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|Half a Century and No Common Horse Sense|
General on on April 18th, 2012 |
An unfortunately eventful day. I always used to say spring was cursed, because that’s when the most of the bad things in my life happened, then summer replaced that. I wouldn’t quite say it’s up to curse level again yet, but it’s definitely a start. A cousin told Cynthia that my grandfather was in the hospital after falling down. I saw Pap Pap when my mom dragged me to the library near him to do her taxes. He didn’t look too good, even for his age, and he said that he’d been getting dizzy. It seems that’s what happened today. When we tracked down what hospital he’s in my mom spoke to him and his nurses. He’s fine, but they want to keep him overnight for observation. Apparently they’re concerned with some of the answers he’s giving them. One question they asked was “How are you getting your meals?” His reply? “Oh, I get them.” Typical Pap Pap answer, but that makes them think he either hit his head when he fell, or that he’s senile. So they’re going to run some tests on him.
WDisney’s preliminary hearing is tomorrow, and mommy dearest is getting her stitches out then too. I pissed her off several times today when she was complaining once again that she doesn’t know where she’s going to go, and doesn’t know where she’s going to work. She says she looks like Frankenstein’s monster and no one will want to hire her, in addition to the fact she’s old. I can give her advice, but she won’t take it and will only get angry. I know they say not everyone is looking for advice when they’re venting, and they just want to be heard, but she has been heard plenty of times. There are things she could do but she won’t do them. Another reason I made her angry is because she found out today that Nita sent me a card, but not her. She asked me how much money Nita sent me and I prefaced my answer by stating that I wasn’t going to give it to her, so there’s no point in asking. Mommy dearest got angry about that, but with her track record (she took all of the money Nita sent me one year without telling me, which she still owes me for, she took Pap Pap’s money from me one time without telling me, plus many more times). She said it doesn’t matter since only my name is on the card, but that’s never stopped her before. If I was living with her she’d just take the money and never tell me I’d gotten a card.Tags: family, life, mom
|Psycho Patrol Again|
General on on April 13th, 2012 |
As soon as I write that something “interesting” happens. Wdisney is in jail again for beating the shit out of my mother again. Apparently her face is all bruised and she has stitches in her head. I guess the incident happened on Monday or Tuesday. I called her on Monday because I thought the psycho was at work, I don’t bother calling when he’s there because he listens in and won’t stop talking to her while she’s on the phone (like a little kid). She says he’s been crazier than usual since her birthday when she went out with Cyndy, then me, and Bonnie on Friday. My mom was at Cyndy’s on Sunday, but Cyndy wouldn’t let her stay there even though she was going away, so my mom went back home. Now my mom says she’s not going to bother asking Cyndy for any help. I don’t blame Cyndy for not wanting her there, what if he came looking for her? And she’s probably sick of my mom’s drama. I know I am. I delicately tried to remind her that we all told her last summer not to go back with him. But no, she had to pick the crazy, angry, druggie, and not the nice guy. And now Randy has a girlfriend, so that option is out. I will never forgive her for that, and I have zero pity for her. She got herself into this mess and had plenty of outs, but no. “Wdisney is nice, he’s funny, he’s” blah blah blah. Yeah, he’s real nice and funny when he’s not fighting with her or beating her up. No wonder that crackhead can’t get a legitimate job, despite being so talented (oh, he’s a chef, musician, singer, mechanic, handyman). I wonder what his full criminal record looks like. My mom has been thinking about some things, which I can’t post here because this is public. While I doubt that Neanderthal is capable of even turning on a computer letting alone searching for someone, I have to be careful. In any case I don’t think she’ll leave him, it’d be a big surprise if she does.Tags: life, mom
|Bad Lip Reading – Morning Dew|
Entertainment on on January 15th, 2012 |
Another video. I’m going to be posting these ones for a while because they’re awesome. They’re not only funny, they’re surprisingly polished, and often better than the actual songs they’re based on. I can’t get “Beard With Glue” out of my head. And if you haven’t seen them yet, check out Bad Lip Reading’s videos of the Republican candidates. I’m not sure whether they make them look more stupid, or more smart because anything better than that is a step up. Tags: funny, humor, mom, music, online, parody, video, youtube
|She Actually Called Me|
General on on September 14th, 2011 |
My idiot mother just called. I was going to call her because a letter came from storage saying she hasn’t paid yet. I didn’t want to call her because she’s 49 and is old enough to know how to pay her bills. But I know she probably put my SS card in there and I need that. She called me a few minutes later so… Then she started crying and saying she’s so depressed she wants to kill herself blah blah blah It was hard to understand her because she was sniffling. She hasn’t started looking for a job yet because she doesn’t know where she’s going to live. Blah blah blah things will get better she says. And then says she’s saying that for herself too. I know everything is about her. She’s staying at Cyndy’s while she’s in California. And I’m not getting internet until the end of the month or early October because Cyndy’s not coming back until the 23. Then idiot said she had to go because she was crying. Boo freaking hoo.
Why call someone if you’re crying? She just wanted to share how depressed she is. She’s not going to get any sympathy from me. I was going to put this on Twitter. I didn’t want to make a blog post for this because I wanted my status post to stay first, but it was too long. So I pinned the status post to first. When I’m done with everything I’ll put them in the actual order.
Since I had to make a whole post I might as well talk about something else. I started to watch some new shows. Ringer was last night, The Secret Circle tomorrow, then Revenge, and Pan Am. I’m just giving them a try. Ringer has exactly the kind of concept I hate, it’s super awkward, and I get… second hand embarrassment (or something?) from the characters and situations. Whenever I try to a new show I like to stick with it for at least a few episodes (I stuck through an entire series/season of Skins when I wasn’t sure about it!).
I didn’t like Ev’s new song the first time they performed it. I thought it might be because it was live, so I decided to wait until the studio version came out. It took me a bit to get used to the “Do what you what you want” part, which is what I didn’t like about it, but I really like the song now. The video came out yesterday, which I have to say I don’t like, but I so rarely like music videos so that’s nothing out of the ordinary. What You Want is a good start, can’t wait to hear the rest of the album.
I don’t have my icons uploaded yet, so no avatar for this post. I have to go back to fixing my fanlistings. I’m only on the b’s right now…Tags: family, life, mom, music, television
|What’s Going On Part II|
General on on September 3rd, 2011 |
|A Little Late Summer Cleaning|
General on on August 29th, 2011 |
Because spring cleaning never happened. While searching my site for malware the other day, I also did a little maintenance removing all the old and unneeded files from my site. I thought I should do so for my others sites and my computer as well, as it’s long overdue. I ran WP-Optimize on my WordPress and it got the file down to 2 MB, when it had been over 15 MB. That made it much easier it download. I finally updated my WordPress because I haven’t in a very long time (and I don’t like the new look WP, or the font post text box). Next I cleaned up my desktop which was completely covered in files, and changed the wallpaper. It actually wasn’t the one in the sidebar at the bottom of the page, I’ve had several different wallpapers since then.
Then I cleared out a folder on my computer, but that’s all I’m going to take that slowly, because just that one was annoying enough. This is why my computer and domains get so cluttered, but I hate tedious things! After that I ran CCleaner, now I’m running Windows Defender, then after that Malwarebytes scan, and Norton scan. This is going to take forever. But you can never be too careful. I’m also have a lot to do with my browsers too. I finally closed all my Firefox windows (I had about 25 open) and I’ve cut down on my Chrome windows (only 19 open right now!) as well. I’ve also exported my bookmarks to both Delicious and Google, and I’m clear out the ones actually on the computer. I have over 1000, many of them Pinterest pages (I don’t know why I didn’t just re-pin the images I liked, instead of bookmarking hundreds of pages, but I did).
My technology aren’t the only ones getting work done today, my poor Allie cat had to have some maintenance of her own. Her brush just isn’t good enough for her, it’s more suited to short haired cats and can’t get the undercoat, and my senile old lady isn’t cleaning herself as thoroughly as she used to. That means she’s getting lumps. So I gave up on her brush, and tried the fine toothed end of a comb I never used. OMG I didn’t know she had that much fur on her! I don’t know how she has any left after all the brushing I did. Clump after clump of all fur came off her. I’m still not done, and I haven’t gotten any of the matted fur off her yet, because she’s a cat and very disagreeable. She somewhat put up with it for a while because she likes getting brushed, but she didn’t like the comb getting caught on her. And she also doesn’t like to stay in one place while getting brushed, and constantly moves around, making it very difficult. I’ve got many a scratch on me now from trying to make her sit still.
Mommy dearest didn’t call this weekend despite her saying “I can’t go that long without talking to you!!!eleventy” :side: (I just realized I don’t have a sufficient eye roll smiley…) She’s gone weeks without talking to me before, I know she can last a weekend. Maybe she’ll call today. I need to know whether she’s really going through with this or not, because there are things I’d have to do before moving, like having my last baby tooth pulled. :hick:Tags: allie, Internet, life, mom, online, technology, wordpress
|And Irene Is My Mother’s Middle Name|
General on on August 27th, 2011 |
I didn’t find out about Hurricane Irene’s path until yesterday. I knew there was a hurricane coming, but I just thought hurricane + August = normal. I know it was headed to the eastern coast until yesterday. It’s a good thing my plan to go to Maryland didn’t come to fruition. Randy has vacation time right now, and my mom and I had wanted to go to Ocean City. Randy didn’t want to, and they went somewhere in PA instead. Thank God for that! My father’s side of the family lives in Maryland, so I got on Facebook for the first time in a while yesterday to see what was going on there. The hurricane isn’t affecting us much here, we’re just getting clouds from it, and it’s a little windy. Central and western PA are getting some storms and rain. (more…)Tags: Internet, life, mom, online, weather, websites
|Here’s What’s Going On|
General on on August 25th, 2011 |
I’m doing this is a little earlier than I said I would, but the Psycho Patrol post is now public, with some parts removed. Edit: I am trying to edit the post and make it public but the stupid thing won’t save, it keeps timing out. Edit again: Okay, I just tried to post this, and it’s either my host or somethings wrong with WordPress because this won’t post either. Last Edit: Finally I got all of that updated. Took an hour to do it.
My mom called today and I asked her about that woman and she said that lady is definitely not coming now, and I can move in to Randy’s place in a week or so. First she has to clean up the “blue room” (called so because Randy painted it blue) for me. In terms of bedroom space I am actually downgrading, the blue room is half the size of Cynthia’s smallest bedroom, but Cynthia’s is an actual house and Randy owns a townhouse. As I said in the Psycho Patrol post it’s in a very lovely area, there’s air conditioning, Dish Network, internet, and lot’s of room for Allie to run around.
I’ve wanted Randy’s place since I stayed there for a week or so around my 16th birthday. While I fantasized about it many times I never thought I’d actually get to live there (of course when I imagined it the place was mine alone). This is actually the second time I (if I actually do, this all depends on my mother who is notoriously unreliable) have gotten to live in a place I’ve imagined living in, though in a different way. For a couple I had imagined living in the apartment I lived in when I was 5, before we moved to Arizona for the first time. And when I was 17 I got to move in to that house, though it was in the apartment downstairs. It ended up being horrible, and I after Wdisney moved in I moved back in with my great aunt Cynthia. I’m hoping this turns out much better.
Edit: I said I wouldn’t edit again, but I have to because I completely forgot: Mommy dearest has come up in the world since being with Randy. Randy has vacation time this week, so they’re going away for the weekend. I won’t say where since this isn’t private. Oh, and she got a kick out of me calling him Brigham Young. She said “I don’t do that”. I was like “what, a couple more women and you could have your own TV show!” :biggrin:
Randy has Verizon internet but even if I do move in there in a week I don’t have how long it’ll take me to get online with my computer because he may not know the code for the wireless, and I don’t know how well the wireless will work. It’s a townhouse, three floors, with the wireless router on the bottom floor. My computer will be on the third floor, and while it is a laptop I can’t move it around because it’s plug is messed up so I can’t be continuously plugging it in and unplugging it. So, once again I am saying… I’ll hopefully have internet in the next couple weeks. *sobbing* The state of the internet at the moment? I’ve gotten past Comcast’s blockade, but it’s still so I have to stay in a certain position for the internet to (sort of) work. It very temperamental and the slightest change can make it stop working, and it gets painful after a while.
I’ve set Netflix to streaming only for now, since the price for streaming and renting is going up. I hope they don’t erase my DVD queue because I’m going to switch it back after I put a dent in my streaming list. They didn’t when I put my account on hold, so they better not now. I have made a backup list in case they do though. I was very dismayed to find the animated Batman series aren’t streaming! I decided I wanted to start one since I’m such a big Dark Knight fan, Christopher Nolan’s third Batman movie was filming here, AND he said it’s the last one… I found that really disappointing, I wanted to seem more villains.
When I get stable internet back, besides watching Netflix, anime, and reading manga I have to update my Best Adoptables list. I’m a member of new adoptables sites now (some with really great sprites like World of Umbria), and my opinion has changed in different ways, some better some worse. Kingdom of Knuffel – much better. Magistream – much worse, stay away from this site! Some are the same, Subeta is still awesome, and so is VDex Project, two very good sites. Subeta had a plot in early August (plus we’re getting into event time and then it’ll be practially EVENTS NON STOP) and I did well enough considering the internet problems I was having. Oh, yeah and my Subetaversary is coming up! I don’t get anything for this one (for certain anniversaries you get a loyalty box and with it you can get another pet spot, or paint a pet any color you want, etc), but it’s still exciting! And VDex… Wish Jirachi Tanabata event in July, now we’re having three weeks of events (specially colored Shinx, Ponyta ending tomorrow, Pikachu after that), then an Absol event in September, and Litwick for Halloween. *more sobbing* They’re extremely simple, it’s just refreshing, but it gets mind numbing.Tags: Internet, life, mom
|Psycho Patrol Part 2|
General on on July 16th, 2011 |
(8/25 edit Because I’m having trouble editing Psycho Patrol I’ve split it into two posts, here’s the second)
Got on long enough to check my email and found out Egg Cave has released a couple new eggs to celebrate their birthday. Why is every site I’m on having events right now?
When I was going to add this I saw this I saw a post of mine titled “Go Away Winter”… COME BACK WINTER!
Now some dark brown liquid has come out from under the fridge, and it’s definitely from under not in. Do your best not to break fridge.
Finally getting to update this
I just found that Subeta OF COURSE having an event right now.
Today wasn’t supposed to be as bad as yesterday, according to the stupid weatherman. You would have the same amount of luck trying to predict the weather with a magic 8 ball. It was worse than yesterday. I only got a few hours sleep today, and not quality sleep. I hovered somewhere in between being asleep and being awake, where nothing makes sense and everything is so confusing. It’s been raining so it’s actually nice out right now when there’s a breeze, but none of that is coming inside.
I think the liquid from the fridge came from the tray that’s supposed to keep the ice that melts. It’s been so hot that the tray overfilled. There was a lot of it, and much of it is still under and behind the fridge. I told Cynthia before she went out today with her niece Naomi, and when she came back she told me she bought a fridge. Sears resells fridges and other appliances that are sent back because of scratches and dents, so she managed to get a fairly new fridge for only $300. This fridge only has the last the weekend. I’m looking forward to saying good riddance to this fridge, and it’s horrible exposed coils.
I’ve been without internet for 10 days so far (this time).
Internet… work on July 31 so I can try to be one of the first to get into Pottermore!
Already I can feel tonight is cooler than the previous two nights, thank God.
Cynthia said yesterday she might get me a cake from Kribel’s. Even if she doesn’t, it’s really the thought that counts for me. I was happy that she even thought of doing it.
I have more to say about what happened yesterday, but I can’t type it right now. I just want to say I got see the A:LOK (I will NOT call it TLA:LOK) trailer and other Korra related stuff from SDCC and… Mako is a hottie! Cute, brooding, older, AND fire bender? Rawr. He better have a good voice actor too.
Well I can write what I wanted to now. I hadn’t planned on it because I wanted to continue watching Code Geass. For once I want my alarm to go downstairs and check for me, because if he goes down there I’ll know all is well. No matter what it bothers me that she did this. She is so naïve and acts like this is a fortress! So it’s up to me at all times, not just in instances like this, to make sure everything is locked up and is secure as it can be. There’s more but I can’t say them on here, even if the post is private. Yes! Tiger did go down though not to the area of the cellar I wanted him to, but it’s good enough.
I haven’t really slept the past couple days. One day it was unbearably hot, and yesterday my mom called for me to come down there. She had finally gone over there to start getting her stuff together. She has to be out in two weeks. She says she’s going to sell most of it because she can’t afford to pay movers or put it in storage. My stuff is all on the chopping block as well, and I can’t bring much more here or Cynthia will flip. She’s been storing stuff for my mom since I was a little kid and wants it out of her basement.
Yesterday I only took a few things with me because I couldn’t carry anymore and it’s so freaking hot. That hill is horrible enough normally, going up that hill when I already feel like my lungs are being crushed? I mostly took Nanny’s things that we raided from her house a few years ago, and some of my most important stuffed animals. My poor stuffed animals that because of my moms negligence have bald spots due to moths eating them! They were in what used to be my moms room then I took it over when she wasn’t there much, and when I left she started dumping everything she couldn’t find room for elsewhere. And then the moths took over.
I am not going down there today, not happening. I want to sleep, I so desperately want to sleep. But I found out a lot while I was down there. First and foremost that SHE IS TALKING TO Wdisney AGAIN! She is talking to him so much that when Randy bought her 200 minutes for her phone she ran out because Wdisney kept calling her! And she answered! And she told him who she was with! WTF is wrong with her?! Of course Wdisney doesn’t want her staying at Randy’s, her told her to ask her friend Tina if she could stay there. Tina… who’s a cop… I understand why he doesn’t want her at Randy’s but what’s his reasoning in sending her to a cop house? Well, either my mom didn’t ask or Tina didn’t want her. And on the subject of cops, Walt told her the cops treated him worse than everyone else and he couldn’t understand why. They even let him out at 2:30 in the morning downtown when he had no money to call anyone and nowhere to go. I won’t say here her theory as to why. Today when she asked if he wanted to come over, and mentioned she had beer, he said he didn’t want it because “Lurch”, his nickname for Randy, brought it. My mom has decided against Texas, and is now talking about going to Maryland if she can find anyone to put her up for a while, and of course Walt is against that was well. “You’re not going to Maryland without me!” he said. She’s pissing me off so much. She started talking to him again, actually SAW him (at he cried on her shoulder), and got money off him for 200 more minutes. And she has no problems with pissing him off, when if he went after anyone he would come here because he doesn’t know where Randy lives, and probably couldn’t get there if he did. But he knows where we live.
Since she needed to buy more minutes for her phone we walked to Brookline. It’s a pretty short walk, but the majority of it is up a very steep hill. And me + hill + HEAT do not mix. But the return trip was much easier.
My mom even offered to get me a cake from Kribels! I told her to ask Cynthia, who told her she was going to order the cake herself. My mom still said she’d pay for it and pick it up because she has a lot of food stamps left. I still didn’t know who was going to order it, but when I got back Cynthia said she had already done it. I tried to call my mom and tell her not to order it herself, but she had turned her phone off so she wouldn’t get any calls from Wdisney (just not answer?)
Randy offered to take me to Red Lobster on my birthday. I’d asked my mom about it last year and she said she’d think about it, then called back immediately crying and saying she couldn’t go out with another man. My mother has agreed to go this time, but we’ll see if she follows through. So on Monday she’s supposed to go apply for welfare first, then pick up my cake, and then go out to Red Lobster. And for some reason she also told Walt what she was doing! So then he complained about her going to Red Lobster with Randy.
If it does happen hopefully my crab linguini alfredo will be there. I wrote about it last birthday, the disappointment of losing one of my favorite dishes. But Cynthia always asked me if they’d brought it back, and a few months ago I checked and it was on their menu online again. We’ll see if it’s still there. At least Chocolate Wave cake is there. Assuming they haven’t got rid of that as well. I’d say “that has to be a favorite, they wouldn’t get rid of that”, but crab linguini alfredo was supposed to be a “traditional favorite” and they got rid of that so… Also, I hope Red Lobster isn’t a singing restaurant. Or that at least my mom won’t say anything! A while ago, when we were still in Arizona she told the waitress/waiter at Claim Jumpers that it was my birthday (it wasn’t) and they sang to me. The only reason she survived that was because there were witnesses. My mom still cackles about it to this day.
Every day the weathermen say that the next day is going to be cooler, that the temperatures are going down. They’ve done this for at least the past 4. And the temperature has been the same every single freaking day. This is why I call them overpaid psychics. They have never any clue what they’re talking about. I’ve never sweated so much before. It’s like I’m being rained on, and I’m always soaked. And thanks to this cat fur, dirt, and everything else that touches is sticking to me! It’s impossible to get clean! Anyone who ever complains about the cold again deserves… I won’t say since I don’t want to be smited… uh, Open Office says that isn’t a word… and it doesn’t give anything but smite and smites. Too bad, it’s smited now.
I’m officially old now. 21. It actually wasn’t that bad of a birthday, not as bad as last year, and not as bad as I was expecting. I got three cards from Cynthia, Cyndy, and my other great aunt, Nita. My grandfather has either forgotten my birthday or the card is late. I don’t expect money from him like the others, but considering he sends cards to Naomi and Kay (my cousins probably?) it’s kind of insulting, and this wouldn’t be the first year he’s forgotten since he started sending birthday cards to all these other people. Bonnie doesn’t send cards anymore, I think she’s still angry with me over my losing my temper with her when she was staying with us after the house burned down. I got $150, plus three scratch cards that I haven’t checked yet. $100 of it has to go on a Visa gift card, and the $50 is going to my internet fund.
My mother didn’t change her mind about Red Lobster, so at 2 PM Randy picked us up and we went over his place, because he always stops at home after work to take a shower. I love Randy’s townhouse, and the air conditioning~ it was lovely. Then my mom wanted me to make flyers for her sale this saturday. Randy got a new computer, which my mom said he spent a lot of money on. I think it was a waste. It has a pretty good monitor, but not only is it a Gateway, it only has a 500 GB hard drive and the other specs were low too. 500 GB is what laptops come with now, so I think it’s a waste. Also, he uses internet explorer (with lots of toolbars), instead of a more secure browser like firefox or chrome with adblock, so it’s probably going to be riddled with viruses and errors soon. But his internet, so freaking fast! I had to download Open Office to make the flyers, since he didn’t have Microsoft Office. It was a fairly large file and it downloaded at 1.5MB! He has Verizon, but he also had something hooked up to it, which was about the size of a flash drive, possibly another wireless router? Verizon comes with wireless, but I don’t know if they give you one of those things. I saw Verizon’s router in the garage with its box.
It took a while because we were having trouble with the printer, but we finally got to Red Lobster. Since I had access to the internet I checked the menu on their website beforehand and was happy to see they still listed crab linguini alfredo, but I didn’t know if they really had it. They did! No flounder of betrayal this year! I thought I was never going to eat it again! I was good and only ate one cheddar bay biscuit so I could eat it and my chocolate wave cake. I teased my mom because I twirl paste perfectly while she has to use a spoon and still messes it up. It’s a completely worthless talent but I enjoy it. My mom had crab and struggled with it. She threatened to, but she didn’t tell them it was my birthday. I still had to hear the staff singing though. It was the birthday of one of the people behind us, and someone further down the restaurant. My mom did slip up and mention my birthday once, but the waitress didn’t hear her.
When we got back to Randy’s I called Cyndy and asked her about getting internet. She agreed to it, but I don’t know if she’ll remember it. Hopefully she will so I don’t have to go through that again. Then my mom made me talk to Laura. Many people joked about me drinking that day, and Laura was no different.
My mom isn’t going to be living in Maryland, since she couldn’t find anyone to take her in. Laura wouldn’t, her parents have Whitney, Laura’s daughter, Whitney’s two kids, and one of Whitney’s friends living with them, and my godfather has his niece with him. But we may still get to Maryland. Cyndy can’t go because she’s going to California in September to see my uncle. But Randy’s got a vacation coming up in late August so maybe then. And that’s a big maybe. Despite having nowhere to go she still doesn’t want to stay with Randy. She’s an idiot. He has a nice place, good cable, internet, AIR CONDITIONING, it’s a nice area. She should be glad someone wants to take care of her.
I don’t know when I’ll be able to get it online, but I finally made a layout for my Subeta profile. It features Schneizel of course, since my username is Schneizel on there.
I’m trying to do as much of the Subeta plot as I can, but it’s difficult because I can only access the internet for a few minutes at a time, then
I talked to Cyndy today. She was offering to take me out somewhere today or next Saturday. I told her I didn’t feel right asking her to take me out when I’ve asked her to pay for my internet. She said it doesn’t matter, that taking me out is something she wants to do, that she already said she’d pay for internet, and that I deserve it. It’s a nice sentiment but she doesn’t know how much it’ll cost.
When Randy took us to Red Lobster for my birthday we drove by a Verizon store. On the side of their building was a sign that said “rule the air”. At least they’re honest about their intentions.
I think I’ve forgotten how to sleep.
I haven’t written anything in a little over a week. It might seem longer than that here, since I chose not to post some of it. I actually had the chance to get internet installed tomorrow. Cynthia said yes, Cyndy agreed to pay for it and Comcast. They were supposed to install it tomorrow, but I had to tell her to hold off for now because I’m working on something else. The “something else” that I mentioned on Twitter as well, is one of the things I decided not to post here. As soon as my mother and Wdisney ran into trouble and she got the eviction notice she’s been staying with Randy who wants her to live with him. My mother talked to me about it the first time I went down there but I didn’t take her seriously and didn’t even think about it because I know she doesn’t want to. [removed] I started seriously thinking about it the end of last month, it’s something I’ve decided to push for, and have been praying quite fervently about (something else I left out, this all has made me if nothing else a God fearing Christian).
But I’m still waiting for my stupid mom to make up her mind. It could really go either way. She’s still talking to Wdisney, he even stayed over the weekend there and when I talked to her on Monday she said she had bruises on her from arguing with him despite thinking that “he wouldn’t do anything since he’d go to jail again.” Idiot. He’s saving up money right now for them to get an apartment together. [removed] SHE BETTER NOT GET US INVOLVED IN HER TROUBLES. She needs to think more about how the consequences of her actions affect other people. I feel like I’ve said that before. Since I’ve been thinking about this for over a week now my opinion on it has been getting stronger and stronger that now if my mother decides not to live with Randy I will be furious. To the point where I may never talk to her again. Everyone is telling her this is the best option. To do the smart thing. Even one of her friends said to follow her head and not her heart (because she’s just luuubbs the psycho Wdisney). When I talked to her on Monday she was still thinking about it, today when I called her she didn’t mention it at all because [removed] He was supposed to bring boxes after work and he hadn’t shown up yet. [removed] She’s supposed to be out of there tomorrow, but she said she’s not leaving until the weekend. I expect (doesn’t mean I’ll get it) an answer within the next week and I want it to be in the positive. It better freaking be in the positive. I tried not to get my hopes up, but when I see a chance to get something I want I take it. [removed]
Pittsburgh is being called Batburgh now, since The Dark Knight Rises is filming here. Very exciting. I had wanted to be on of the extras at Heinz Field but I’m glad I didn’t try since they were filming a winter scene and everyone had to wear coats. It had to have been awful, I wouldn’t have survived. Though some extras (I don’t think those ones) got Gotham Rogue t-shirts… so lucky. Cyndy took me out on Saturday and while driving through South Side I saw one of the shirts displayed in a businesses window. And our wonderful Steelers got to play the Gotham Rogue’s themselves! Their team colors? Our team colors! And while they couldn’t use Terrible Towels since they have the Steelers logo on it, apparently they gave them gold handkerchiefs to wave around. Eeeeeeeehehehe. Movies have filmed here before, but nothing like this, we’re Gotham freaking City and the Steelers are Gotham’s football team. Even if this ends up being the last movie like Nolan says, what a way to go, with our Pittsburgh pride on display! Fuck the Patriots! The redneck Cowboys! Did YOU get to be in Batman? NO? Your fans didn’t get to be in Batman? NO? Of course not! Who would want to see you in a movie. I’m not even going to bother question marking that.
I just looked and I haven’t updated this since the 24th, wow.
Oh, yes, the patrol has ended now. He’s not living near here and they’re still talking so it’s doubtful he’ll show up. Unfortunately my nerves have been destroyed by this and I feel sick all the time so I’m still not sleeping. My mother complained today about how sick she feels from anxiety. I told her the same thing on Monday, and now all of a sudden she’s sick too. Hmm. It wouldn’t be the first time she’s appropriated a health problem of mine.
And edited version of this post will be made public when I have internet access again.
I did end up getting my Schneizel profile layout online. I like the way it turned out, though I’m not sure about the link color, it might be too bright for the background. I named all the headers after Code Geass things like Avalon, Pendragon, In Vogue, and the pets section is called Kanon ^^ I even managed to nicely fit three columns in.
I managed to participate well enough in the plot. I do need to train my battling pet more though. Etedot is only at level 63 with other stats at 150-60, not in the thousands she needs to be to fight against big baddies like the Temple Guardian.
I watched Linda Linda Linda the other day, it has been on my Netflix list for years, but I bumped it up because I knew it had the song Linda Linda in it. I was expecting that one, but I was surprised to hear Izaya’s cover song too. And it is the word rat in Linda Linda, I wasn’t sure if I was hearing it right. Strange song but so much fun. Movie was boring though, I rather watch K-ON.
I’m going to have a lot to apologize for tonight when I pray. (That was about my above rant, which has been removed)
My site was down yesterday for about 24 hours and I’ve lost some ad spots because of it, and I can’t place new ones because the stupid ad site has messed with their coding and adding links doesn’t work now.
At least I’m getting on enough to participate in two more events sites I’m on are having. I also joined World of Umbria which has some nice adoptables.
My year anniversary at VDex Project on July 29th. VDex is one of the sites that’s having an event right now (another event, and two more in the coming weeks). And my 1 year Subeta anniversary is on September 11. ily Subeta. While thinking about my wonderful new Schneizel profile layout there I realize… I spent all my good layout making luck on my Subeta profile, when my Schneizel fanlisting still needs a good layout. Schneizel has been very difficult in layout making, so I can’t see myself making another good Schneizel layout, so I may just use the same one at the Schneizel fl. Oh hey I got a trophy from the plot… a Bronze Steele Plot Trophy probably the lowest one you can get… but still a trophy! I just found out on Subeta that their rival stupid Neopets had a plot. Krawk Island maybe? I just plan on logging in there enough to keep my accounts I am done with Neopets. I have Subeta now, it’s much more fun and easier. I can’t wait to get internet back so I can do my quests again. I made it up to 30 million sP before weakness took over and I spent it all. Now I need more sP to spend!
I called my mom today. I tried to set myself up to be disappointed, and I was, but not in the way I expected to be. After getting up the courage to ask her if she’d made up her mind she said “Oh, that. Yes, but there’s a problem.” Randy (from now on referred to as Brigham Young) has been talking to some woman (forever after this referred to as [removed]) he met on a cruise, and she has decided to move here to live with him. So for now my mother is staying there, and [removed] will be as well. Because she waited around too long I’ve lost my chance. She could make him change his mind about it if she was so inclined, but of course she doesn’t care about this like I do. It was devastating and something I was completely unprepared for. I’ll call Cyndy about the internet tomorrow. I don’t want to talk anymore about it.
My [removed] mother called at 6:21 and when I got to the phone she said she’d call back in 10 minutes. It’s 7:19 now. Why did she even bother to call? She was drunk too.
My mom called today and said she and Randy hooked up (her words, not mine) and that he’s supposed to call that lady (I’ll be nice for now) and tell her not to come, but he doesn’t want to (so I’ll still be calling him Brigham Young under the circumstances) so she still may end up coming. So I’m not going to get my hopes up again. Still, I’m one step closer.
Today is Pap Pap’s birthday, my grandfather is 90 now. My mom said it is also Nita’s birthday, Pap Pap’s sister in law. If I’d known I would have sent her a card, she’s been very good to me sending money for the holidays.
My poor baby! She got the handle of a cloth bag (filled with heavy things) stuck around her abdomen. I was so scared that I would hurt her or that I wouldn’t be able to get it off and she would die. I thought of cutting it but it was too digging into her too much. I did end up getting the bag off her, but I yelled at her a lot. [removed]
I only just realized I could have taken everything out of the bag. I’m not good in a crisis. Allie seems to be better. While she still isn’t talking as much as she usually does she meowed when I got up, and meowed a couple times when I came up here after eating. She’s laying on my foot right now.
There was an earthquake, but I was asleep so I missed it. I called my mom to ask if she’d felt it, but she didn’t answer at Randy’s or on her cell phone.
Allie’s definitely got her meow back. Cynthia went out with Karen today, and brought KFC home. When I went down to eat Allie was mrowing her head off. MROW MROW MROW
I can stop calling Randy Brigham Young now, post is coming.
Google why? Gmail messed up the formatting on my email signature, so I had to edit it again for both my email accounts, and Google cleared my Google+ about page and I had to do it again. Adding all those links twice was not fun Google.Tags: birthday, Internet, life, mom, outing
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General on on July 14th, 2011 |
I’m typing this up offline as there is only a small window of opportunity to use the internet, before Comcast knows I’m online and starts forwarding to their activation page. I was already in a horrible mood. When I lost the internet again yesterday I had a mini-breakdown as things began to pile up on me. Today it was a like bomb. I don’t know what’s going to happen to me. As soon as Cynthia woke me up today and told me there was a message on the machine that she thought was from my mom, but it wasn’t from our phone numbers, I knew it was bad. To spare anyone who reads this I’ll put the facts in convenient bullet point form…
Cynthia doesn’t seem to care about all this, she just says she knew it was going to happen. I thought it might happen too, but I had hoped it would end before it would go that far. I’m thinking about bringing the bowling pin (yes I have a bowling pin) up from the basement. It’s a good thing I’m staying up at night right now, because I’m going to have to be on the lookout for him. Unfortunately, he knows who my aunt is and where she lives. We hadn’t wanted him to, but thanks to my “you can trust WDisney” mom, she let him know. My mom said I could go get anything I wanted from the apartment in case he trashed it, but not only do we not know when he’s getting out, I don’t have a key anymore. She took mine and gave it to him. There’s a chance I might lose all my stuff, and my grandmother’s things, the only things I have left of her besides one picture, since her house burned down a few years after she died. And while I didn’t like it, and haven’t lived there in a while, I’m losing my home too. I’m never going to live there again. I may never see my mom again either, because there is no way I’m moving to Texas. Assuming he doesn’t trash anything, I’ll have to move a few of my most important things up here, and the rest will go wherever my mom goes. I’m also going to have to get my birth certificate and other stuff off her, since she’ll no longer be in charge of that. I have been staying here with my great aunt, but I don’t know how much longer that can last, and I have no where else to go. Obviously, this has shaken my already fragile state. Sometimes I curse my sanity, it would be easier to just break and go completely insane. I’m having so much taken away from me again, there’s a threat to both my things and my family, and I can’t even get on the internet to vent and waste time. I guess I’ll be reading the manga, since I won’t be able to listen to music or watch anime (which I’m running out of). And the same the next night and the next night. For who knows how long. I should stop here or I’ll ramble endlessly. I have to go get some more cleenex and something to chew on, I really need to stop biting the inside of my mouth.
Edit: And if you didn’t see my Twitter in the sidebar, I do not have internet now. Hopefully it’ll come back in a couple weeks.Tags: depression, family, Health, life, mom, this is hell, VENTING PEOPLE
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