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Psycho Patrol Part 2
Posted by Megan on July 16th, 2011
Filed under: General

(8/25 edit Because I’m having trouble editing Psycho Patrol I’ve split it into two posts, here’s the second)

Got on long enough to check my email and found out Egg Cave has released a couple new eggs to celebrate their birthday. Why is every site I’m on having events right now?

When I was going to add this I saw this I saw a post of mine titled “Go Away Winter”… COME BACK WINTER!

7/22

Now some dark brown liquid has come out from under the fridge, and it’s definitely from under not in. Do your best not to break fridge.

Finally getting to update this

I just found that Subeta OF COURSE having an event right now.

Today wasn’t supposed to be as bad as yesterday, according to the stupid weatherman. You would have the same amount of luck trying to predict the weather with a magic 8 ball. It was worse than yesterday. I only got a few hours sleep today, and not quality sleep. I hovered somewhere in between being asleep and being awake, where nothing makes sense and everything is so confusing. It’s been raining so it’s actually nice out right now when there’s a breeze, but none of that is coming inside.

I think the liquid from the fridge came from the tray that’s supposed to keep the ice that melts. It’s been so hot that the tray overfilled. There was a lot of it, and much of it is still under and behind the fridge. I told Cynthia before she went out today with her niece Naomi, and when she came back she told me she bought a fridge. Sears resells fridges and other appliances that are sent back because of scratches and dents, so she managed to get a fairly new fridge for only $300. This fridge only has the last the weekend. I’m looking forward to saying good riddance to this fridge, and it’s horrible exposed coils.

I’ve been without internet for 10 days so far (this time).

Internet… work on July 31 so I can try to be one of the first to get into Pottermore!

7/23

Already I can feel tonight is cooler than the previous two nights, thank God.

Cynthia said yesterday she might get me a cake from Kribel’s. Even if she doesn’t, it’s really the thought that counts for me. I was happy that she even thought of doing it.

7/24

I have more to say about what happened yesterday, but I can’t type it right now. I just want to say I got see the A:LOK (I will NOT call it TLA:LOK) trailer and other Korra related stuff from SDCC and… Mako is a hottie! Cute, brooding, older, AND fire bender? Rawr. He better have a good voice actor too.

Well I can write what I wanted to now. I hadn’t planned on it because I wanted to continue watching Code Geass. For once I want my alarm to go downstairs and check for me, because if he goes down there I’ll know all is well. No matter what it bothers me that she did this. She is so naïve and acts like this is a fortress! So it’s up to me at all times, not just in instances like this, to make sure everything is locked up and is secure as it can be. There’s more but I can’t say them on here, even if the post is private. Yes! Tiger did go down though not to the area of the cellar I wanted him to, but it’s good enough.

I haven’t really slept the past couple days. One day it was unbearably hot, and yesterday my mom called for me to come down there. She had finally gone over there to start getting her stuff together. She has to be out in two weeks. She says she’s going to sell most of it because she can’t afford to pay movers or put it in storage. My stuff is all on the chopping block as well, and I can’t bring much more here or Cynthia will flip. She’s been storing stuff for my mom since I was a little kid and wants it out of her basement.

Yesterday I only took a few things with me because I couldn’t carry anymore and it’s so freaking hot. That hill is horrible enough normally, going up that hill when I already feel like my lungs are being crushed? I mostly took Nanny’s things that we raided from her house a few years ago, and some of my most important stuffed animals. My poor stuffed animals that because of my moms negligence have bald spots due to moths eating them! They were in what used to be my moms room then I took it over when she wasn’t there much, and when I left she started dumping everything she couldn’t find room for elsewhere. And then the moths took over.

I am not going down there today, not happening. I want to sleep, I so desperately want to sleep. But I found out a lot while I was down there. First and foremost that SHE IS TALKING TO Wdisney AGAIN! She is talking to him so much that when Randy bought her 200 minutes for her phone she ran out because Wdisney kept calling her! And she answered! And she told him who she was with! WTF is wrong with her?! Of course Wdisney doesn’t want her staying at Randy’s, her told her to ask her friend Tina if she could stay there. Tina… who’s a cop… I understand why he doesn’t want her at Randy’s but what’s his reasoning in sending her to a cop house? Well, either my mom didn’t ask or Tina didn’t want her. And on the subject of cops, Walt told her the cops treated him worse than everyone else and he couldn’t understand why. They even let him out at 2:30 in the morning downtown when he had no money to call anyone and nowhere to go. I won’t say here her theory as to why. Today when she asked if he wanted to come over, and mentioned she had beer, he said he didn’t want it because “Lurch”, his nickname for Randy, brought it. My mom has decided against Texas, and is now talking about going to Maryland if she can find anyone to put her up for a while, and of course Walt is against that was well. “You’re not going to Maryland without me!” he said. She’s pissing me off so much. She started talking to him again, actually SAW him (at he cried on her shoulder), and got money off him for 200 more minutes. And she has no problems with pissing him off, when if he went after anyone he would come here because he doesn’t know where Randy lives, and probably couldn’t get there if he did. But he knows where we live.

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Since she needed to buy more minutes for her phone we walked to Brookline. It’s a pretty short walk, but the majority of it is up a very steep hill. And me + hill + HEAT do not mix. But the return trip was much easier.

My mom even offered to get me a cake from Kribels! I told her to ask Cynthia, who told her she was going to order the cake herself. My mom still said she’d pay for it and pick it up because she has a lot of food stamps left. I still didn’t know who was going to order it, but when I got back Cynthia said she had already done it. I tried to call my mom and tell her not to order it herself, but she had turned her phone off so she wouldn’t get any calls from Wdisney (just not answer?)

Randy offered to take me to Red Lobster on my birthday. I’d asked my mom about it last year and she said she’d think about it, then called back immediately crying and saying she couldn’t go out with another man. My mother has agreed to go this time, but we’ll see if she follows through. So on Monday she’s supposed to go apply for welfare first, then pick up my cake, and then go out to Red Lobster. And for some reason she also told Walt what she was doing! So then he complained about her going to Red Lobster with Randy.

If it does happen hopefully my crab linguini alfredo will be there. I wrote about it last birthday, the disappointment of losing one of my favorite dishes. But Cynthia always asked me if they’d brought it back, and a few months ago I checked and it was on their menu online again. We’ll see if it’s still there. At least Chocolate Wave cake is there. Assuming they haven’t got rid of that as well. I’d say “that has to be a favorite, they wouldn’t get rid of that”, but crab linguini alfredo was supposed to be a “traditional favorite” and they got rid of that so… Also, I hope Red Lobster isn’t a singing restaurant. Or that at least my mom won’t say anything! A while ago, when we were still in Arizona she told the waitress/waiter at Claim Jumpers that it was my birthday (it wasn’t) and they sang to me. The only reason she survived that was because there were witnesses. My mom still cackles about it to this day.

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Every day the weathermen say that the next day is going to be cooler, that the temperatures are going down. They’ve done this for at least the past 4. And the temperature has been the same every single freaking day. This is why I call them overpaid psychics. They have never any clue what they’re talking about. I’ve never sweated so much before. It’s like I’m being rained on, and I’m always soaked. And thanks to this cat fur, dirt, and everything else that touches is sticking to me! It’s impossible to get clean! Anyone who ever complains about the cold again deserves… I won’t say since I don’t want to be smited… uh, Open Office says that isn’t a word… and it doesn’t give anything but smite and smites. Too bad, it’s smited now.

7/26

I’m officially old now. 21. It actually wasn’t that bad of a birthday, not as bad as last year, and not as bad as I was expecting. I got three cards from Cynthia, Cyndy, and my other great aunt, Nita. My grandfather has either forgotten my birthday or the card is late. I don’t expect money from him like the others, but considering he sends cards to Naomi and Kay (my cousins probably?) it’s kind of insulting, and this wouldn’t be the first year he’s forgotten since he started sending birthday cards to all these other people. Bonnie doesn’t send cards anymore, I think she’s still angry with me over my losing my temper with her when she was staying with us after the house burned down. I got $150, plus three scratch cards that I haven’t checked yet. $100 of it has to go on a Visa gift card, and the $50 is going to my internet fund.

My mother didn’t change her mind about Red Lobster, so at 2 PM Randy picked us up and we went over his place, because he always stops at home after work to take a shower. I love Randy’s townhouse, and the air conditioning~ it was lovely. Then my mom wanted me to make flyers for her sale this saturday. Randy got a new computer, which my mom said he spent a lot of money on. I think it was a waste. It has a pretty good monitor, but not only is it a Gateway, it only has a 500 GB hard drive and the other specs were low too. 500 GB is what laptops come with now, so I think it’s a waste. Also, he uses internet explorer (with lots of toolbars), instead of a more secure browser like firefox or chrome with adblock, so it’s probably going to be riddled with viruses and errors soon. But his internet, so freaking fast! I had to download Open Office to make the flyers, since he didn’t have Microsoft Office. It was a fairly large file and it downloaded at 1.5MB! He has Verizon, but he also had something hooked up to it, which was about the size of a flash drive, possibly another wireless router? Verizon comes with wireless, but I don’t know if they give you one of those things. I saw Verizon’s router in the garage with its box.

It took a while because we were having trouble with the printer, but we finally got to Red Lobster. Since I had access to the internet I checked the menu on their website beforehand and was happy to see they still listed crab linguini alfredo, but I didn’t know if they really had it. They did! No flounder of betrayal this year! I thought I was never going to eat it again! I was good and only ate one cheddar bay biscuit so I could eat it and my chocolate wave cake. I teased my mom because I twirl paste perfectly while she has to use a spoon and still messes it up. It’s a completely worthless talent but I enjoy it. My mom had crab and struggled with it. She threatened to, but she didn’t tell them it was my birthday. I still had to hear the staff singing though. It was the birthday of one of the people behind us, and someone further down the restaurant. My mom did slip up and mention my birthday once, but the waitress didn’t hear her.

When we got back to Randy’s I called Cyndy and asked her about getting internet. She agreed to it, but I don’t know if she’ll remember it. Hopefully she will so I don’t have to go through that again. Then my mom made me talk to Laura. Many people joked about me drinking that day, and Laura was no different.

My mom isn’t going to be living in Maryland, since she couldn’t find anyone to take her in. Laura wouldn’t, her parents have Whitney, Laura’s daughter, Whitney’s two kids, and one of Whitney’s friends living with them, and my godfather has his niece with him. But we may still get to Maryland. Cyndy can’t go because she’s going to California in September to see my uncle. But Randy’s got a vacation coming up in late August so maybe then. And that’s a big maybe. Despite having nowhere to go she still doesn’t want to stay with Randy. She’s an idiot. He has a nice place, good cable, internet, AIR CONDITIONING, it’s a nice area. She should be glad someone wants to take care of her.

7/28

I don’t know when I’ll be able to get it online, but I finally made a layout for my Subeta profile. It features Schneizel of course, since my username is Schneizel on there.

I’m trying to do as much of the Subeta plot as I can, but it’s difficult because I can only access the internet for a few minutes at a time, then

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7/30

I talked to Cyndy today. She was offering to take me out somewhere today or next Saturday. I told her I didn’t feel right asking her to take me out when I’ve asked her to pay for my internet. She said it doesn’t matter, that taking me out is something she wants to do, that she already said she’d pay for internet, and that I deserve it. It’s a nice sentiment but she doesn’t know how much it’ll cost.

When Randy took us to Red Lobster for my birthday we drove by a Verizon store. On the side of their building was a sign that said “rule the air”. At least they’re honest about their intentions.

I think I’ve forgotten how to sleep.

8/10

I haven’t written anything in a little over a week. It might seem longer than that here, since I chose not to post some of it. I actually had the chance to get internet installed tomorrow. Cynthia said yes, Cyndy agreed to pay for it and Comcast. They were supposed to install it tomorrow, but I had to tell her to hold off for now because I’m working on something else. The “something else” that I mentioned on Twitter as well, is one of the things I decided not to post here. As soon as my mother and Wdisney ran into trouble and she got the eviction notice she’s been staying with Randy who wants her to live with him. My mother talked to me about it the first time I went down there but I didn’t take her seriously and didn’t even think about it because I know she doesn’t want to. [removed] I started seriously thinking about it the end of last month, it’s something I’ve decided to push for, and have been praying quite fervently about (something else I left out, this all has made me if nothing else a God fearing Christian).

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But I’m still waiting for my stupid mom to make up her mind. It could really go either way. She’s still talking to Wdisney, he even stayed over the weekend there and when I talked to her on Monday she said she had bruises on her from arguing with him despite thinking that “he wouldn’t do anything since he’d go to jail again.” Idiot. He’s saving up money right now for them to get an apartment together. [removed] SHE BETTER NOT GET US INVOLVED IN HER TROUBLES. She needs to think more about how the consequences of her actions affect other people. I feel like I’ve said that before. Since I’ve been thinking about this for over a week now my opinion on it has been getting stronger and stronger that now if my mother decides not to live with Randy I will be furious. To the point where I may never talk to her again. Everyone is telling her this is the best option. To do the smart thing. Even one of her friends said to follow her head and not her heart (because she’s just luuubbs the psycho Wdisney). When I talked to her on Monday she was still thinking about it, today when I called her she didn’t mention it at all because [removed] He was supposed to bring boxes after work and he hadn’t shown up yet. [removed] She’s supposed to be out of there tomorrow, but she said she’s not leaving until the weekend. I expect (doesn’t mean I’ll get it) an answer within the next week and I want it to be in the positive. It better freaking be in the positive. I tried not to get my hopes up, but when I see a chance to get something I want I take it. [removed]

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Pittsburgh is being called Batburgh now, since The Dark Knight Rises is filming here. Very exciting. I had wanted to be on of the extras at Heinz Field but I’m glad I didn’t try since they were filming a winter scene and everyone had to wear coats. It had to have been awful, I wouldn’t have survived. Though some extras (I don’t think those ones) got Gotham Rogue t-shirts… so lucky. Cyndy took me out on Saturday and while driving through South Side I saw one of the shirts displayed in a businesses window. And our wonderful Steelers got to play the Gotham Rogue’s themselves! Their team colors? Our team colors! And while they couldn’t use Terrible Towels since they have the Steelers logo on it, apparently they gave them gold handkerchiefs to wave around. Eeeeeeeehehehe. Movies have filmed here before, but nothing like this, we’re Gotham freaking City and the Steelers are Gotham’s football team. Even if this ends up being the last movie like Nolan says, what a way to go, with our Pittsburgh pride on display! Fuck the Patriots! The redneck Cowboys! Did YOU get to be in Batman? NO? Your fans didn’t get to be in Batman? NO? Of course not! Who would want to see you in a movie. I’m not even going to bother question marking that.

I just looked and I haven’t updated this since the 24th, wow.

Oh, yes, the patrol has ended now. He’s not living near here and they’re still talking so it’s doubtful he’ll show up. Unfortunately my nerves have been destroyed by this and I feel sick all the time so I’m still not sleeping. My mother complained today about how sick she feels from anxiety. I told her the same thing on Monday, and now all of a sudden she’s sick too. Hmm. It wouldn’t be the first time she’s appropriated a health problem of mine.

And edited version of this post will be made public when I have internet access again.

I did end up getting my Schneizel profile layout online. I like the way it turned out, though I’m not sure about the link color, it might be too bright for the background. I named all the headers after Code Geass things like Avalon, Pendragon, In Vogue, and the pets section is called Kanon ^^ I even managed to nicely fit three columns in.

I managed to participate well enough in the plot. I do need to train my battling pet more though. Etedot is only at level 63 with other stats at 150-60, not in the thousands she needs to be to fight against big baddies like the Temple Guardian.

I watched Linda Linda Linda the other day, it has been on my Netflix list for years, but I bumped it up because I knew it had the song Linda Linda in it. I was expecting that one, but I was surprised to hear Izaya’s cover song too. And it is the word rat in Linda Linda, I wasn’t sure if I was hearing it right. Strange song but so much fun. Movie was boring though, I rather watch K-ON.

8/18

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I’m going to have a lot to apologize for tonight when I pray. (That was about my above rant, which has been removed)

My site was down yesterday for about 24 hours and I’ve lost some ad spots because of it, and I can’t place new ones because the stupid ad site has messed with their coding and adding links doesn’t work now.

At least I’m getting on enough to participate in two more events sites I’m on are having. I also joined World of Umbria which has some nice adoptables.

My year anniversary at VDex Project on July 29th. VDex is one of the sites that’s having an event right now (another event, and two more in the coming weeks). And my 1 year Subeta anniversary is on September 11. ily Subeta. While thinking about my wonderful new Schneizel profile layout there I realize… I spent all my good layout making luck on my Subeta profile, when my Schneizel fanlisting still needs a good layout. Schneizel has been very difficult in layout making, so I can’t see myself making another good Schneizel layout, so I may just use the same one at the Schneizel fl. Oh hey I got a trophy from the plot… a Bronze Steele Plot Trophy probably the lowest one you can get… but still a trophy! I just found out on Subeta that their rival stupid Neopets had a plot. Krawk Island maybe? I just plan on logging in there enough to keep my accounts I am done with Neopets. I have Subeta now, it’s much more fun and easier. I can’t wait to get internet back so I can do my quests again. I made it up to 30 million sP before weakness took over and I spent it all. Now I need more sP to spend!

8/19

I called my mom today. I tried to set myself up to be disappointed, and I was, but not in the way I expected to be. After getting up the courage to ask her if she’d made up her mind she said “Oh, that. Yes, but there’s a problem.” Randy (from now on referred to as Brigham Young) has been talking to some woman (forever after this referred to as [removed]) he met on a cruise, and she has decided to move here to live with him. So for now my mother is staying there, and [removed] will be as well. Because she waited around too long I’ve lost my chance. She could make him change his mind about it if she was so inclined, but of course she doesn’t care about this like I do. It was devastating and something I was completely unprepared for. I’ll call Cyndy about the internet tomorrow. I don’t want to talk anymore about it.

8/20

My [removed] mother called at 6:21 and when I got to the phone she said she’d call back in 10 minutes. It’s 7:19 now. Why did she even bother to call? She was drunk too.

8/22

My mom called today and said she and Randy hooked up (her words, not mine) and that he’s supposed to call that lady (I’ll be nice for now) and tell her not to come, but he doesn’t want to (so I’ll still be calling him Brigham Young under the circumstances) so she still may end up coming. So I’m not going to get my hopes up again. Still, I’m one step closer.

Today is Pap Pap’s birthday, my grandfather is 90 now. My mom said it is also Nita’s birthday, Pap Pap’s sister in law. If I’d known I would have sent her a card, she’s been very good to me sending money for the holidays.

8/23

My poor baby! She got the handle of a cloth bag (filled with heavy things) stuck around her abdomen. I was so scared that I would hurt her or that I wouldn’t be able to get it off and she would die. I thought of cutting it but it was too digging into her too much. I did end up getting the bag off her, but I yelled at her a lot. [removed]

I only just realized I could have taken everything out of the bag. I’m not good in a crisis. Allie seems to be better. While she still isn’t talking as much as she usually does she meowed when I got up, and meowed a couple times when I came up here after eating. She’s laying on my foot right now.

There was an earthquake, but I was asleep so I missed it. I called my mom to ask if she’d felt it, but she didn’t answer at Randy’s or on her cell phone.

8/25

Allie’s definitely got her meow back. Cynthia went out with Karen today, and brought KFC home. When I went down to eat Allie was mrowing her head off. MROW MROW MROW

I can stop calling Randy Brigham Young now, post is coming.

Google why? Gmail messed up the formatting on my email signature, so I had to edit it again for both my email accounts, and Google cleared my Google+ about page and I had to do it again. Adding all those links twice was not fun Google.

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Go Away Winter
Posted by Megan on February 22nd, 2011
Filed under: General

After a few days of pleasant weather, it’s back to snowing again. It’s so freaking cold. We went out to get milk late this afternoon and it was hailing. We should have just stayed home, but we left anyway. Bad idea, it started getting icy just a few minutes later, and Pittsburgh is a city of hills. After we got the milk we couldn’t stop to eat, and we took the street car downtown, then caught the bus back, instead of walking. By that time it was snowing so hard it was practically blizzard conditions. We got back a few hours after leaving, and then the snow decided to calm down. I am so pissed off. I was hoping to get to South Hills Village tomorrow to get my headphones and Visa gift card, but that’s most likely not happening now, and if this weather doesn’t cut it out soon I don’t know when that’ll happen. It’s been at least a month since my headphones broke and this is driving me crazy. The old ones my mom found stopped working a few days after she gave them to me.

On Friday I went out with mommy dearest to the library to help her get her taxes done, then she took me to see the new CVS, and then to Eat n Park with an old gift card Cynthia gave me. She’s such a freaking liar. She says she’s hardly been drinking or smoking anymore, and that at most her an Walt share a pack a day. Yet when I called her later that day she was drunk. Like she is most times I call. A couple weeks ago she said he is an ex-Marine. And she’s said in the past that Walt couldn’t get on welfare because he isn’t disabled, which was a lie itself, you don’t have to be disabled to get on welfare. I found out that not only is he on welfare, but he also gets food stamps. Basically everything she says is a lie. And anything you say to her goes in one ear and out the other, she doesn’t listen to a word you say. If I say something to her most often she starts talking about something else, and doesn’t even look at me or acknowledge that I spoke.* But anyway, later that night I got an email saying the IRS had rejected her tax return because of some error with her pin number. She said she’d call them again on Monday, but I don’t know if they’re working today. It doesn’t matter anyway, because Cynthia’s phone isn’t working for some reason so she can’t contact me. She could have used the IRS online system, but she refused to go to the library again, instead having me do it on my computer, with her on the phone talking to me. When I’m at the computer trying to do things for her it always ends with her yelling at me because she doesn’t understand something. That’s not my problem, all I can do is read to her what it says. I wasn’t going to go through that again. So I didn’t bother telling her she could do it online.

On the night of Valentines day, and the early morning on the 15th my heart decided to go one strike. It was protesting long working hours and little pay. First my arms were aching, the kind of ache like if you exercise too much. When I get that it’s awful, it starts in the inside of my arm and goes down into my hands and fingers, and up to my shoulders and into my back. I try to stay as still as possible when it happens, because even the slightest movement can cause excruciating pain. It wasn’t so bad when I first when to sleep, but when I woke up an hour later it was horrible, the worst it’s ever been. And, I had started getting chest pains too. I also get them sometimes (not indigestion), but this continued to get worse and wouldn’t go away. I got so bad I had to go ask Cynthia for aspirin. I can’t swallow pills so I crushed it, and Cynthia gave me some arthritis cream for my arms, and put me downstairs on the couch. My heart was appeased by the sacrifice of aspirin, and went back to work. I slept off an on until dawn when I went back upstairs, and my arms were feeling a little better. Later that day my legs decided they wanted to cause trouble too, but it wasn’t as bad as my arms had been.

Edit: Cynthia does this too, except instead of just ignoring you she’ll talk over you if she disagrees with something she said. Just start yelling to drown out what you say, like a little kid putting their hands of their ears and going “nah nah nah I can’t hear you.” Most often it happens with me drying my hands. She’s always yelling at me to dry my hands. I can have a napkin in my hands drying them, and she’ll still be yelling at me to dry my hands. So, I think she must have the intelligence of a monkey or a baby. Both think if they don’t see something, it’s not happening, or it’s not there. A couple days ago she walked into the room while I was drying my hands, and she said “oh, you’re drying your hands for once!” I told her I always dry my hands, every single time, but she started yelling over me that I need to start drying them so they don’t crack, and to use lotion as well. Today it’s because the telephone started working again today, and whoever she talked to said it was because of her computer (translation: “we don’t know what the problem is, so we’ll blame it on something most people have.”) She says I had my computer hooked up to the phone line or that was I recharging something (WTF, she knows nothing about computers, recharging what?) She wouldn’t listen to me that my computer not only doesn’t connect to a phone line, it can’t. And why would I? What would the purpose be. But when I said that the computer physically cannot be hooked up to a phone line she just started yelling over me, like she always does, not to use the computer during the day. The laptop wasn’t even on or plugged in when the phone stopped working, and hadn’t been for hours, and I’ve been using it here since June without any problems with the phone, but she can’t explain to me why the laptop would make the phone stop working, just that she knows it does because that’s what someone decided to tell her, and because computers are scary newfangled technology, and she loves to talk about things she knows absolutely nothing about.

Edit2: Ha, I’ve been vindicated, next door’s phone wasn’t working either. Now Cynthia’s complaining that it smells, because my mom made me Tuna Helper, which Cynthia apparently thinks is “disgusting.” She says she hates noodles, but likes pasta. She won’t accept that they’re the same thing. She also hates Cinnamon Toast Crunch, and thinks it’s disgusting too. So anything she doesn’t like to eat is disgusting. My mom says she’s just disagreeable, which is true.

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Let’s Get This Over With
Posted by Megan on November 4th, 2010
Filed under: Health

Obviously I haven’t felt like posting lately. I still don’t, but I’m forcing myself to. Today I finally went to the eye doctor. Ever since last year I’ve been pushing to see the eye doctor at Sears because I remembered that he was nice. I just didn’t remember how nice. The eye doctor there is such a nice guy, and seems like a very good doctor. So if anyone in the Pittsburgh area is looking for an eye doctor, go see the guy at Sears in South Hills Village. It’s tough getting out there now, for those who don’t have a car, Port Authority cut (and continues to cut) many of the bus and street car services. We had to take a bus downtown, then catch a street car because there aren’t any street cars that go all the way to South Hills Village for our area. You either have to go downtown and take the street car, or take the street car here, get off, then take another street car the rest of the way. I didn’t wait very long to see the doctor. My appointment was for 1 PM, but he saw me before then (he didn’t realize that until I got in – I was just there so he saw me). After checking my eyes he said the one of them, I think it was the left, had developed a mild (he said something about 2, level, minus, step?) astigmatism. He also said that my current prescription is too strong, and that this one should be much better, possibly even at little better than 20/20 (I didn’t know there was anything better). Since I had checked the headaches box, he asked about it, and I told him I was supposed to have an MRI done, because I’d been getting headaches for years, but that last year they got a lot worse, sometimes so bad that I couldn’t even stand. He asked why my PCP wasn’t sending me to a neurologist, since that would be better. I remembered that when I first went to him he talked about having me see a neurologist, but last time it was tough even getting the MRI from him. I think I know why, more on that later. Either way, he said, it was good that I was getting the MRI because any time there’s a big change in symptoms like that (like suddenly getting the worst headache you’ve ever experienced) you should get tests done. I also mentioned to the eye doctor that one of the reasons I was having the MRI done was because of the bad (in my opinion) head injury I’d had when I was younger, that left me temporarily blind. Since I got hit in the back of the head the eye doctor said it was a very good chance that it caused trouble, and thank goodness I got my vision back. After that we went to the Eat n Park out there, and managed to get a street car going all the way back here. (more…)

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Meg and Cyn’s Excellent Adventure
Posted by Megan on September 23rd, 2010
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Or not. Last week my great aunt and I were going to go to Sears in the mall to get my eyes checked. My glasses have been broken for a while now, and I haven’t had a real eye exam in over 5 years, so I am in desperate need of some new frames and a new prescription. We ended up not going because Cynthia heard on the news that it was going to storm. It ended up briefly raining that evening. We finally went yesterday. The news had called for rain again, but only scattered showers. So we ventured out. Getting to South Hills Village is even more complicated than it has been in the past. More and more bus and street car services are being cut, so now it usually takes a street car and a bus both ways. First you have to go downtown than catch the street car that goes all the way out to South Hills Village. Or you have to take the street car halfway to SHV, then take on the rest of the way. Like I said, either way you have to do it twice, because there are almost no street cars going all the way there anymore. Luckily, there was one a little after two, so we caught a bus and went a ways to Mt. Lebanon because Cythia didn’t want to walk up all the hills to got to the street car near us. We waited about 20-30 minutes both times for the bus and street car. When we got to the mall and into Sears one of the people working there said the eye doctor was at lunch and to check back after 3. So we went to get my Visa gift card first. I always get Visa gift cards twice a year, once with my birthday money, and then in the early spring with my Christmas money. I’ve been doing this for years and never had a problem before, but this time the woman didn’t understand that I wanted ALL of the money on there. I had $100, and it’s about a $3 activation fee. So whatever money I have I get whatever left over put on the card. She just couldn’t understand that. So she only put $95 on there and gave me a two dollars and nickle back. I was so pissed. I don’t do this very often and I didn’t have a lot of money to begin with, every dollar counts.

It was after 3 when we went back to Sears and the eye doctor still wasn’t there. We waited for a while, but I started to feel sick so we gave up and went to eat at Eat n Park. The day hadn’t been great so far, but it wasn’t exactly bad. I got my card, and I got a nice lunch. It was near the end of the meal that things started to go downhill at a fast pace. I was seated facing the window so I noticed it getting darker and darker outside, and then wind started to pick up. The trees outside were really flailing. Then it started to rain. Then pour. Until some moments you couldn’t even see more than a few feet outside. I told my aunt she said the weatherman had said “a chance of showers” not “a chance of armagedon”. Like most of the people in there we waited it out. One of the waitresses said they had gotten a call from someone saying they were being advised on the news not to drive. In terms of severity, there have actually been worse storms. It was quite windy and rained a lot, but except for a lot of lightning flashes in the clouds, and probably no more than three cloud to ground lightning strikes, and one big thunder/lightning clap, at was pretty uneventful. The rain was heavy though. It was even coming in one of Eat n Parks windows. The lights also blinked a few times. But nothing gave any indicator of what we were to see later. (more…)

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The Pain Has Finally Subsided
Posted by Megan on August 19th, 2010
Filed under: Health

I went to hospital and had blood taken yesterday. I was pretty nervous beforehand, and I didn’t get much sleep. I have trouble sleeping when I know I have to get up early in the morning, and I had several bad dreams due to my nerves. My aunt Cyndy was supposed to pick Cynthia and me up at 11 AM, but after Cynthia called her at 11:15 we found out Cyndy hadn’t gotten up yet. Cynthia wasn’t happy because she was worried the place would be crowded, since more people go during lunch and there’s only one woman on duty at that time. I didn’t start getting really anxious until we got to the hospital. Like most people I am terrified of them. Adding to the problem, it was also the hospital Nanny, my grandmother, was in before she was transferred to a nursing home where she died. Walking in the front door didn’t exactly bring back fond memories of the place. Passing all the no entry/doctors only doors (“is someone getting cut up behind there?”) and radiation warning signs didn’t help either. My heart was pounding by the time we got the waiting area. There were 7 other people besides the three of us. The first group went in almost right after we got there, the second woman thought she was in the wrong place and left (heard her talking on her cell phone) and the two women we came in with were behind me on the list.

Since the other woman left I was next, and we weren’t waiting 15 minutes before I was called. The lady was really nice and for the first minute or so just got all the e-paper work done. Then she asked me if I had an arm preference, there was a quick pinch, and it was all done in about 30 seconds. Then we left and Cyndy dropped Cynthia and I off at Eat n Park since I had been fasting for the last 13 hours. I was surprised at how easy getting the blood drawn itself was. I was not prepared for the pain that came after. This was the second time I had blood taken. The first time was at a clinic, and it took the woman a long time poking around my arm before she finally used something called a butterfly needle since she couldn’t find my vein. It hurt a lot more then, it was a disturbing feeling because I could feel the needle inside my arm, and it took a lot longer. But it didn’t hurt afterward. This time it barely hurt while doing it, and it was very quick, but after the pain steadily got worse until my whole arm down to my hand and to the back of my shoulder was aching. After about 24 hours the majority of the pain has finally stopped, except for a bit in the crease of the inside of my elbow where it’s all bruised.

Cynthia called my doctor today to see if my blood test result had come. They had and he had already looked them over. I do not have diabetes, the nurse said my sugar level was good, and my cholesterol is low. With the way I eat I wonder how can this be? I guess my body has evolved over the level of you petty humans and has adapted to handle high levels of chocolate and grease! :devil: However, there was one problem the doctor did see. My thyroid result was low, and he might want to put me on medication for it. I don’t know much about the thyroid (what it is, where it is, or what it does) but Cynthia said it can make you really tired if it’s low, and make you gain weight. I am dead tired all the time and the simplest tasks exhaust me, so that would make sense. I’m a plump girl, but in no way of the term am I fat (it all goes to my ass and my thighs, if it went up top this wouldn’t be a problem :tears:), but even though I generally don’t eat more than once a day or ever consume more than 1500 calories in a day, my activity level is pretty low, and when I do eat it’s usually nothing good. Even the slightest physical activity knocks me out and gives me a splitting headache, and the exercises that I did do ruined my knees. So I basically gave up on that. I’m going to the doctor on Monday to see what he wants to do, and I’m going to try to get the prescriptions for my MRI and CT Scan then. Though if I had this much trouble going to the hospital just to get some blood taken, I don’t know how I’m going to go through getting putting in the radiation space pod for an hour. Just hit me over the head until I’m knocked out. I’m getting it done to have my brain examined anyway.

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Flounder of Pain and Regret
Posted by Megan on July 25th, 2010
Filed under: General

Quite the melodramatic title, no? Today is my birthday. And it is not a happy occasion. Luckily, only one person has said “happy birthday” and that was over the phone, so I couldn’t hit them (her, it was my mom). I am officially out of my teen years. Another unhappy thing. I never thought (or wanted) I’d make it to 20. I didn’t think I’d make it to 18 (didn’t want to then either). The one good thing that was supposed to happen today turned out bad. Of course. Cynthia took me to Red Lobster like she said she would. Karen (the probably cousin) took us. I’ve been eating the same thing there since I was 11, or slightly younger. And I ate it the last time I was there, sometime in April. But when I went there today. Gone. They took my favorite dish, and the only thing I liked, off the menu. Bye bye Crab Linguini Alfredo. Hello Shrimp and Crab Linguini Alfredo with tomatoes for $4 more. So I got to eat flounder, which I don’t particularly like, I’m not a fish person, gagging on it the entire time. I almost cried when the woman said they didn’t have my dish anymore. It might sound silly to cry over spaghetti, but I only get to Red Lobster a few times a year, and I always look forward to it. I was looking forward to it this time, the only thing I had to look forward too, and it turned out horribly. I did get my Chocolate Wave cake, but I was so filled on disgusting flounder that I couldn’t eat it all. I didn’t think of it til I got home, but why couldn’t they still have given me Crab Linguini Alfredo? All they’d have to do is not put in the shrimp and tomatoes. What’s the big deal? When we got back my mom had called, so I called her and told her what happened. She’s the one who wished me the happy birthday, nothing happy about it. I haven’t celebrated my birthday in years, I don’t see what’s to celebrate in the worst day of my life. Since I was a kid I always thought it would have been better if I hadn’t been born. My mother said she still wasn’t feeling well, so she still hadn’t gone to the store, and she might tomorrow. She also said no other cards for me had come, not from Cyndy or Nita, just the one from Pap Pap.

Cyndy did call yesterday. She called my mom (or my mom called her), and while talking to her found out I was staying up here. Apparently my mom told her all about her troubles, how she was fired, and no one would hire her (it would help if she’d apply at a few places). Cyndy doesn’t like the white trash bastard either. When I talked to Cynthia after, Cyndy had told her she had met him once, and I’d already told her what an ass he was. Even Cyndy said that if I guy starts acting like that, you get rid of him in the beginning. Cyndy asked me how I was and I gave the usual “fine”. She said I could always call her if I wanted to do something. She mentioned the Aviary, which would be nice, but it sounded like she’d been drinking, so she might not remember if I said something, and the way she was talking sounded so much like my mother that it upset me.

My mom said it was good that I got out at all, but I would have rather not gone if I had known this would happen. I wasn’t in a particularly good mood this morning, but I was in a better mood when I woke up than I am now. At least the last “new” Poirot is on PBS tonight if the power doesn’t go out again and if the station is coming in right.

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What No Korea?
Posted by Megan on May 17th, 2010
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On Saturday I went to the Pittsburgh Folk Festival with my aunt. Like many nights I had trouble sleeping, so I was still tired when I dragged myself out of bed late that morning. When I had first told her about it my aunt Cyndy said we’d probably go around one. On Friday my mom said she’d call Cyndy and ask when we were going, but I didn’t here from here until 11 AM the next day when she got home. Cyndy had decided we’d go at 3 instead. My mom didn’t stay here long, she went down to the bar soon after, saying that she’d wash my clothes when she got back. It was after one when she got came back. She always does this. She washes my clothes right before I go somewhere (even if they’re just wrinkled) and doesn’t leave enough time for them to dry. She fell asleep while they were washing, and when I tried to wake her up to ask what setting she wanted the drier on, it took a few minutes before she mumbled her answer. After that her cell phone rang and that got her up, and she went to go wash that guys clothes. After that her cell phone rang 5 more times with him calling her, and she got one text. Her phone rang 6 times in a row, plus one text, in about 10 minutes all from the same person. He is insane! So my mom was yelling at him, then she was stomping around slamming drawers and stuff, yelling that she didn’t get to go to the store because she fell asleep, complaining about money, her weight, crying, and saying she was going to kill herself. At 2:30 my clothes weren’t dry so I had to find something else to put on to go up to my great aunt Cynthia’s to take a shower. I hate taking showers here since there’s hardly any water and the tub is disgusting. After 3 my mom called and was harassing me to come back down. I was done, but Cynthia has a cloth shower curtain doesn’t have a liner, so water goes everywhere and I had to clean it up. When I came back down my clothes still weren’t dry, my mother was still yelling, so I was in a horrible, horrible mood. I didn’t even want to go at this point. But by 3:40 my clothes were dry enough, Cyndy came, and we left.

When we got to the convention center it was packed we didn’t get a parking space anywhere near the place. Inside there were people everywhere. And they’re all so stupid. No one pays attention to what they’re doing. There’s packs of people everywhere trying to walk, and some people are just standing in the middle of the floor chatting, or looking off into the distance instead of where they’re walking, so it was really hard to get anywhere. The first thing we did was eat. We looked around a bit, and then Cyndy got some Haluski from Ukraine stand. Haluski is noodles and cabbage. I didn’t think I would like it because I hate strong or harsh flavored things, and vegetables often are, but it wasn’t bad. The cabbage was very mild tasting. Then I had a pierogi, from either the Poland or Ukraine stand. It’s like a dumpling, a couple different things can be in them, but the one I had was plain, just washed potatoes inside. It was wonderful. I wish I could’ve had more, but I couldn’t ask Cyndy. I wanted to try potato pancakes from the Carpatho-Rusyn, but once again I couldn’t ask Cyndy, in case I didn’t like it. After that I had a couple bites of palacinke from Croatia, and a couple bites of fudge rum biscuit, I don’t know where that was from. I didn’t really like either. Palacinke is like crepe filled with either fruit or a type of cream. It had a strange taste, and the fudge rum biscuit was like eating cookie dough. I also would have like to have known that the cookie was fudge rum beforehand. I know it doesn’t have a lot of rum in it, but I’d prefer to ingest no alcohol at all.

We missed many performances in the afternoon, though luckily two of them (India and Philippines) performed again later on. We saw the end of the Slovakian performance, the Ukrainian one, then after an hour long intermission India, Philippines, Vietnam, and Lebanon. China, one that I had wanted to see and missed earlier, was performing again too late, so I never got to see it. Predictably, the Indian one had at least one Bollywood number. Their last dance could have been one as well, or just a generic pop song. The main problem with all the performances is that they lacked style and heart. Everyone was doing the movements of the dance, but not really putting any effort or feeling into it. The Bollywood one was okay, but the girls were young, it probably would have been better with women. The second one had the adults instead of teens and preteens, but it was slower, and had a lot of the typical Indian dance hand movements. Then the men came on, and they were the most energetic of them all. Most of them were really into it. At the end the two groups did like a cheerleader pyramid, but the back group fell down. Philippines was after that, and I was really looking forward to them. We saw them rehearsing earlier on, and they were great. They also did three dances. The first was with those finger things, like in The King and I (I know that’s Thailand), the second was a dance with the way the girls could wear a certain item of clothing (don’t ask me what it was called), and the third was the one we had seen earlier, and I was really looking forward to. They were probably the best out of everyone, and the audience seemed to like it. There were several long sticks being moved around on the floor (said to represent bamboo), with either the girl, then a couple girls, next a guy, and the first girl and the guy moving between them. It was probably called Singkil. I tried to find the best representations of what I saw so they would be here, here, here, and here. It was a small group of young people like the first, but were as talented as the third. Even though there’s more people (there was a single set of “bamboo” sticks), the third one is closest to what I saw. Vietnam was next, and they also did very well. Apparently, it was their first time there too. The music was good, the dancing was good, and there was a little bit of acrobatics. They only did one dance, with three girls and four guys, and the woman said it was about a girl going a temple, a right of passage kind of song. After that Lebanon came on, and they were okay, India was definitely ahead of them. They had a short performance too, and I was surprised when they danced to Shakira’s Eyes Like Yours. I guess it has Arabic in it, but still…

There was going to be a 40 minute or so intermission after that, so we got some cookies for Cynthia from somewhere near the Ukraine stand, not sure which country, and Carpatho-Rusyn. Cynthia had given me some money, so I got a few things from the China stand, a small stand thing with a scenery design on it, a cricket made out of ribbon and wire, and a purple lipstick case. I don’t wear lipstick, but it was pretty. I was waiting a while to pay for it though, and had to wait for Cyndy to get there to get their attention. I’m not the most assertive person. Then the woman said the Chinese guy that was there could write something on the back of the stand for me. I didn’t really want to, who knows if they’re really writing what they say they are and not “stupid white person” or something. But I felt forced to. I didn’t want my name, so I chose “joy”. “Hell bitch” would be more appropriate, I’m not the nicest or most joyful person, but I would like to know and not have it done behind my back.

I got back after 8 and was dead tired and had a headache from all the loud music. PBS is begging again, and I didn’t think I could stay up for Bloody Reunion on Sundance Channel’s Asia Extreme, so I tried to go to sleep but still couldn’t. Then after 10:30 my mom called. I was in the bathroom the first time, but called back, then it stopped ringing and there was a click. A couple minutes later she called again and I answered it, but she didn’t say anything back. I just heard background noise for about 10 seconds, then there was a click again. A few minutes later she called again and said “llel lelelelu”. When I asked her again she managed to say “let me in”. She hasn’t stayed home in I don’t know how long, and the time she does come home, she’s drunk. I was stressed out again, so I don’t know when I got to sleep. Probably after 1:30 AM.

I saw my mom briefly yesterday, and as she was leaving he was calling her again. She works late tonight, so I don’t know if I’ll see her today.

As for the title, I hate doing blog titles, but it refers to the fact that there was no Korean stand at the folk fest, or Japanese for that matter. I don’t know why, our Asian population isn’t exactly small.

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Crazy Alert
Posted by Megan on May 11th, 2010
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My mom ended up deciding to use the Eat n Park gift card after all, so we went after her doctors appointment yesterday. I don’t know if she got me knew prescriptions for my CT scan, MRI, and blood test, but if she did she didn’t mention it to me. She briefly found the CAT scan and blood test one before we left yesterday, and lost them again within 30 minutes. I told her to ask the doctor for new ones since they only last about 6 months, though the time limit on the depends on the doctor. She said it didn’t matter since the blood test one was only 5 months old. She has no common sense at all. First of all, she doesn’t even know where it is again, and she’s not going to find it immediately if she does at all. And second, even if she did know where it was, I know I wouldn’t be going in a month. And third, that still leaves the MRI and CAT scan ones. She doesn’t think! She could have gotten all of them yesterday, but like I said, she didn’t even mention it to me. She’s going to the doctors again in a couple weeks to get her own blood test. If she doesn’t get my prescriptions then I don’t know when I will, because it’s been 5 months since she last went, and I know it’ll be at least that long before she goes again.

After we got home she went out to smoke a cigarette and when she came back in she said she had gotten a pain in her neck and was dizzy, and maybe she was having a stroke. And she calls me the hypochondriac. She’s always saying “maybe I’m having a stroke” or “maybe I’m having a heart attack.” So what if she got a pain in her neck and she was dizzy? I always get pains everywhere, I always get dizzy, and once in a while I get pain that goes down my neck and knocks me to the ground. Does that mean I’m having a heart attack/stroke? No, it means I got a pain and I got dizzy. You just deal with it until it passes, and then continue on. I’m not going to sympathize with her for things that are normal occurrences for me, and God knows she doesn’t sympathize with me, or else it wouldn’t be over a year since all this started, without getting any tests done. Besides her blood test she’s also supposed to get a throat test (she was supposed to get it the last time she went to the doctor) because of her acid reflux. It really damages your throat and can cause cancer. She says she’d rather not know. She’s so quick to die, but what would I do? I’m not capable of taking care of myself, if I was there’s no way I’d still be here. I’d love to be healthy, well, and normal, but I don’t get those options, it’s not possible for me right now. There’s another health problem I’ve been wondering if I have lately, depressions crazy sister. I realized it after watching a program on Discovery Health’s Psycho weak, and saw the people on it acting just like I do, but I don’t really want to talk about that right now.

Another thing my mom was complaining about in the brief time she was home was the air conditioning. It’s gotten chilly again in the past couple days and she thinks I should turn it off. I tried to explain to her that the air wouldn’t turn on unless it got above a certain temperature, but it didn’t sound like she believed me, she said it felt like it’d been on. It hasn’t. I don’t know what temperature it was yesterday, but it’s cold in here right now because it’s 58 degrees, not because the of the air conditioning.

She tried yesterday to call the electric company to get it switched in our name, but they said she couldn’t without putting down $300 first, because of her bad credit. Then that idiot she’s been staying with called and mention some place that could help. Now I don’t know anything about it, but my first thought was one of those “it’s my money and I need it now” kind of places, which I think is a bad idea. No company just gives you money. You either have to offer something as collateral or there’s high interest rates. There’s no point in letting her know what I think though, because she won’t listen to me or she’ll just start yelling. If she does do this and runs into any problems because of it she’ll just have to deal with it. She said she should have thought to try to put it in my name instead of hers, but I don’t have any credit either. Now this is why she put the cable in my name, because hers was bad and she said it would build mine up. So either she’s just too lazy to try, or she’s been destroying mine. Both are very good possibilities.

After a few hours at home that guy called again, and then she left to go over there. I was in the room so I heard her end of the conversation, and I don’t like it. That guy seems like the obsessive type. I remember the last times she stayed here (which was a while ago now) her cell phone was going off all night from text messages. Now, I don’t know if they were all from him, but most of them probably were. Then the last time we were out with Randy, it was happening again. Text message after text message. Then yesterday I found out he had called her earlier in the day, when she was in the doctors office, before he had called then. And she was making excuses as to why she didn’t pick up. WTF? Even if it’s someone you’re “friends” with, you don’t have to pick up the phone immediately every single time they call or text you. It wasn’t just the phone call today (and even the things in the past) that clued me in. When we were walking home, we briefly spoke about how the McDonalds next door was coming along. I mentioned I hadn’t seen it, since you can only see the parking lot from the back window because the landlord has a little office for his business back there that blocks the rest of it. So she said we could go past it so I could see it. But then she thought better of it and said that if we did we’d have to pass Carhops, and the guy would see and come out and I would have to meet him. What? Just because she walks by the place, he’d immediately charge out to see her, even though she wasn’t going in? She’d act like that before, whenever we’d pass the place she’d put her hood up so they couldn’t see it was her, and she said it was because they’d want her to go in/wonder why she didn’t. Just because you walk by a place that you know people inside doesn’t mean you have to go in, or that you should feel obligated to. And if the people are making you feel that way, you shouldn’t see them anymore, because they’re bad people. When you walk by a place and don’t go in it means you have something else to do and you don’t want to go in. You shouldn’t be harassed just from walking by a place. She is so stupid! So I didn’t get to see the new McD building. She said that guy has been asking when he gets to meet me. She told him never, and that’s right. That has nothing to do with me, and he shouldn’t even be asking because he has nothing to do with me. But since he’s obviously insane and controlling he probably thinks it’s his right. This is the guy who she knows went in her purse at least once, because all of her sleeping pills were gone. So besides taking her sleeping pills (as to why I now have an idea about) he’s gone through her purse to see what was in there, and could have very well been looking through her cell phone. She’s traded one disgusting creep for another! What is wrong with her?!

So that was my day. As for Eat n Park, it’s still a sad state of affairs. Even though it’s a family restaurant chain, it used to be really good. It’s sad to see this one at least doing so poorly. There was a little bit of the honey sauce on the sticky bun this time, but it was still room temperature and hard. Even the roll this time was hard and stale. We asked for the french fries on a separate plate since the dolts who work there can’t even get that piece of common sense through their heads, but the french fries weren’t that good. There’s no consistency with these people anymore. Except for the stale, low quality rolls that they’ve been giving the past few times. Like sometimes when you go the french fries are good and sometimes they’re bad. Then sometimes when you go you get really small (and sometimes the incorrect amount) chicken fillets, and this time they were huge. Then there’s their mashed potatoes. The last time I went and they were doing the mashed potatoes right, there ended up being a smashed tomato in the middle of them, in the gravy. I don’t know how a restaurant can change so quickly. I’ve only seen it happen once before, with Jamie’s, where the quality changed overnight when someone new who didn’t know WTF they were doing took it over and ruined it. Eat n Park’s a little different though, since it’s a chain. That doesn’t mean new people couldn’t ruin it, but there’s a certain way things are supposed to be done, and are done the same at all EnP restaurants except this one.

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I Am So Angry
Posted by Megan on May 7th, 2010
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Icon coming soon. I am so angry right now. I gave the $25 I got for Easter to my mom so she could get me a gift card from her work. I asked her today if she got it and she said I’ll have to wait because we’re too broke right now. She’s acting like I asked her buy it. I was the one paying for it! She took what little money I had. Again. There’s no point in even letting her know I’m angry because she’ll just throw a tantrum like a four year old little bitch like she always does. Who knows if I’ll ever see that money again, or that gift card. If I do it won’t be until at least a month, or until we’re not broke anymore, which’ll be in about a year when she gets a tax return again. She was talking about coming home again, but she does that almost every night, so I doubt she will, and I don’t want to see her anyway. I don’t want to be anywhere near her. I’m not making even a little through PayPal right now, so I have nothing. When I asked about the card, one of the things brought up in her little broke speech was we don’t even have don’t even have enough to go out on her day off, which is BS. I’ve barely even seen her, even if she did have the money we wouldn’t go anywhere, she’d be out drinking! And we do have the money to go out and she knows it. Cynthia gave me a gift card to Eat n Park, and my mom knows it. She’s such a liar.

I called my aunt yesterday and asked for her to take me to the Pittsburgh folk festival next weekend. She didn’t really sound like she wanted to do it, but she agreed. The last time I went to it I was a little kid. I wanted to go with my mom, and asked her last year when the date was released, but she said we wouldn’t be able to get out there, and now she doesn’t have the money anyway. Cynthia said she’d give me $10 for it.

I also found out the other day that Phantom of the Opera is coming here late this summer. I told my mom and she said we’d go but we’ll see. I’ve missed it and Wicked a couple times. We have to go this time since the US tour is ending, and who knows when I’ll get the chance to see it again. I’m sure it’ll start back up again, but it won’t be immediately, and then it’d have to cycle back to us.

I hope Cynthia is home, I can’t wait to tell her what my mom did. She knows how often my mom takes my money. I usually don’t mind it, but I hate it when she takes it without asking, and this time she took it a step further by stealing it when I asked her to get something for me.

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Posted by Megan on May 1st, 2010
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It’s been almost two weeks since my last post so I’m forcing myself to post again, even though I don’t feel like it. I’m waiting for my mom right now. It’s her day off and she went down to the bar a little under 20 minutes before 12, and it’s almost 7 now. She said yesterday she’d make garlic bread for me today, so I’m waiting to see if she comes home or not. If she’s not here by 10 or 11 PM I’ll have to eat either the donuts she brought me this morning, or chocolate and potato stix. I really don’t want to do that, it’s so bad for me, and I want real food. Since my last post my mom has only stayed here a couple of days. The rest of the time I’d only see her for a couple minutes a day, or I wouldn’t see her at all. My sleep is really disjointed right now. I’m trying to just sleep during the day, but I get so tired at night too. But I can’t sleep at night when I’m alone. I tried to sleep at night a couple days early last week, but I had nightmares but nights, the first one of which was so bad I still haven’t recovered from it.

I went out not last week but the week before with Cynthia to Eat n Park. They’ve really gone downhill unfortunately. The time before last there was a smashed piece of tomato in the gravy of my mashed potatoes, the sticky bun was cold, hard, and not sticky, and the service was bad too. The service was fine this time, but once again the sticky bun wasn’t sticky or fresh, and they’ve shrunk to not even an inch wide and half an inch high. Another thing they’ve been doing that really annoys me as that when I order my sides mashed potatoes and french fries they put the french fries on the plate with the chicken and the mashed potatoes on their own separate little plate. So you either get a tiny little mound of mashed potatoes (it was done with an ice cream scooper) with a little gravy on top, or the mashed potatoes done normally gravy sopping off the plate. The french fries belong on their own plate, not the mashed potatoes. It might seem like a minor gripe, but not only have they been doing it that way since before I was born, it’s the most convenient way. To me it’s only common sense that you’d put the chicken and the mashed potatoes together, and the second side on its own. If I wanted chicken and french fries with a side of mashed potatoes I would say that. Cynthia said she might take me again this coming week. Even if Eat n Park does suck now, I still want my chicken fillets, and I need to get out.

When my mother was here this morning she said she worked all weekdays next week like she’s been doing, and she doesn’t have any money anyway, and that if we did I would have to treat her. I don’t know what she’s thinking, I don’t have any money. All I have is $20 from Easter, and that won’t buy crap. I need to save my money anyway. I can’t believe she’s out of money. No, I can believe it, but it’s infuriating that she’s spent all of her tax return. I wanted to go to Red Lobster with just the two of us, and she said we would. But since she’s going out every single night drinking, the moneys all gone now. We must have gone out to eat together with it 4 times tops. I can bug her to ask Randy to take us, but I wanted it to be just us. I wanted to originally, and now I really do since I barely ever see her and never spend any time with her. We’re going to have even less money now since the landlord decided he wasn’t going to pay for the electric, because it had been too expensive recently. I don’t know why because the air was only on 3 times and the amount of electricity we I use hasn’t changed. Unless it’s because for the past week I used the microwave almost every day. I think he’s a liar, and I don’t think we should be paying any more for this crappy place, especially the electric. I told my mom, the electric should be brought up to code before we should be made to pay for it. Like everything else here the electric is awful, but this could actually kill us. The worst example of it I can think of is the fan in the living room. Last spring and summer I was sleeping in here on the couch, and the air conditioning sucks so I always had the fan on. The last time I turned on the fan it sparked behind the slider and lit up blue inside the wall. The switch for the fan is a little plastic slider you push up or down so you can see into the wall there. It scared me so much I never touched it again. It could electrocute me or start a fire. I always turn off the surge protector before plugging anything into it, I have to wait until the air isn’t on, and the fridge isn’t running at full power before using the microwave, and even then the microwave doesn’t like it, the lights blink, and the television in the living room blinks… I hate this place.

I haven’t been online much recently. I’ve mainly just been watching anime. I still have around 900 episodes/ovas/movies to get through. I’ll make a post about the anime I’ve been watching, what I liked and didn’t like soon since it’ll need it’s own space. I will say that La Maison en Petits Cubes was wonderful. I didn’t think Japan could do stuff like that. Atama Yama and Franz Kafka’s A Country Doctor had interesting animation, but unfortunately it was also the seizure inducing kind. It was way to shaky and scratchy, it hurt my eyes. La Maison en Petits Cubes animation was beautiful.

After about 6 years I finally got a Cybunny! In the past I’d either forget about Cybunny Carnival, or I wouldn’t be playing Neopets then. Last Poogle Parade (after getting my 3 Poogles) I marked down the date for the Cybunny day. And this year I actually remembered. I didn’t think I was going to get even one at first but on my fourth try I got Aislineagh, a girl, and on the seventh and 8th tries I got her brother and sister Usagiave and Usagine. Aw, my precious Cybunnys, you’re so cute! I also updated my lookups 1 2 3 4, and wasted money NC Mall crap. I plan on continuing to waste money on Neocash items when I can. I know I shouldn’t have, and yes it’s stupid, but customizing is my favorite thing to do on Neopets. And thanks to my stupidity my Neopets look great! I just wish they’d give out the gift boxes will all purchases not just with Neocash Cards. It’s not fair that I spend the same amount, but I have to pay to send my items to my sides.

I will only mention this once, and I don’t plan on ever talking about it again: Do not join the adoptables site Egg Cave. It’s a scam site, the owner is a dictator, and there are lot’s of better sites out there. GPXPlus, Dragon Cave, Squiby, Valenth, take your pick. But trust me, stay away from Egg Cave unless you want to lose your time and money.

I have to get off now. I’ve been sitting here all day, so I need to move around a bit. Schneizel hasn’t been the icon since the end of March. He’s very unhappy about it. So he gets to be my icon this time.

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