she did make some mashed potatoes though, and I think they were real mashed potatoes, and not flakes from a box. I could tell by the texture and taste. I’d mash them myself if it meant getting more, because they were so good.

The other day my glasses broke. It’s the same thing that happened with my last pair. The joint where the glasses close wore down, and the left temple popped out. With my last glasses, the temple was out and one of the nose pads had fallen off. I’d had them for at least 3 years. This one is around two years old. Cynthia says when it gets cooler she’ll take me to get my blood test done, get my MRI and CT Scan prescriptions from the doctor, and go to the eye doctor, since it’s all covered by my insurance. I’m sure my mother still hasn’t gotten her test done, despite her adamant declarations that she has cancer or something equally bad. I can tell she’s real worried about it.

I don’t know if I’ll watch any anime or read any manga today, but I’ll try. I have seen anything since the 13th when I watched the second episode of Kuroshitsuji. Another chapter of Kuroshitsuji was released, and a surprise release of Aiso Tsukashi, a yaoi I’m following (I do not like the new character, I’m only reading it because of Sawaragi). I have been listening to some BL dramas, Junjou Romantica mostly. Can’t understand most of what they’re saying, but I’ve read the manga and seen the anime so I know what’s happening. I’ve also been reading Japanese Code Geass fan fics in Chrome, with my very poor Google translation. Oh, it says the funniest things. The translations are really ridiculous, but there’s so much Shunaruru (what they call the Schneizel/Lelouch pairing) out there. I was also on the site Pivix, and apparently Clovis’s birthday is October 14? There were quite a few fan arts wishing Clovis a happy birthday for October 14.

I’ve also started switching over my old fanlisting site Among the Stars (x.lisabee.org) to my new one at boysloveboys.org, my BL domain. I really like the way the layout turned out. It features Akira and Shirogane from Monochrome Factor. Eventually when I’m done with this and have recovered, I’ll move all my anime fanlistings to their new domain Zangetsuki.org, except of course the ones that have their own domain like Code Geass. Usami Haruhiko (Junjou Romantica) and Kuba Homare (Okane ga Nai) will be on boysloveboys.org, since their both yaoi.

Besides listening to BL dramas, and reading Schneizel x Lelouch fan fic, I’ve been watching Dragnet. Pittsburgh has a station called RTV which plays a lot of old shows. Dragnet, Adam-12, Incredible Hulk, Kojak, and late at night Alfred Hitchcock Presents. Dragnet is very cheesy (they all are). The writings bad, the actings bad, and it’s like a long PSA. But I like it, mainly because I like Friday. I like his voice, and he usually remains polite and calm even when dealing with jerks.

Now, as for the title of the post, a strange thing happened the other night. I heard a cat meowing outside. I looked outside and one cat was sitting across the street, I think it is that persons (the one directly across the street from us) since it looked like a big cat, and she has a Maine Coon like Tiger. I went downstairs and Tiger was sniffing at the door (he does not like other cats). I looked outside, wondering if it went on the porch, and there was a cat there, a different one. The other cat was gone. It was just sitting there. It saw me looking and looked directly at me and meowed again. Then it jumped off the porch and walked across and up the street. It might belong to that woman too, she has several cats and she always lets them out when she’s home (it’s stupid and irresponsible to let a cat out anytime). I don’t know what it wanted.

I almost completely forgot! Every Avatar TLA fan should know by now about the new mini/series. Legend of Korra. I’d been hearing about Korra for a while now, but I didn’t think any info on it would come out until the panel at Comic-Con. Too bad it’s not coming out until 2011.

I Hate Holidays, and This is Why

Well, it’s Easter, and like every holiday I am spending it alone. My mom went over to my aunt Cyndy’s and will bring home some lamb later. I was supposed to go with her, but then Cyndy invited at least a couple more people when it was originally supposed to be just the three of us plus my grandfather. Spending an awkward dinner with family is bad enough, there was no way I was going with strangers there. My mother wasn’t happy about that, since this was her idea. She said if Cyndy would cook dinner for Easter she would clean up Cyndy’s place for it and buy the lamb. We can’t cook here because #1 we don’t have a car, and there’s no store nearby to buy anything at, and #2 and there’s no water to cook or wash dishes. For almost a year we’ve had barely any water. First less started coming out of the bathroom sink until there was nothing, then water stopped coming out of the kitchen sink too, and now there’s only a trickle coming out of the tub. All because the landlord put in a bathroom in the cellar and whoever did it didn’t know what they were doing. My mom bought a small lamb since it was just supposed to be us, and Cyndy ended up also buying ham (we hate ham). So there’s not a whole lot of the lamb, which is the only thing we’d be eating, to go around. She said that as soon as the lamb got out she’d make a plate for me before anyone else got at it. But then after 9 in the morning Cyndy called and said she’d just put the ham in, and she was going to do the lamb next. The ham was going to be done no later than 1, and I don’t know how long lamb cooks, but it can’t be too much long, especially since it was small. My mom asked if she had called anyone else, and she said no, and then my mom asked when she’d told everyone to be there and Cyndy said 4, but it didn’t matter since the ham could be eaten cold. When Cyndy cooks dinner it’s always usually late, so this was a big surprise, and also not a very smart or polite thing to do. Ham can be eaten cold, but lamb can’t. Dinner will be ready at 1 but no one will be there to 4! And even if she called and told them, it’s rude to invite someone and say one time, then call day of and say “we’re eating 4 hours earlier, so get your ass over here now!”

I’ve been online most of the day. There’s usually holiday events on adoptables sites Two I’m a part of that are doing it are Egg Cave and Dragon Cave. They’re both doing egg hunts, and Drag Cave’s continues through tomorrow. On Egg Cave you get an Easter only egg, and on Dragon Cave I’m not sure what you get, if anything. I finished the Egg Cave event with help, but I’m still doing the Dragon Cave one. There’s over 38 eggs to collect, and they only show up about ever 12 minutes. I’ve got 25 so far (5 more than when I started writing). I also managed to get a Mod Mayhem egg “This egg radiates the heat of a fell flame.” I can’t tell you how many others I missed though.

Who knows when my mom will get home tonight. There’s a good chance she’ll be drunk. Not including Monday, and today of course, my mom was out drinking every day last week. Getting home between 9 PM and 2:45 AM. I was already having trouble sleeping, but whenever she stays out late I also have to stay up to let her in if she comes home.

I also hate spring. It starts getting hot, there’s allergies, and then the bugs. Oh the bugs!!! All I’ve been doing recently is beating buggy brains out. There are some good things too. The animals and the plants (even though the latter cause me pain). There’s a beautiful pear tree in a neighbors yard a few doors down, and you can see it from our kitchen window. It’s wonderful when it blooms in spring, even though it doesn’t last long, though it’s still pretty after when it turns green. It finally bloomed a couple days ago, but it’s been so hot and windy that almost all its flowers are gone now. There’s been record high temps here the past couple days. It went from being in the 40-60’s to being in the 80’s. My poor Allie cat is in the window right now. She’s been sneezing like crazy for the past week. She either got my mom’s cold, or it’s her kitty letter. Her kitty litter is horrible. It’s one of those perfumey, dusty kinds that go everywhere and and get in everything. It coats Allie’s fur so when you pet her your hands smell like it. We can’t stand to be around it, and if it’s that hard for us to breathe it it must be 10x worse for her since she actually has to be in it. She seems a little better today, but before then she was mostly just laying around since she didn’t feel well. She came over and sat with me for a while when I was typing this, but she just left.