(8/25 edit Because I’m having trouble editing Psycho Patrol I’ve split it into two posts, here’s the second)

Got on long enough to check my email and found out Egg Cave has released a couple new eggs to celebrate their birthday. Why is every site I’m on having events right now?

When I was going to add this I saw this I saw a post of mine titled “Go Away Winter”… COME BACK WINTER!

7/22

Now some dark brown liquid has come out from under the fridge, and it’s definitely from under not in. Do your best not to break fridge.

Finally getting to update this

I just found that Subeta OF COURSE having an event right now.

Today wasn’t supposed to be as bad as yesterday, according to the stupid weatherman. You would have the same amount of luck trying to predict the weather with a magic 8 ball. It was worse than yesterday. I only got a few hours sleep today, and not quality sleep. I hovered somewhere in between being asleep and being awake, where nothing makes sense and everything is so confusing. It’s been raining so it’s actually nice out right now when there’s a breeze, but none of that is coming inside.

I think the liquid from the fridge came from the tray that’s supposed to keep the ice that melts. It’s been so hot that the tray overfilled. There was a lot of it, and much of it is still under and behind the fridge. I told Cynthia before she went out today with her niece Naomi, and when she came back she told me she bought a fridge. Sears resells fridges and other appliances that are sent back because of scratches and dents, so she managed to get a fairly new fridge for only $300. This fridge only has the last the weekend. I’m looking forward to saying good riddance to this fridge, and it’s horrible exposed coils.

I’ve been without internet for 10 days so far (this time).

Internet… work on July 31 so I can try to be one of the first to get into Pottermore!

7/23

Already I can feel tonight is cooler than the previous two nights, thank God.

Cynthia said yesterday she might get me a cake from Kribel’s. Even if she doesn’t, it’s really the thought that counts for me. I was happy that she even thought of doing it.

7/24

I have more to say about what happened yesterday, but I can’t type it right now. I just want to say I got see the A:LOK (I will NOT call it TLA:LOK) trailer and other Korra related stuff from SDCC and… Mako is a hottie! Cute, brooding, older, AND fire bender? Rawr. He better have a good voice actor too.

Well I can write what I wanted to now. I hadn’t planned on it because I wanted to continue watching Code Geass. For once I want my alarm to go downstairs and check for me, because if he goes down there I’ll know all is well. No matter what it bothers me that she did this. She is so naïve and acts like this is a fortress! So it’s up to me at all times, not just in instances like this, to make sure everything is locked up and is secure as it can be. There’s more but I can’t say them on here, even if the post is private. Yes! Tiger did go down though not to the area of the cellar I wanted him to, but it’s good enough.

I haven’t really slept the past couple days. One day it was unbearably hot, and yesterday my mom called for me to come down there. She had finally gone over there to start getting her stuff together. She has to be out in two weeks. She says she’s going to sell most of it because she can’t afford to pay movers or put it in storage. My stuff is all on the chopping block as well, and I can’t bring much more here or Cynthia will flip. She’s been storing stuff for my mom since I was a little kid and wants it out of her basement.

Yesterday I only took a few things with me because I couldn’t carry anymore and it’s so freaking hot. That hill is horrible enough normally, going up that hill when I already feel like my lungs are being crushed? I mostly took Nanny’s things that we raided from her house a few years ago, and some of my most important stuffed animals. My poor stuffed animals that because of my moms negligence have bald spots due to moths eating them! They were in what used to be my moms room then I took it over when she wasn’t there much, and when I left she started dumping everything she couldn’t find room for elsewhere. And then the moths took over.

I am not going down there today, not happening. I want to sleep, I so desperately want to sleep. But I found out a lot while I was down there. First and foremost that SHE IS TALKING TO Wdisney AGAIN! She is talking to him so much that when Randy bought her 200 minutes for her phone she ran out because Wdisney kept calling her! And she answered! And she told him who she was with! WTF is wrong with her?! Of course Wdisney doesn’t want her staying at Randy’s, her told her to ask her friend Tina if she could stay there. Tina… who’s a cop… I understand why he doesn’t want her at Randy’s but what’s his reasoning in sending her to a cop house? Well, either my mom didn’t ask or Tina didn’t want her. And on the subject of cops, Walt told her the cops treated him worse than everyone else and he couldn’t understand why. They even let him out at 2:30 in the morning downtown when he had no money to call anyone and nowhere to go. I won’t say here her theory as to why. Today when she asked if he wanted to come over, and mentioned she had beer, he said he didn’t want it because “Lurch”, his nickname for Randy, brought it. My mom has decided against Texas, and is now talking about going to Maryland if she can find anyone to put her up for a while, and of course Walt is against that was well. “You’re not going to Maryland without me!” he said. She’s pissing me off so much. She started talking to him again, actually SAW him (at he cried on her shoulder), and got money off him for 200 more minutes. And she has no problems with pissing him off, when if he went after anyone he would come here because he doesn’t know where Randy lives, and probably couldn’t get there if he did. But he knows where we live.

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Since she needed to buy more minutes for her phone we walked to Brookline. It’s a pretty short walk, but the majority of it is up a very steep hill. And me + hill + HEAT do not mix. But the return trip was much easier.

My mom even offered to get me a cake from Kribels! I told her to ask Cynthia, who told her she was going to order the cake herself. My mom still said she’d pay for it and pick it up because she has a lot of food stamps left. I still didn’t know who was going to order it, but when I got back Cynthia said she had already done it. I tried to call my mom and tell her not to order it herself, but she had turned her phone off so she wouldn’t get any calls from Wdisney (just not answer?)

Randy offered to take me to Red Lobster on my birthday. I’d asked my mom about it last year and she said she’d think about it, then called back immediately crying and saying she couldn’t go out with another man. My mother has agreed to go this time, but we’ll see if she follows through. So on Monday she’s supposed to go apply for welfare first, then pick up my cake, and then go out to Red Lobster. And for some reason she also told Walt what she was doing! So then he complained about her going to Red Lobster with Randy.

If it does happen hopefully my crab linguini alfredo will be there. I wrote about it last birthday, the disappointment of losing one of my favorite dishes. But Cynthia always asked me if they’d brought it back, and a few months ago I checked and it was on their menu online again. We’ll see if it’s still there. At least Chocolate Wave cake is there. Assuming they haven’t got rid of that as well. I’d say “that has to be a favorite, they wouldn’t get rid of that”, but crab linguini alfredo was supposed to be a “traditional favorite” and they got rid of that so… Also, I hope Red Lobster isn’t a singing restaurant. Or that at least my mom won’t say anything! A while ago, when we were still in Arizona she told the waitress/waiter at Claim Jumpers that it was my birthday (it wasn’t) and they sang to me. The only reason she survived that was because there were witnesses. My mom still cackles about it to this day.

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Every day the weathermen say that the next day is going to be cooler, that the temperatures are going down. They’ve done this for at least the past 4. And the temperature has been the same every single freaking day. This is why I call them overpaid psychics. They have never any clue what they’re talking about. I’ve never sweated so much before. It’s like I’m being rained on, and I’m always soaked. And thanks to this cat fur, dirt, and everything else that touches is sticking to me! It’s impossible to get clean! Anyone who ever complains about the cold again deserves… I won’t say since I don’t want to be smited… uh, Open Office says that isn’t a word… and it doesn’t give anything but smite and smites. Too bad, it’s smited now.

7/26

I’m officially old now. 21. It actually wasn’t that bad of a birthday, not as bad as last year, and not as bad as I was expecting. I got three cards from Cynthia, Cyndy, and my other great aunt, Nita. My grandfather has either forgotten my birthday or the card is late. I don’t expect money from him like the others, but considering he sends cards to Naomi and Kay (my cousins probably?) it’s kind of insulting, and this wouldn’t be the first year he’s forgotten since he started sending birthday cards to all these other people. Bonnie doesn’t send cards anymore, I think she’s still angry with me over my losing my temper with her when she was staying with us after the house burned down. I got $150, plus three scratch cards that I haven’t checked yet. $100 of it has to go on a Visa gift card, and the $50 is going to my internet fund.

My mother didn’t change her mind about Red Lobster, so at 2 PM Randy picked us up and we went over his place, because he always stops at home after work to take a shower. I love Randy’s townhouse, and the air conditioning~ it was lovely. Then my mom wanted me to make flyers for her sale this saturday. Randy got a new computer, which my mom said he spent a lot of money on. I think it was a waste. It has a pretty good monitor, but not only is it a Gateway, it only has a 500 GB hard drive and the other specs were low too. 500 GB is what laptops come with now, so I think it’s a waste. Also, he uses internet explorer (with lots of toolbars), instead of a more secure browser like firefox or chrome with adblock, so it’s probably going to be riddled with viruses and errors soon. But his internet, so freaking fast! I had to download Open Office to make the flyers, since he didn’t have Microsoft Office. It was a fairly large file and it downloaded at 1.5MB! He has Verizon, but he also had something hooked up to it, which was about the size of a flash drive, possibly another wireless router? Verizon comes with wireless, but I don’t know if they give you one of those things. I saw Verizon’s router in the garage with its box.

It took a while because we were having trouble with the printer, but we finally got to Red Lobster. Since I had access to the internet I checked the menu on their website beforehand and was happy to see they still listed crab linguini alfredo, but I didn’t know if they really had it. They did! No flounder of betrayal this year! I thought I was never going to eat it again! I was good and only ate one cheddar bay biscuit so I could eat it and my chocolate wave cake. I teased my mom because I twirl paste perfectly while she has to use a spoon and still messes it up. It’s a completely worthless talent but I enjoy it. My mom had crab and struggled with it. She threatened to, but she didn’t tell them it was my birthday. I still had to hear the staff singing though. It was the birthday of one of the people behind us, and someone further down the restaurant. My mom did slip up and mention my birthday once, but the waitress didn’t hear her.

When we got back to Randy’s I called Cyndy and asked her about getting internet. She agreed to it, but I don’t know if she’ll remember it. Hopefully she will so I don’t have to go through that again. Then my mom made me talk to Laura. Many people joked about me drinking that day, and Laura was no different.

My mom isn’t going to be living in Maryland, since she couldn’t find anyone to take her in. Laura wouldn’t, her parents have Whitney, Laura’s daughter, Whitney’s two kids, and one of Whitney’s friends living with them, and my godfather has his niece with him. But we may still get to Maryland. Cyndy can’t go because she’s going to California in September to see my uncle. But Randy’s got a vacation coming up in late August so maybe then. And that’s a big maybe. Despite having nowhere to go she still doesn’t want to stay with Randy. She’s an idiot. He has a nice place, good cable, internet, AIR CONDITIONING, it’s a nice area. She should be glad someone wants to take care of her.

7/28

I don’t know when I’ll be able to get it online, but I finally made a layout for my Subeta profile. It features Schneizel of course, since my username is Schneizel on there.

I’m trying to do as much of the Subeta plot as I can, but it’s difficult because I can only access the internet for a few minutes at a time, then

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7/30

I talked to Cyndy today. She was offering to take me out somewhere today or next Saturday. I told her I didn’t feel right asking her to take me out when I’ve asked her to pay for my internet. She said it doesn’t matter, that taking me out is something she wants to do, that she already said she’d pay for internet, and that I deserve it. It’s a nice sentiment but she doesn’t know how much it’ll cost.

When Randy took us to Red Lobster for my birthday we drove by a Verizon store. On the side of their building was a sign that said “rule the air”. At least they’re honest about their intentions.

I think I’ve forgotten how to sleep.

8/10

I haven’t written anything in a little over a week. It might seem longer than that here, since I chose not to post some of it. I actually had the chance to get internet installed tomorrow. Cynthia said yes, Cyndy agreed to pay for it and Comcast. They were supposed to install it tomorrow, but I had to tell her to hold off for now because I’m working on something else. The “something else” that I mentioned on Twitter as well, is one of the things I decided not to post here. As soon as my mother and Wdisney ran into trouble and she got the eviction notice she’s been staying with Randy who wants her to live with him. My mother talked to me about it the first time I went down there but I didn’t take her seriously and didn’t even think about it because I know she doesn’t want to. [removed] I started seriously thinking about it the end of last month, it’s something I’ve decided to push for, and have been praying quite fervently about (something else I left out, this all has made me if nothing else a God fearing Christian).

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But I’m still waiting for my stupid mom to make up her mind. It could really go either way. She’s still talking to Wdisney, he even stayed over the weekend there and when I talked to her on Monday she said she had bruises on her from arguing with him despite thinking that “he wouldn’t do anything since he’d go to jail again.” Idiot. He’s saving up money right now for them to get an apartment together. [removed] SHE BETTER NOT GET US INVOLVED IN HER TROUBLES. She needs to think more about how the consequences of her actions affect other people. I feel like I’ve said that before. Since I’ve been thinking about this for over a week now my opinion on it has been getting stronger and stronger that now if my mother decides not to live with Randy I will be furious. To the point where I may never talk to her again. Everyone is telling her this is the best option. To do the smart thing. Even one of her friends said to follow her head and not her heart (because she’s just luuubbs the psycho Wdisney). When I talked to her on Monday she was still thinking about it, today when I called her she didn’t mention it at all because [removed] He was supposed to bring boxes after work and he hadn’t shown up yet. [removed] She’s supposed to be out of there tomorrow, but she said she’s not leaving until the weekend. I expect (doesn’t mean I’ll get it) an answer within the next week and I want it to be in the positive. It better freaking be in the positive. I tried not to get my hopes up, but when I see a chance to get something I want I take it. [removed]

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Pittsburgh is being called Batburgh now, since The Dark Knight Rises is filming here. Very exciting. I had wanted to be on of the extras at Heinz Field but I’m glad I didn’t try since they were filming a winter scene and everyone had to wear coats. It had to have been awful, I wouldn’t have survived. Though some extras (I don’t think those ones) got Gotham Rogue t-shirts… so lucky. Cyndy took me out on Saturday and while driving through South Side I saw one of the shirts displayed in a businesses window. And our wonderful Steelers got to play the Gotham Rogue’s themselves! Their team colors? Our team colors! And while they couldn’t use Terrible Towels since they have the Steelers logo on it, apparently they gave them gold handkerchiefs to wave around. Eeeeeeeehehehe. Movies have filmed here before, but nothing like this, we’re Gotham freaking City and the Steelers are Gotham’s football team. Even if this ends up being the last movie like Nolan says, what a way to go, with our Pittsburgh pride on display! Fuck the Patriots! The redneck Cowboys! Did YOU get to be in Batman? NO? Your fans didn’t get to be in Batman? NO? Of course not! Who would want to see you in a movie. I’m not even going to bother question marking that.

I just looked and I haven’t updated this since the 24th, wow.

Oh, yes, the patrol has ended now. He’s not living near here and they’re still talking so it’s doubtful he’ll show up. Unfortunately my nerves have been destroyed by this and I feel sick all the time so I’m still not sleeping. My mother complained today about how sick she feels from anxiety. I told her the same thing on Monday, and now all of a sudden she’s sick too. Hmm. It wouldn’t be the first time she’s appropriated a health problem of mine.

And edited version of this post will be made public when I have internet access again.

I did end up getting my Schneizel profile layout online. I like the way it turned out, though I’m not sure about the link color, it might be too bright for the background. I named all the headers after Code Geass things like Avalon, Pendragon, In Vogue, and the pets section is called Kanon ^^ I even managed to nicely fit three columns in.

I managed to participate well enough in the plot. I do need to train my battling pet more though. Etedot is only at level 63 with other stats at 150-60, not in the thousands she needs to be to fight against big baddies like the Temple Guardian.

I watched Linda Linda Linda the other day, it has been on my Netflix list for years, but I bumped it up because I knew it had the song Linda Linda in it. I was expecting that one, but I was surprised to hear Izaya’s cover song too. And it is the word rat in Linda Linda, I wasn’t sure if I was hearing it right. Strange song but so much fun. Movie was boring though, I rather watch K-ON.

8/18

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I’m going to have a lot to apologize for tonight when I pray. (That was about my above rant, which has been removed)

My site was down yesterday for about 24 hours and I’ve lost some ad spots because of it, and I can’t place new ones because the stupid ad site has messed with their coding and adding links doesn’t work now.

At least I’m getting on enough to participate in two more events sites I’m on are having. I also joined World of Umbria which has some nice adoptables.

My year anniversary at VDex Project on July 29th. VDex is one of the sites that’s having an event right now (another event, and two more in the coming weeks). And my 1 year Subeta anniversary is on September 11. ily Subeta. While thinking about my wonderful new Schneizel profile layout there I realize… I spent all my good layout making luck on my Subeta profile, when my Schneizel fanlisting still needs a good layout. Schneizel has been very difficult in layout making, so I can’t see myself making another good Schneizel layout, so I may just use the same one at the Schneizel fl. Oh hey I got a trophy from the plot… a Bronze Steele Plot Trophy probably the lowest one you can get… but still a trophy! I just found out on Subeta that their rival stupid Neopets had a plot. Krawk Island maybe? I just plan on logging in there enough to keep my accounts I am done with Neopets. I have Subeta now, it’s much more fun and easier. I can’t wait to get internet back so I can do my quests again. I made it up to 30 million sP before weakness took over and I spent it all. Now I need more sP to spend!

8/19

I called my mom today. I tried to set myself up to be disappointed, and I was, but not in the way I expected to be. After getting up the courage to ask her if she’d made up her mind she said “Oh, that. Yes, but there’s a problem.” Randy (from now on referred to as Brigham Young) has been talking to some woman (forever after this referred to as [removed]) he met on a cruise, and she has decided to move here to live with him. So for now my mother is staying there, and [removed] will be as well. Because she waited around too long I’ve lost my chance. She could make him change his mind about it if she was so inclined, but of course she doesn’t care about this like I do. It was devastating and something I was completely unprepared for. I’ll call Cyndy about the internet tomorrow. I don’t want to talk anymore about it.

8/20

My [removed] mother called at 6:21 and when I got to the phone she said she’d call back in 10 minutes. It’s 7:19 now. Why did she even bother to call? She was drunk too.

8/22

My mom called today and said she and Randy hooked up (her words, not mine) and that he’s supposed to call that lady (I’ll be nice for now) and tell her not to come, but he doesn’t want to (so I’ll still be calling him Brigham Young under the circumstances) so she still may end up coming. So I’m not going to get my hopes up again. Still, I’m one step closer.

Today is Pap Pap’s birthday, my grandfather is 90 now. My mom said it is also Nita’s birthday, Pap Pap’s sister in law. If I’d known I would have sent her a card, she’s been very good to me sending money for the holidays.

8/23

My poor baby! She got the handle of a cloth bag (filled with heavy things) stuck around her abdomen. I was so scared that I would hurt her or that I wouldn’t be able to get it off and she would die. I thought of cutting it but it was too digging into her too much. I did end up getting the bag off her, but I yelled at her a lot. [removed]

I only just realized I could have taken everything out of the bag. I’m not good in a crisis. Allie seems to be better. While she still isn’t talking as much as she usually does she meowed when I got up, and meowed a couple times when I came up here after eating. She’s laying on my foot right now.

There was an earthquake, but I was asleep so I missed it. I called my mom to ask if she’d felt it, but she didn’t answer at Randy’s or on her cell phone.

8/25

Allie’s definitely got her meow back. Cynthia went out with Karen today, and brought KFC home. When I went down to eat Allie was mrowing her head off. MROW MROW MROW

I can stop calling Randy Brigham Young now, post is coming.

Google why? Gmail messed up the formatting on my email signature, so I had to edit it again for both my email accounts, and Google cleared my Google+ about page and I had to do it again. Adding all those links twice was not fun Google.