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Posted by Megan on August 18th, 2010
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In less than 12 hours I’m going to get blood work. Not looking forward to it exactly, but I’m glad it’s finally getting done. After this I’ll have to go to the doctor and get the papers to have an MRI and CT Scan. My mom called on Sunday and asked if I wanted to go to Eat n Park on Monday using the rest of the gift card she had. I could tell she was drunk (as always), and didn’t think she’d actually end up doing it, but I agreed. Monday came and of course she called and said she couldn’t go. The landlord said he might come fix the water and she had to be there for it. Ridiculous. If she doesn’t want to follow through with something, why ask? Not only could the landlord let himself in, but that bum she’s living with doesn’t work. Let him make himself useful. There was no reason for her to stay. So Cynthia took me out today to McDonalds. I thought she would. She usually does after my mom changes her mind. I was hoping to get up to CVS and see if they had Neocash cards, but that’ll have to wait until Cynthia takes me again. My mom said she’s been working a lot recently, and once she starts getting money I can have my disability for myself. BS! It runs out in November, and she’s only working part time! If, by some miracle, I do get it before then I’d like to get a camera. I toyed with the idea of getting one with my b-day money, but I only got $125 (counting the $25 my mom took). I looked on Ebay and found some cheap ones, but it’s too risky, and not the buying on Ebay part. I did have a really cheap digital camera before and it was crap. It barely worked and the pictures it took were horrible quality. Then earlier this year I found that the batteries had basically disintegrated inside it and I had to throw it away. So I can’t risk spending up to $125 of the only money I have only something that could turn out to be worthless. I could get a decent one for $200 though, so I’m hoping my mom will come through this once so I can get one. I’ve wanted one for years, I’m really interested in photography as a hobby. I thought See the Monkey Dance was the best Alfred Hitchcock Hour episode I’d ever seen… then I saw An Unlocked Window. Scared the crap out of me. I haven’t seen any anime recently. My headphones broke again, there’s only sound coming out of one ear unless you hold the cord the right way, so I can’t watch anything until I get new ones. This did give me a chance to catch up with the scanlations of Skip Beat! and I found out that two more chapters of Gunslinger Girl were scanlated. I hadn’t read anything “new” from it in about a year, since no one’s really scanlating it. Now if someone could just get out a couple chapters of Junjou Romantica… at least Okane ga Nai is pretty regular right now. Since I’m on a forced break from anime right now I’m going to take this opportunity to get through some more manga. I have a ton of BL on here, and there’s some other manga I want to get ahead in. Since I’m animeless I’ve had to find other things to amuse myself with. One of those things is Neopets, and the other is VDex Project. I dressed up and entered two of my pets in the Style Showdown. The first one didn’t get in, like I knew it wouldn’t, and I’m sure the second one won’t either, but I love customizing on Neopets so this was a lot of fun for me. You can see my two entries after the jump. I love VDex Project. It’s the best adoptables site out there in my opinion. Here’s me and my party looking awesome. ![]() I’ve caught 262 Pokemon, with 224 Pokedex entries. I am this close to getting the Marsh badge. VDex is so much more fun and involving than GPXPlus, which I’ve grown bored with. VDex requires a higher level of dedication and interaction, because it’s freaking hard to catch these Pokemon, and you have to actually go get them, not just sit around the lab and shelter waiting. There needs to be more adoptables sites like this one. In the fanlistings department I have several upcoming, and two recently finished. Code Geass: Charles and Lelouch relationship fanlisting and the fl for British comedy My Family are online. A word of caution for anyone trying to view, the last one won’t display right in all resolutions, I am still working on that little bugger. On TFL I got a most awesome approval, English actress Natalie Dormer, best known for playing Anne Boleyn on Showtime’s The Tudors (which she was awesome in). The fanlisting has been designed and I just have to code it and get it online. At TAFL my upcomings are series Ghost Hound and Mitsudomoe the angela song and Seitokai Yakuindomo ED Aoi Haru (the best thing about that stupid series), and the Mitsudomoe character Marui Hitoha. |
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Posted by Megan on July 23rd, 2010
Filed under: General
She managed to upset me even more yesterday. She mentioned the cake again, and I told her Cynthia said she doesn’t have any cake pans. She said maybe she could find someone else to borrow from. Then I said there was something else she could do for me instead, if she wanted to. The only reason I brought it up, or even thought of it, was because she suggested it a couple weeks ago. So I asked if she would ask Randy to take us to Red Lobster for my birthday. I knew she wouldn’t be happy about it, even though she’s the one that mentioned it first. She probably doesn’t even remember it because she says a lot of shit she never intends to follow through with. She said she’d think about it, and I was sure the answer would be no. Not more than an hour later she called back she said there was no way. I just said fine, and that seemed to piss her off for some reason. She said “you don’t understand, he only wants one thing, and I can’t do it” and that we’d go to Eat n Park for breakfast or lunch for my birthday (even if she does intend to follow through, there’s no way I’m going). (more…) Tags: allie, life, mom |
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Posted by Megan on July 22nd, 2010
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Posted by Megan on July 9th, 2010
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My mom started looking for a couple new jobs, and still is, I don’t think she’s been trying very hard. This was a huge, horrible blow. Even at Rite Aid we were living paycheck to paycheck and never had any money. She’ll be taking a big pay cut when she finally does find work. But that’s not the half of it. Instead of seriously looking for a new job (which I don’t think she has) she came up with a new plan, get rid of me and get a roommate. (more…) Tags: depression, doctor, life, mom, rambling |
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Posted by Megan on June 21st, 2010
Filed under: General And living in general. And my mother. No icon this time I just don’t feel like it. Like most days now I went up to Cynthia’s to eat. My mother was here yesterday, don’t know why she came over and stayed the night, but she did, though she barely spoke to me or even saw me. Most of the time she was on the couch watching TV. This morning she made garlic bread and left the pan on the stove. When I got home from Cynthia’s at around 8 I saw it there and decided to move it because I don’t like things on the stove, particularly heavy things. It’s a messed up old stove. Like if you pull down the oven door too quickly or forcefully the whole thing tips forward, and the top part with the oven dials is separating from the bottom part where the burns are, which is why I don’t like things on it to make it any worse. So I moved it and set it down with some other kitchen stuff, near the crock pot. I didn’t see the crock pots heavy glass lid there, and when I put the pan down the lid fell on to the top of my foot. That’s what started all this. I have accidents all the time, every day actually. This isn’t the first time I’ve smashed a body part. I’ve been lucky so far, at least in the past few years and had no serious injuries, but I always worry, especially when I hurt myself. I’m always alone, and even though I do have free health care provided by the state, if something bad happened I probably wouldn’t get any help. The lids edge landed right where the foot ends and the big toe starts. It hurt like hell (still hurts of course) and I was afraid I might have fractured it. When I’m worried there’s really nothing to do but tell someone just to talk, to get reassurance, and to let them know what happened, just so they know. I didn’t call my mom at first, I called Cynthia. (more…) Tags: life, mom, rant, VENTING PEOPLE |
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Posted by Megan on June 16th, 2010
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Posted by Megan on June 8th, 2010
Filed under: General
Because of what’s going on I’ve completely given up for the moment on the Altador Cup. I don’t feel well, and I’m majorly depressed, so it’s really a low priority for me. I don’t have the energy or the motivation to do anything about it right now, or care. Same with anything else. I just don’t care. On top of everything the nail on my left pinky split across on the side a few days ago and I had to take it off. I should have left it on. Now the skin that was underneath it is exposed. It’s not a lot, it’s not halfway down or anything, but it’s still bothering me. I hope it grows in right. I have problems with my big toe because of a nail that didn’t come in right. I’m not getting any vitamins so it’s coming in very slowly. I haven’t seen any progress at all with it since it happened. I don’t know what I’m going to eat today. I was going to go up to my aunt Cynthia’s, but last time I looked the landlord was doing something outside so I might not be able to. I’ll probably just drink the Pepsi she gave me yesterday. Two more days… * Yes, I did say I have some money I wanted to get Code Geass doujinshi with, but it’s only available online, and can only be used certain places online. And any people coming here from ANN I said I don’t support buying anime and manga in America. I fully support buying it directly from Japan. So STFU. Tags: life, mom |
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Posted by Megan on May 17th, 2010
Filed under: General
When we got to the convention center it was packed we didn’t get a parking space anywhere near the place. Inside there were people everywhere. And they’re all so stupid. No one pays attention to what they’re doing. There’s packs of people everywhere trying to walk, and some people are just standing in the middle of the floor chatting, or looking off into the distance instead of where they’re walking, so it was really hard to get anywhere. The first thing we did was eat. We looked around a bit, and then Cyndy got some Haluski from Ukraine stand. Haluski is noodles and cabbage. I didn’t think I would like it because I hate strong or harsh flavored things, and vegetables often are, but it wasn’t bad. The cabbage was very mild tasting. Then I had a pierogi, from either the Poland or Ukraine stand. It’s like a dumpling, a couple different things can be in them, but the one I had was plain, just washed potatoes inside. It was wonderful. I wish I could’ve had more, but I couldn’t ask Cyndy. I wanted to try potato pancakes from the Carpatho-Rusyn, but once again I couldn’t ask Cyndy, in case I didn’t like it. After that I had a couple bites of palacinke from Croatia, and a couple bites of fudge rum biscuit, I don’t know where that was from. I didn’t really like either. Palacinke is like crepe filled with either fruit or a type of cream. It had a strange taste, and the fudge rum biscuit was like eating cookie dough. I also would have like to have known that the cookie was fudge rum beforehand. I know it doesn’t have a lot of rum in it, but I’d prefer to ingest no alcohol at all. We missed many performances in the afternoon, though luckily two of them (India and Philippines) performed again later on. We saw the end of the Slovakian performance, the Ukrainian one, then after an hour long intermission India, Philippines, Vietnam, and Lebanon. China, one that I had wanted to see and missed earlier, was performing again too late, so I never got to see it. Predictably, the Indian one had at least one Bollywood number. Their last dance could have been one as well, or just a generic pop song. The main problem with all the performances is that they lacked style and heart. Everyone was doing the movements of the dance, but not really putting any effort or feeling into it. The Bollywood one was okay, but the girls were young, it probably would have been better with women. The second one had the adults instead of teens and preteens, but it was slower, and had a lot of the typical Indian dance hand movements. Then the men came on, and they were the most energetic of them all. Most of them were really into it. At the end the two groups did like a cheerleader pyramid, but the back group fell down. Philippines was after that, and I was really looking forward to them. We saw them rehearsing earlier on, and they were great. They also did three dances. The first was with those finger things, like in The King and I (I know that’s Thailand), the second was a dance with the way the girls could wear a certain item of clothing (don’t ask me what it was called), and the third was the one we had seen earlier, and I was really looking forward to. They were probably the best out of everyone, and the audience seemed to like it. There were several long sticks being moved around on the floor (said to represent bamboo), with either the girl, then a couple girls, next a guy, and the first girl and the guy moving between them. It was probably called Singkil. I tried to find the best representations of what I saw so they would be here, here, here, and here. It was a small group of young people like the first, but were as talented as the third. Even though there’s more people (there was a single set of “bamboo” sticks), the third one is closest to what I saw. Vietnam was next, and they also did very well. Apparently, it was their first time there too. The music was good, the dancing was good, and there was a little bit of acrobatics. They only did one dance, with three girls and four guys, and the woman said it was about a girl going a temple, a right of passage kind of song. After that Lebanon came on, and they were okay, India was definitely ahead of them. They had a short performance too, and I was surprised when they danced to Shakira’s Eyes Like Yours. I guess it has Arabic in it, but still… There was going to be a 40 minute or so intermission after that, so we got some cookies for Cynthia from somewhere near the Ukraine stand, not sure which country, and Carpatho-Rusyn. Cynthia had given me some money, so I got a few things from the China stand, a small stand thing with a scenery design on it, a cricket made out of ribbon and wire, and a purple lipstick case. I don’t wear lipstick, but it was pretty. I was waiting a while to pay for it though, and had to wait for Cyndy to get there to get their attention. I’m not the most assertive person. Then the woman said the Chinese guy that was there could write something on the back of the stand for me. I didn’t really want to, who knows if they’re really writing what they say they are and not “stupid white person” or something. But I felt forced to. I didn’t want my name, so I chose “joy”. “Hell bitch” would be more appropriate, I’m not the nicest or most joyful person, but I would like to know and not have it done behind my back. I got back after 8 and was dead tired and had a headache from all the loud music. PBS is begging again, and I didn’t think I could stay up for Bloody Reunion on Sundance Channel’s Asia Extreme, so I tried to go to sleep but still couldn’t. Then after 10:30 my mom called. I was in the bathroom the first time, but called back, then it stopped ringing and there was a click. A couple minutes later she called again and I answered it, but she didn’t say anything back. I just heard background noise for about 10 seconds, then there was a click again. A few minutes later she called again and said “llel lelelelu”. When I asked her again she managed to say “let me in”. She hasn’t stayed home in I don’t know how long, and the time she does come home, she’s drunk. I was stressed out again, so I don’t know when I got to sleep. Probably after 1:30 AM. I saw my mom briefly yesterday, and as she was leaving he was calling her again. She works late tonight, so I don’t know if I’ll see her today. As for the title, I hate doing blog titles, but it refers to the fact that there was no Korean stand at the folk fest, or Japanese for that matter. I don’t know why, our Asian population isn’t exactly small. Tags: life, mom, outing |
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